I am so grateful 💜 (Patreon)
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Things have been a little rocky for me recently & it doesn't look like things will even out any time soon. I'm always going to try my best to honour all of you & the support you give to me. I understand so deeply that all of you pledge money that belongs to you, that you've earned, that you could spend on anything else.. on supporting me. On days like today, or even weeks like I've had recently where I haven't been able to give my usual level of energy to my work, I am more inclined to feel like I'm failing. I'm not as kind to myself as I know I should be, as kind as I would want anyone else to be to themselves. Despite any work I've done leading up to feeling like this, my brain always leads me to believe that I am undeserving of the opportunity I have right now of working for myself & being able to create freely.. and be supported to do that. Don't get me wrong, it's not all that easy & I do work really hard but it's no where near as stressful as teaching was for me the last couple of years. I appreciate being in this position so much. I'll never be able to explain just how much. That's why when new people join our community here on Patreon, or you send me a really kind message, or show your support for my audios, excitement for upcoming plans etc.. I can't help but choke up. You might think that your support goes unnoticed or that interactions don't have an impact on me but it's the complete opposite. I notice & take to heart every single like, comment, pledge, interaction, message & kindness. I feel it so deeply that it moves me. It's hard sometimes having the platform that I do - by that I mean having quite a lot of people see what I do & post but also having so many amazing people gathered in the name of my work. I know better than anyone how complicated every individual's life is and after having the honour of getting to know a lot of people through this community I can whole heartedly say that you are some of the best people to be alive on Earth right now. You have to be. So many of you are already etched deep into my heart - I know how lucky I am to be where I am today, and without certain members of this community I never would have got this far. You all deserve the absolute world and I'll forever be begging the universe to let you be so happy, even long after I stop making audios. I can never know everyone on a personal level because I am just one person but as much as I can wish you the absolute best, I do & will always. Thank you for all you give me every single day. Thank you for showing me grace no matter what is going on in my life & for believing in me. I draw so much strength from this incredible community and I really don't feel like my audios provide anywhere near the same kind of support to you as I get in return. But you guys tell me otherwise, and that's why I keep doing what I do. Being able to live this creative life that helps people too is another level of having a purpose. It means everything to me. I just wanted you to know how grateful I am. I feel like this every day. Just thank you so much. 💜