Depressed (Patreon)

Lately I've felt less productive, less drawn in by my work. I'll admit that a big part of why I work on this project, and why I've kept it up since 2014, is because it serves as an escape from the reality around myself that I don't fit into. Cliche artist mumbo-jumbo I know, but I've always felt alone and alienated and those feelings have expounded recently in life. 

While many know and support my work online, in the real world nobody cares, nobody relates or respects it, and sure one could tell themselves not to worry about what others think, however, when it's a job you spend the majority of your hours in, around those you can't relate or identify with, work you don't care about; it will affect you. I come home infuriated, not with anybody or anything in particular, but from discontent and how that over rides the state of mind I require in order to animate. I could take a break from the project, but then I can't escape the disatifying life I exist in. 

Everyday I'm putting on a mask and playing pretend and it's wearing me thin. I don't know where I'm going with this. I guess the short version is: I'm very depressed. Like, not sad, but very depressed and alone.

Anyway, just needed to vent because I don't have much else. As for the current shot I'm working on, I'm not happy with it so I'm starting again, I'll post a proper thumbnail tomorrow. I have meetings at my job all week so I won't have much to post until next week unfortunately.