The cycle continues, I'm cursed. (Patreon)

I don't know how to put it in nicer words...

But I'm coming to the sad realization that I'm like Sisyphus trying to push a big project forward, just for it to get stuck and roll back to the bottom of the hill... And there I go, pushing it forward again only to repeat the pattern because I refuse to give up. But sometimes you have to look at yourself, look at the project and realize, as much as you know you have the skill to do it, it's still a lot for one person... but also, what makes it even sadder, is realizing you are not in a position to get all the help you need... I don't want to just make porn... I want to put some story in the porn, that can work without the porn. But I guess with my current budget, that won't be possible for a while. Tried to fix the issue, it wasn't enough.

I worked with an independent animation studio... I might ask them for help when it comes to Dungeons and Debtors.

When it comes to GumLee... it's a tough one, it has been on development limbo for 2 Fionna and Cake seasons. It's my most ambitious project so far, but also the most challenging and expensive. I got a professional Background artist, I can no longer pay them... and that paints a picture on the other aspects of the production, like Voice acting, sound design and editing... I thought all those issues would be fixed by now, oh boy I was wrong. I was even planning to get an inbetweener on board. It's not possible.

The plan forward is:

• Keeping the big stuff in the background, bit by bit, in the shadows.

• Smaller, cheaper productions to finance the larger projects

• Cutting down more living expenses... shouldn't go this far, but I want to do it, for my art.

• Set up a project savings account. 15% of all earnings go to that fund.

• Side gig... My sister insists I should make cute little stickers for her to sell... I think I'll try.
  But won't share more than this info lol. no sfw and nsfw business mixing on my watch.

For shorter projects... I want them to have a little bit more dialogue. More practice for the big stuff.

So far... I have two options...

1. Something new

2. A remake

I feel bad about everything... but everything is to finance the big boy projects in a sustainable way... contrary to legend, I'm not like other artist that breathe and already get a lot of $$$... My artistic career has been a rocky one full of moments like these, but worse...

I'm getting tired of this cycle, I want it to end. I'm tired of wanting to climb a hill and turns out it's a giant mountain because I don't know how to measure the scale of my ambition taking into account what I can actually able do.