Behind-the-Song: YOU SUCK pt.3 (Patreon)

I gotta say, while I do feel like this song is pretty straight forward, I am actually really enjoying revisiting it 🙈 So thank you for humouring me 😅❤️

Sorry if you think that I'm a drama queen / But coming from the bad guy running through my dreams...

While this is straight forward, it does also have some backstory!

I wrote this line 100% because of the manipulation and gaslighting involved in narcissistic relationships. Because if you're ever upset and angry, or react to anything in an appropriate/warranted but emotional way, or ask a question that's perceived as an accusation, the tables are turned immediately onto you. You're being unreasonable. You're overreacting. You're being dramatic. You're crazy.

Even. When. You're right. Even when your reaction is justified. Even when you're just expressing emotions - which you don't have control over and are always valid. Even when you're just asking a mundane question.

✨Yay gaslighting and emotional manipulation✨

But why should I take that seriously when it's coming from the literal man of my nightmares? Seems like maybe I wasn't the villain...maybe I was in fact not "dramatic" and he was in fact traumatic... 💁‍♀️

Call me what you want, but you still did the deed / So I'm wearing my crown / To tell them what went down

*I will not be expanding on what I meant by this because a) that is my business 😅🫣 and b) I don't want to accidentally re-traumatize or trigger anyone* 🤷‍♀️

But this song (and a few others) was my way of telling the world what he did. Exposing him for the crappy human he is, at least in relationships. And I did it with sass. I did it with ✨flair✨ 😎

Side note: I am recently coming around to the notion that a person who is willing to treat another person that way, especially a person they're meant to (and say they do) love and care about, is not a good person no matter who they are outside of that relationship. Because I don't think a good person would be willing to even consider treating someone so horribly. And I've decided I'm kind of okay with referring to that person as a monster. They earned that title 🤷‍♀️ But maybe I'm just bitter and will change my mind in the future. That's just where I'm at for the time being. 😅