hi, im so sorry i disappeared suddenly for months (Patreon)

hello, i am so sorry i disappeared out of the blue without so much of a heads up or without even pausing or closing my patreon, nor have i even so much as, within that time of the 5-6 months that i was away, opened my patreon at all TO pause it or close it, it was incredibly irresponsible of me and very disrespectful to the money that u pay me and trust me to deliver a service

my sudden cease of operations during these past months was unexpected and most of the first few was me just heavily deeply contemplating ceasing my art endeavors as well as my existence, it is in no relation to my feelings towards my art as a whole it was just affected by my general losing my mind at the time, i dislike mentioning this but this controls most of my life for years now it just got real bad real fast and i hate to say it but for as long as i can remember i honestly do not know how to control it nor do i have the means or help to make rational decisions, and this hasnt happened since 2019 (wayyy before i started drawing the art u currently see) and i really thought i wouldnt have this happen again

However regardless of me going crazy and losing it its no excuse for not so much as saying something or notifying anyone who waited for me and paid me, its so disrespectful to your hard earned money that u support me with because u enjoy my work and i am very deeply sorry, during the time i was away, when i was more stable i still worked on the art i would put on my patreon i,, i honestly do not know why i just didnt come back or literally anything, i made very very poor decisions i cannot explain

thank you for your time reading this i apologize deeply and i thank you so much for supporting my art, it really helped during the time i was away