'gone' lyrics + explanation (Patreon)

guys, thank you SO MUCH for such a gorgeous response to your January demo, 'gone'. seriously, it was so lovely to hear what you thought, especially all you new folk! if you missed it just scroll back or download the mp3 attached to this post :) 

before I jump in a huge THANK YOU to everyone who wished me a happy birthday over the weekend; on saturday I turned 23 !!! (I think that's like 46 in popstar years, so I'm really getting on, lol). I had a heck of time.. I got a BIKE & drank allllll the beer in the world alongside a wonderful gang of friends. happy ginge. some of you of course know already, but a bunch of you made me a birthday video (co-ordinated by the wonderful Wouter) & it made me cry over my lunch (which was definitely nothing to do with all the beer inside of me). seriously, it's the sweetest thing and I have huge love for everyone who was involved! link here, if anyone wants to check it out.. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=naVzx-oAB6U&feature=youtu.be ..and I believe this video was organised within the Twitter message group you guys set up.. so if anyone else wants to join that I believe there are like 40 of you in there now! I can already see some private jokes developing from there and I am SO out of the loop. just hop onto Twitter & contact Wouter (@pa3weg ) or Drew (@NobleNoir) and they'll add you in! thanks again guys, you made me one seriously happy gal.

alright! let's hop into these lyrics!

this song is about someone who was once my closest friend in London. she is an awesome human being.. we were fast friends, kindred spirits. neither of us were from london so when we both moved we didn't know many others & quickly became pretty dependent on one another ('you were always there when I needed you'). we were inseparable to the point that we started to adopt each others mannerisms & phrases ! having just moved out of home/dublin for the first time it was so encouraging for me to know I could make new friends like this.

and then.. a tale as old as time.. she got a boyfriend. a boyfriend who I knew super well, but the thought of all 3 of us hanging out didn't really appeal to him much (I was a little naive at the time and didn't really get it.. now I do lol). it was like ripping off a bandaid, sharp & sore.. suddenly the time & headspace she had for me belonged to someone else and I felt rotten! ('alright, I'm not the biggest person in your life'.) but I saw how happy they made each other, so of course I never told them how left out I felt, for fear of possibly wrecking it for them both!

about 2 years passed and we were still in touch.. but we had clearly moved from friends to acquaintances.. it just didn't feel as effortless as it had before. herself & the boy actually went on to break up but I heard through friends, not from her directly. we couldn't have felt more distant and I was thinking about it A LOT - ('the crazy thing is that you don't know how much I think about the fact that we're no longer close').

fast forward to now and TO MY SURPRISE AND DELIGHT.. we are friends again! we drifted at such speed that I'd assumed we'd never get back, but slowly we began to make more effort for each other and it became clear how much we needed one other. I guess we're just more mature now than before and realised it was worth working through it all! so ladies and gents we have a happy ending ! ! ! : )

tell me - has anyone else been in a similar situation? was it easy to move on or did it play on your mind big time? have you ever drifted from a friend & became close again in the end.. or never became friends again? :( share your experiences in the comments! 

love

OG

xxxxx