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Have you ever wondered what "Picture Perfect" would sound like if it was meant to be sad? We'll wonder no more! 😅

I think this is so funny, because the song is inherently sad. It's about someone negging me about my experience. It's about someone gaslighting me. It's about someone telling me they know me and my body and it's limitations (or lack thereof, apparently?) better than I do. It's having someone take my experience as something I lied about specifically to hurt them...because my chronic illness and disabilities are clearly about them and should be taken as a personal assault...to everyone but me. I am the monster here, clearly.

Picture Perfect is about being invalidated and harassed simply because I wasn't believed.

It is an inherently sad and upsetting song. I wrote it after spending hours of my time cycling between upset and outraged, and trying desperately to explain myself in a situation where I was being bullied. Where someone hurt my feelings and I gave them the benefit of the doubt, only to have them hurt me more and in worse ways days later.

But I do not know how to sing "How'd you know I always wanted someone to mansplain my life to me" in a sad tone 😂

As much as this song absolutely should be upsetting, I wrote it to be so sassy and sarcastic. Because this song isn't about me being hurt. It's not about being the victim. It's about experiencing shitty things and still being empowered. It's about being hurt by someone and not just sitting back and taking it.

But moving on and allowing the person who hurt me to think whatever they want of me. Because it is simply not worth spending my limited time or energy on them in any way. Sure, it's recognizing that they are just one of those people who you just can't reason with. But they weren't worth my time regardless. Because they treated me poorly and I don't deserve that.

SO SUCK IT. 💁‍♀️

Don't worry. The new track sounds much more cheery/playful - sarcasm. We're bringing the sass. And we will not be apologizing 😎

I am so dang grateful for Alanna and her dedication to making sure we're bringing my vision to life, even if it differs from her first thoughts, and no matter how much extra time and effort it takes. 🥹❤️