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The technology attacks in the UK and attacks from ex partner were super intense before I left. People ask me what do attacks feel like? I have had so many over the years and learnt as much as I can through them in order to help me understand and build up my defences.

Well, they like me in a mental and emotional place where I don't want to live. Where the feeling on living on earth is not worth it. This is done by radiating frequency at my brain, for my brain to be under so much frequency attack that my brain comes out of sync with my heart. All I feel is intense pressure and my thoughts becomes slowed to the point all I want to do is curl up and go into the light of me in order to escape the intense pressure upon me. Night time is their preferred time but it can happen whenever.

Over the years, I have had to teach myself not to be scared, as the heart has a way of suppressing when an attack is being implemented. It has taken years for my heart to become empowered and not be frightened. Fear is their desired energy as it creates many avenues for them to get further inside my mind. The pressure they use with technology frequencies can be so intense that I have lost thought process and no its not that I have just entered into some amazing awareness, its because my neuros are so fried that I cant think anymore.

Both the children are effected with nightmares and waking up at night unable to move. This has been going on continuously since I left Totto.

Also Waffle, a few days before we were going to depart from France he refused to enter into my home, just sat there shaking with fear. I headed over to my mothers. The attacks were that bad.

I was hoping that being in France would be the end of attacks and although they have got better (as anything would have been better) the attacks have continued.

But with everything I learn, we have to learn in order to grow. We have to see ourselves in the mess that is around us and see what the hell is going on. The technology is targeted through satellites and once in the field of me or my children or waffle, it can change what is manifested around. They need fears or insecurities to get in as these are frequencies that we have they doesn't align with truth of ourself. This causes weakness in my defence.

Taking Waffle for a walk, it was like every dog would go batshit crazy on him. Waffle is the sweetest dog and although he is big, he is a big softy but every dog would turn in to a psycho, unstable dog to the point their owners are looking at us with disbelief on how their dog is reacting. Then Waffle came down really sick and I mean sick, I thought we were going to loose him. Lots of medication, 4 trips to the vets and we ended up at a vet hospital. He got badly attacked by a nest of ticks. I must of pulled off 20 ticks off him. Once cleared there would be more. It was weird. We stopped walking him outside and still kept finding ticks on him. His tummy reacted badly. I decided to move from one house into another because of the attacks to see if my spontaneous actions would help the situation but that wasn't the case, in fact things got worse. I was emotional mess as I really thought I was going to have to say goodbye to Waffle and dealing with that and also more technology attacks on myself. Frequency being targeted at me trying to breakdown down my defences. Obviously being sick with worry and emotional its much easier to get into my field compared to when I'm balanced and centered within myself. Attack the kids and dog then I'm going to be far more vulnerable.

Thankfully, yesterday I woke up and felt so much calmness and strength. Within the first hour Waffle started to vomit up blood and here I go again, down to the vets. The vets here have been lovely but I still wasn't happy as it was like sit and wait . I found this hard so I drove to the hospital and they did more tests and more medication. Wait again and hope he eats and if he doesn't then back to the vets

I have never been a dog person. I had a childhood dog of the same bread, most of my happy memories were with that dog and my younger brother playing. Waffle is really a piece of my heart and I know they want him gone, him leaving then would really break me. Losing him, I don't know if I could carry on in the same way. It would change me.

This morning, I followed the technology attacks again and still the CIA. This base is in Arizona. Its has a slight military feel. They have a room with a large monitor watching and monitoring people. They arn't monitoring murderers, rapists or criminals of any kind. They monitor and attack innocent people that carry light who they don't want to have an positive impact here. You see, a centered awakened individual who wants the bests for themselves and humanity is the actually a threat to them. They sit there very much like the hunger games movie to cause havoc on peoples lives which no consequences for their actions. They are soulless, spineless humans

The room that I entered into had a base on which they stand on which created a protective field around the whole office. The base was aluminum and this clear field seemed to be their protection from foreign technology attacks. This protection didn't protect them from me.

The CIA was informed of me when I was 7 years old by the Queen Elizabeth as apparently I wasn't responding to the programming the way they wanted and I was deemed a national threat. I was 7 years old! They have been monitoring me since then. They also had to become more involved once I left Totto, as he was my handler and without him then I was more of a threat.

The CIA is reliant on technology as most people are. However they are more so as to target anyone they use the technology to create the frequencies to fuck up your field. Once in they use my own insecurities and fears against me. Nightmares of childhood will appear in my dream state, or hammer me with insecurities that I have or other fears to get me to a place where I loose trust with myself, where I don't believe in myself. This is what Totto use to do, keep me unstable, without him they had to do this by hacking into my dream state.

I attacked the CIA database this morning and the satalites and took out their technology defence, which was keeping them protected from interference from foreign countries. Not sure how long that will last but at least give me a little break while they deal with the clear up. This is just one base, there are many more and I will keep going until I feel no CIA around me. I'm not packing up or leaving my new place until its time to leave. I'm not running anymore. Becky Bitch is in charge and I will not allow another attack to take place without me fully exercising my abilities on to them.

I have got to the root of my childhood. The CIA have direct communication links to the reptilians and the reptilians guide the CIA but CIA are just people who doesn't have a real power. The real power is with us. We are the light, the intelligence, who can burst through their defences, fuck up the systems and carry with our day like nothing has happened. I will keep doing this till my family is free.

I wanted to share this, not too scare. I honestly have no idea how many people they target but I feel that the targeting days will be over soon.

Big hugs.

p.s I love France! The weather, people, food and the breathtaking scenery. I would love to move here. Best decision to come here. I have travelled a lot around the world and I can say this is my favourite country so far.. Just beautiful!

Also want to thank level 3 women, they allow me to vent and are so supportive and just wanna shout out to them as the last few days have been challenging.