voice memo: oh god (Patreon)

hey y'all

I fleshed out one of the may song ideas into a full song.. here's an acoustic run through! I'm excited about this one. it's a song about sex & sexuality 

If I always do what I am told

i’ll be bitter at fifty years old

I wasted my youth

I wasted my time

I wasted my worry on the little things

If you always just laugh it off

oh I won’t be opening up

we kissed on the bed

It messed with my head

Does that mean nothing to you?

I look at you and I know how I felt

all those summers ago, then I swore not to tell

I’m swallowed up whole by this catholic guilt

I don’t want to think about it

I’m trying to shake off the shame

When I’m wearing nothing but blame

Not easy cause when I close my eyes

I just think of touching you 

This can’t be easy on his side 

Laying there motionless each night 

A head full of heat, skin, sweat and sin

Tangled up feet, clutching at sheets thinking

I look at her and I know how I felt

All those summers ago then I swore not to tell 

I’m swallowed up by this catholic guilt 

oh GOD

I don’t want to think about it