small update 🩷 (Patreon)

Hey guys! I’ve been making so many update posts lately lol… but I did a lot of thinking and I wanted to share. 🩷

This month has been very hard for me… for 2 weeks I was dealing with family matters and it took up more time than expected. I tried to plan ahead accordingly because I knew I’d have less time this month, but more things started popping up & it threw my entire schedule off. Mentally I’ve been in a really low place, which has affected my work quite a bit because I’m someone who tends to isolate when I’m having a hard time. I didn’t even want to post about it here because I’m not the type to share my feelings with others, but that’s also probably why when I do struggle, I struggle a lot and very deeply.

While I won’t share the issues I’ve been dealing with (they’re nothing too bad, so don’t worry! I’ll live lol), I wanted to let you guys know why I’ve struggled this month. I know it must’ve felt like all of a sudden I was showing up less and less, right? I had so many plans for this month, but life happens I guess and there’s not much you can do about it lol. All you can do is try your hardest to pick yourself up and keep going, so that’s what I plan to do.

this being said, Feb fansigns are done and I need to upload them. March + April will be done soon !! ^^ I have them all set up and ready to shoot for. As for Mugi tier, the voted set, I have everything needed for it but it will be put off until May. I uploaded 2 sets for Mugi tier for this reason to make up for it, but in return I’ll do the character that won this month as well as another voted set- hopefully uploading 3-4 sets total next month for Mugi Tier.

For tiers lower than Mugi, I should have my last set for you guys up by tonight. 🩷

Thank you guys for always being so patient and kind with me… I feel like I’ve struggled and disappointed you guys a lot this past year in particular, despite desperately wanting to amp things up and do more. I want to cosplay more and improve more… and I feel like I have in some ways, but it always feels like some dark force is grabbing me and making sure I’m not able to!!😭💔 it’s something I’m trying to work on with myself. Mental health has always been a weak point for me because I tend to avoid it as much as possible… I’m really good at brushing off painful feelings or hard situations, but as I get older it becomes harder and harder. I wonder why that is, lol. 🩷🩷🩷

anyway, I have a lot coming this year regardless of mental or physical situations beyond my control. I have so many plans and so many ideas to share with you!! Colossal con is coming up, and I have a lot of fun things to show you guys!! 🩷🩷🩷 I hope I can make you guys happy soon !! I love you guys a lot … 🩷🩷🩷