demo 103: I don't wanna be angry (Patreon)

happy halloween to you my lil SDC spooksters : )

here is your October demo - "I don't wanna be angry". I simply don't but man, LIFE makes it hard not to sometimes! I've been thinking and talking a lot about rage lately, maybe because of some of the album's more passionate moments it's come up a lot in interviews & chats with friends. I've been trying to embrace when I feel riled up - talk about it & expel the energy in somewhat healthy ways, as opposed to bottling it up. what do y'all do when you feel angry? any tips?

anyway - I've been listening back to my first love Regina Spector a lot the last few weeks & her ability to inject so much energy & dynamic into a simple vocal + piano performance is so inspiring. so although I'm much more comfortable on guitar I wanted to challenge myself to write & track something on piano with a little flare, a little theatre. and that's what lead me to this song!

I'm feeling almost ready & prepped for my big North American adventure, myself & the band fly to Boston on Tues to kick it all off. it's so surreal to think of how long I've been waiting for this moment in my career - there have been moments where I accepted it wasn't meant to be and that I'd never be able to afford the visas & other expenses. but with your help SDC I've been able to save up & hit the road over there at last! wow. what a frickin beautiful thing - THANK YOU AND I'LL SEE SOME OF YOU VERY SOON!

if you're new here to the SDC - welcome, welcome. you can scroll back to listen to & download past demos. you can stream them here within the patreon site/mobile app or indeed grab the mp3s for keepsies. I'll put this in a separate post for clarity but just a note for gold tier patrons that your next live stream + zoom hang combo will be THIS SUNDAY NOVEMBER 3RD, at 4:30PM UK TIME !  - save the date/time if you can make it and I'll put the details up in a fresh post a few mins before I go live :)

silver tier patrons - I'm WELL aware how I have immediately fallen behind on my promise of the deep dive longform episodes, rookie error for me to try something new in the midst of what would become the busiest work period of my life (d'oh'). thank you for your patience - I have one planned to film before I had to the states, so between catchup episodes (and maybe a bonus demo) I hope to make it up to you! thank u so much for being understanding - love u

that's it folks! as always let me know what you think of the demo

love,

OG xxxxxxxx

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LYRICS:

I don’t wanna be angry

but there’s infinite things to be angry about

and I know that  it’s ugly

but there’s infinite things to be angry about

everything is feeling like a waste of time

who is really in control of my life?

run it forwards all the way around and back

on repeat, oh cut yourself a little slack

gets your hopes right up

it’s all good and then

someone lets you down

here we go again

I don’t wanna be angry

but there’s infinite things to be angry about

and I know that  it’s ugly

but there’s infinite things to be angry about

oh wouldn’t it be nice

to be surprised in a good way?

but everybody lets me down except u

remember when we first moved in

we were barely 19

bright eyed, thought we were so wise

but oh so naive

i guess the weight of the world

hadn’t yet come down

but what a beautiful thing

to feel it all now

whole perspective shift

look down from up above

it’s always better when i never

sweat the small stuff

I don’t wanna be angry

but there’s infinite things to be angry about

I know that it’s ugly

but there’s infinite things to be angry about

oh wouldn’t it be nice

to be surprised in a good way?

but everybody lets me down except u

so thank god you’re here

the only ones who makes it clear

i’m glad you’re here

I didn’t wanna be angry

said there’s infinite things to be angry about

but i make it worse

when i’m looking for trouble and running my mouth

i look forward to the time

i’m surprised in a good way

but everybody lets me down except u

and you could even let me down, that’s true

but everybody lets me down except you

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