Unfinished Song-in-Progress: Petty Drama... (Patreon)

Remember how I said that as an artist, I love to overdramatise and exaggerate situations to make the art more impactful? (also because it's fun - and healthy! - to be over-the-top dramatic and blow things way out of proportion for the bit 🙈)

So anyway... 

As you may know if you read the potato appreciation post from last month, I went through a friend breakup. And it sucked. And I was genuinely crushed. And I shared what I wrote about how I was feeling when it first happened (ie. "Quiet Heartbreak")...when I was still actively crying and hyperventilating 😅🫠

But eventually, as I learned more about what was going on/being said behind my back, and as I took stock of the relationship, I started to feel more angry (among other things) than sad. And I genuinely had to ask people to stop telling me about it, because once the anger started to take over the sadness, that was enough for me to be okay with the friendship ending, and I felt like learning anything more would honestly make me too mad to reasonably heal from the experience.

And well... in my healing journey, I cried a lot (but I was so productive; it's an art ✨ iykyk). I ranted a lot. To myself and to a couple of close trusted friends. I talked to my reliable source for both support and honesty - she'll validate my feelings, but she'll also tell me if I'm being an unreasonable jerk 😅

Eventually I came back to "Quiet Heartbreak" to test out a couple different melodies (none of which am I in love with...yet). And then, about 2 days later, I wrote this.

And here's the thing: I whole heartedly feel both "Quiet Heartbreak" and "Petty Drama" simultaneously. I genuinely was so sad. And even if it's for the best, a relationship ending always sucks and is always hard. But at the same time, I felt like the whole thing was very high school. And so much happened, and so much was said, and so many people were involved for some reason, and none of it was necessary. Every part of it could have been handled differently...better, in my opinion.

So, while I acknowledge that it's not up to me how things went down or to dictate how others should or shouldn't behave, especially when there are feelings of hurt, GOSH DARN IT I wanted to scream at the injustice of it all 😅🫣

And sometimes, we gotta be dramatic about things so we can adequately feel our feelings and move on. So...

Lyrics:

Can't believe that there's still petty drama

This time you're the source of trauma

Thought that we were both mature

But you keep proving me wrong