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Friday night textual ramble (Patreon)

Published:
2024-03-16 04:59:57
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2024-05-06 00:05:27
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Hi there~ I finally got the new recording gear all set up, and I'm very happy with how it sounds. I'll hopefully be posting a few audio things this weekend, or the start of next week (one of which likely will be the reddit early access thunderstorm friends to lovers audio).

We've rounded a month of streaming again, alongside more frequent posting on twitter and patreon, with very smooth sailing all things considered. I'm still trying to navigate it all, seemingly small steps feel like huge leaps at times - and I've found myself overwhelmed on a few occasions. I'm figuring it all out, and I appreciate having you here for that journey.

I'm about to get ready to hop into bed, and while I have a lot of things on my mind (and sleep then is likely far away), I'll let this ramble be somewhat brief.

I'm excited to see the new patrons (hi~) for this spring season, especially here in march. I always feel like there's just something in the air for certain creative thoughts following the new season. - It might just be the Vitamin D talking, but sunrays have such healing effects on this half danish/spanish soul. It helps with my anxious busy brain, and grounds me in beautiful ways. However it does make nights feel that much more empty, and at the same time, ripe to be filled with all sorts of thoughts.

Recently I've been reading some social psychology books I picked up at the library (I have a US library card now woo) - and I've reached a topic that's been occupying my mind a lot: To be seen. Feeling like someone is truly seeing you, and spending time listening to you, thinking about you, watching you, feeling your being near.. - it's such a captivating and fantastic feeling, yet it is also something we as people can suffer without.I thought about how I hope the intimate nature of the content that I make can help you feel seen. In feeling seen, even if it's in a book, or a song, or an audio, you can recognize yourself or an emotion you long for and appreciate. You can learn something about yourself and steer your mind towards the things that make you feel good. Finding the vulnerability to be introspective, and giving yourself grace and love - so that you can grow. And grow strong too! Human connection is so beautiful and complex, I really do want to learn more. 

Hmm..

These are the thoughts that will fill my mind as I brush my teeth, and lie down in bed. Resting, but not sleeping. Just resting. Pensive. The last thought replaced by a new. All too many thoughts...

What will yours be? Feel free to share in the comments.

❤️

Comments

Rin

Hi, hope you are feeling good. ❤️

larrylia

My knowledge of English will not be enough to write what I think and feel. But it means a lot that you share your feelings. Audio/text/twitter that turn my thoughts into a mess always for different reasons. Thank you 💛💜

Phantasm Cat

It's so exciting to hear the new recording gear is ready to go! I must say, I'm quite eager to hear what's in store for the next audios coming in now, especially since we got a small taste from the recent test/stream 👀 I will say this, I'm really happy and proud of what you've been able to achieve in the past weeks. It's not easy to regain your balance, and it's even more difficult to wonder where the next step should be in the rough terrain, but you've pulled yourself through and taken that step regardless, and that alone is courageous. It feels great being a part of it with you and all here, and I hope the road ahead stays a pleasant one. Sometimes in life, when we're in areas where we don't feel seen, appreciated, and cared for in ways we wish we could be, mediums like this remind us that there is something out there to look forward to. It's hard to be vulnerable and loving sometimes, but with the right people and the right mindset, we can understand that being vulnerable is a beautiful thing. We feel understood and can look not only around ourselves and understand what we need in order to feel seen, but also within ourselves to understand who we truly are and what we want in life to become the person we wish to be tomorrow. These audios, while in a specific nature, have been in a special place for me all these years, and they have helped me reevaluate some parts within myself and how I perceive the world in a fresher perspective. I can't thank you enough for that 💙 I don't know what my thoughts will be tonight once I fully lay down in bed. It always changes from one thought to the next, either that or I'll be stuck on one thought all night. What I do know is I will be thinking. Maybe on the birds that decided to chirp so late at night, or to the outdoor cat that's trying so hard to sneak past my window, yet I can still hear their soft footsteps.. maybe wondering what dreams I will have tonight... or even thinking now, what dreams you will have once you do sleep.. I hope all goes well in your part of the world. Thanks for the lovely thoughts, and again, I can't wait to hear the new audio when it comes out. Really can't wait! Stay safe, meow meow 💙

Mrs. Dubose

Goodnight from one busy brain to another. 🫂

Kimiyie

Goodnight love! Sleep well💜

Rounded Raspberry

Nighty crunchy. Thank you for sharing these thoughts with us, I’ve been thinking kind of in the same way of yours. The way your audio and contents engage with your listeners are so unique that it makes us feel comfortable with you and ourselves. Anyway, hope you have a good rest there, stay safe and healthy!

Vivitorie

Too anxious to form actual thoughts, just wishing you a good night 🤍

Nradova

As someone who often works third shift my brain more often than not is filled with characters and story plots, many of which I live out in my head muttering lines said by villains and heros alike. I understand the busy brain my insomnia proves mine is just as chaotic. Despite that I hope you find rest and your brain thoughts calm down enough to facilitate sleep.

MochiMotion

The intimate nature of your content is quite unique. The emotions in it are very palpable, and feel genuine. It radiates very positive energy, which definitely recharges my energy. I appreciate your creations. It's very admirable that you are willing to be vulnerable and consistently interact directly with the listeners, that's something that only few people can do. Most importantly, take care of yourself!

kimmie 🫶

crunchy! I have the perfect book recommendation for you. it’s called Secure Love by Julie Mennano. i’m sure you will love it 🌱🫶

cosmicdreams

ooo social psychology - you’re in my wheelhouse 🤓 i took a class on that during undergrad, and it was very interesting (tbf, i found all my psychology classes very interesting) but i love your thoughts on how it feels to be seen, and i completely agree. i’ve been through long phases in my life where i didn’t feel truly seen by anyone. i had friends and family, but there was no one i felt safe to be completely myself with. i can have moments of feeling seen with people, but its been very rare to find someone that just understands. it can feel very vulnerable to have someone who truly sees you for who you are, who embraces every facet of yourself - the good, bad, and ugly. i would also make the argument that no one is capable of completely understanding another person because they cannot know all their thoughts and experience the world from their perspective. however, i think there’s people that can get pretty close and that’s really special. not just to be seen but to be appreciated for who you are… it heals parts of you that you didn’t know were wounded i think it’s pretty cool that we are all here because we connect with your content in our own unique ways. personally, i enjoy your audios because they feel safe and make me feel good. i remember for an exclusive audio a long time ago, you asked listeners to describe the mental headspace they have when listening to your audios. seeing all the different descriptions people had that were so specific and personal was really beautiful. it’s like we all have our cosy corner in our minds when we listen, we have the desire to feel safe, cared for, desired… but it still looks different for each person, none of them can be replicated 💞 goodnight crunchy and happy timezones chat ☺️

yellow seong

Hi hi!! Congratulations on the US library card woohoo!! And for the setup and for the streams and for everything! 🥳🎉 My field in psychology is miles away from social psych but what you said is really interesting! Now I have to see if I can take it as an elective lol But that was a beautiful take. Relating to another to the point of "feeling seen" is such a magical phenomenon. At least for me. The connection you have with others, whether you've actually met them or not, is so special. Like, wow? This person understands me? And it's not just a case of simply being able to relate with one another because there's warmth in being seen. You've captured the beauty of it in text 💛 Good night, Crunchy! May you wake up with sunrays kissing you (it's me in disguise) 💛😙

Lindsay Graff

Tbh, I'd love it if I could empty my head of thoughts. It's always so noisy and chaotic inside my skull, it's very tiring.

Dixpourpre

I like to read your thoughts. This actually got me thinking about how good it feels when you start to have glimpses of someone else's mind. Like when you meet someone recently and you start to discover what they like, how they react, what they're passionate about, what they're ashamed of, what they don't like and the most interesting thing of all, the tiny details that are not said but you start to detect. That's my favourite part, like how they react while eating their favorite food or when they realize that you remember what they said because you actually paid attention. I think that's why I love to meet people, it's a constant learning and discovering. Now that I'm starting to meet trough apps or social media, I thought it would be harder, but somehow you can put together the story of that person, you have to make an extra effort but, if you pay enough attention you can. I don't know how to describe it, it's hard to structure it in spanish it's even harder to do it in English but I hope I was able to explain haha. Thank you for open up to us, I appreciate to get to know the actual human behind the VA. I hope you have a great weekend. I'm excited to hear what you can do with the new recording gear. Descansa, buenas noches

fleurfaust

I have so many thoughts about everything you said, I’m not sure I could do them justice right now. But your words really resonate with me. The feeling seen part is something I’ve struggled with for a long time, still do, and sometimes it opens the door to more insidious inner questioning like “am I worth being seen?”. Everything is such a fine line for me when it comes to all those things. Anyway! As an anxious overthinker with a brain that never shuts up, I also perfectly understand the busy brain haha. I really wish I could pause it sometimes and envy the people who can silent theirs, clear their mind. It doesn’t make for an easy way to fall asleep. But I must say that your audios help with that sometimes, falling asleep I mean, focusing on the sweetness and softness and letting it all get the upper hand on my brain so it frees me for a bit and let me fall asleep on a sweet note. So thank you for that, genuinely. Well enough rambling for me! I hope you’re currently having a delicious night and dreams just as much. Sleep well Crunchy ☺️

grey m

Wow .. uh.. without getting too real I've always struggled to find spaces that even somewhat accept me, for the things I do let people see, it's made me learn how to just show the parts people do like but it feels like a disservice to the person I've worked so hard to become. Just finding the right balance of it all..... @_@

Pear

Love me some psychology, but I enjoy the data 📊 side more. One thing I don’t like about having all this knowledge is being able to psychoanalyze myself and others without trying. I can be mad about something and in the midst of it all, my brain will bring up the physiological and conceptual mechanisms that are taking place. Booooooo 🍅 *throws tomatoes* 🍅. I’m not trying to hear all that when I’m frustrated, just let me be in the moment and move on 😅.

Emelia Rose

You truly have a gift for writing

Abigail

What book is it? This made me want to cry. I have struggled with feeling lonely and alone and unseen/unheard my whole life. I don't have many people close to me at all really. And I've always been the person in relationships of any kind that cares more than they are cared for in return. I often get overlooked and forgotten. I've been stuck in another rut of loneliness (this happens a lot for me), feeling starved for touch, attention, and affection. I think that's a big reason why I like audios, specifically yours. It does help. So for that I say thank you, and you are doing an excellent job.

Acedia

Late to the party on this but- There is both validation and a real vulnerability in being 'seen'. Well, the vulnerability comes first and then the anxious wait for just the chance of validation seems more trouble than it's worth sometimes. "Do not perceive me, please 🫣" -is a valid feeling too. The two way mirror of anonymity/emotional distance can be both protective AND isolating. But poking through, at you're own pace, with the right people, is very freeing too. *Disclaimer: I am like super introverted and my daily recommended dose of being perceived/seen feels like it's less than others

Dre

I haven't been as active lately. I've been overwhelmed and stressed with college and moving this summer and I'm currently listening to the most recent vod from twitch. It's nice and peaceful and calm and just hearing the mental process. It's reassuring hearing how you share your boundaries and how you actively apply them. Thank you for taking care of yourself.

kimby

I also got around to watching the latest vod. So many precious thoughts and input from everyone involved. Let’s stay safe together 🤍 Sending optional digital hugs. I loved reading the ramble and everyone’s comments so far. While I don’t think I’ll have the time to wind down enough and type up everything I want to say in a more concise way, I’m grateful for the instigation and discussion. Many things to think about. Lots of interesting conclusions. Without being too specific right now, I think the time I spend here sometimes bleeds into my offline life and encourages me to navigate life in some of the best ways. ☺️ I appreciate the wealth of perspectives that this space provides.