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I’m gonna be honest and say that the last few months haven’t been great. My step-dad is recovering from his treatment, the child with high support needs in our family hasn’t been sleeping, we’ve all been stressed and all in all I just feel really flat.

I’m also feel really disconnected from the content at the moment. I don’t feel excited to record, I’m doubting my abilities and honestly being online for long periods of time is making me uncomfortable and generally more pessimistic.

I don’t know if I need a break or if this is just because I’m autistic and life is just generally overwhelming.

I know how lucky I am. It’s ridiculous. I know people would kill to have my day to day life, but right now I just feel sad and divorced from work and family.

I just want to communicate that I know I go through a lot of highs and lows. I know that I’m emotional and sensitive and burnout quickly. I wish I didn’t. But I do. I can manage that, but I can’t change it.

Whether you guys hang around or move on, I just want you to know I don’t take my job for granted. It’s not owed to me and I’m not entitled to anything. I just struggle with day-to-day tasks, including making content.

I honestly don’t know if I’m going on a short break or if I’ll be back making content tomorrow. I’m a very day to day person and I can’t plan too far in advance.

I just want to be honest and admit that, yes, I swing from highs to lows quickly, and I can’t change that. Sometimes I rush to record and other days I’m crying because I can’t face going into the booth. I can only be transparent and work hard not to be too reactive, even when I’m feeling big feelings.

Thank you for listening.

Hope to bring you the stuff you enjoy soon.