Unfinished Song Vault: Break (Patreon)

HAPPY NEW YEAR SLOTH GANG! 🥳 Sorry this is a day late; I hadn't had a chance to schedule this post before I left to celebrate MomUnmuted's birthday 😅😬

This song tidbit felt appropriate for the end of the holidays and start of the new year... A song I started about feeling the burnout of running myself ragged, but convincing myself that I'll be fine and can just keep going indefinitely because the alternative of taking a break would be "lazy" (we know I hate this word, but the emotions attached to it are very real 🤷‍♀️) and therefore unacceptable 😬

I wrote this back in 2022 at some point when I was feeling particularly overwhelmed. Truthfully I end up in that headspace pretty frequently; this internal turmoil of relentless overwhelm to guilt over not doing enough or feeling "off" and needing to step back, to convincing myself it's fine and I can manage 🫣 2023 required a lot of work in that area, and I am getting better at listening to my own needs, but I definitely still end up overwhelmed a lot. 

For instance, I had 10 separate holiday events immediately followed by two days out of town for my mom's birthday (yes it was at a spa, but no matter where I am, if I'm away, I can't help but think of all the things I'm not getting done 🙈), but I still scheduled meetups, a collab stream, a photoshoot, generally maintained the schedules for movie night and streams (and had some pretty long streams 😅) and about half of the Patreon stuff, and managed to get a bunch of Christmas baking done for events... I did cancel one stream. But only one, and it was the only thing that got cancelled and not just rescheduled...

So anyway, I am feeling this song a bit right now 😅🫣 I swear I am slowly getting better at taking care of myself, but the holidays are a different beast!

I actually really like the way this song bit was written with using the sound of a previous word in the following line. It felt super cool and I was pretty proud of it. I hope you like it!

Lyrics

I need a break I'm breaking down

On the floor of my bathroom

Starting to fray and I'm afraid

That I'm already undone

I'm done crying myself to sleep at night

Wishing it all away

No I can't waste the time

I'm alright, I don't need a break 🤷‍♀️