HAPPY NEW YEAR? (Patreon)

The 2022 was definitely the worst year of my life. I've lost first my grandma and then my dad. With my dad's death I've lost a lot of friends and family because their actions towards me or him during this whole year where disgusting and if I didn't care before about people now I care less. 

I've thought about suicide. I couldn't even sing "happy birthday" on my birthday. I cried a lot this year, I'm even crying now. I'm so upset with life, seriously I can't imagine a worst year than this one.

But if I think seriously about it this year was the last one I see my dad, we went on a trip together, I told him I loved him and he told me he loved me too. I did everything I was able to and I was there, next to him. If I don't think deeply about it it feels like he's on trip on his hometown he loved so much but at the same time I'm sure he's glad to be with his dad and his mom on heaven. It's not like I won't see him for an eternity. I'm sure I'll see him again and that he's looking for me, taking care of me, my sister and nieces from wherever he is.

This year also my sister and I became closer, she's like my best friend now and the person I trust the more besides my boyfriend who helped me in this hell and that was there for my dad and my whole family, he's definitely the man I'm going to create a family with. His whole family was there for me, even more than my own blood related family. 

I tried to keep busy writing and working with sims and it really helped me a lot, I'm really proud of it, sadly I didn't worked and released many animations or machinima as I wanted but I think it's pretty understandable right? 

I've already spoke with my college and I'll be back on March so I can accomplish my promise to dad to study and graduate. I'll keep making animations and I'll get better at it, I'm sure of it.

There's a lot of things that I'll have to work on like taking care of a house full of cats but I'll do it, I'm my dad's favorite and more alike daughter after all. 

So I hope you all still supporting me and using my animations, I couldn't be even more happy about it and I'm really proud when you tag me on your videos or your posts on instagram or twitter. 

I'm unsure about what to say or how should I finish this post but I wish you all a good new year and I hope you all can accomplish all the goals you set, you're able to do it, believe in yourself!