demo no.51: 'back to sleep' (Patreon)

HEY SDC. it's that time - here is your June demo, 'back to sleep'.

the eagled eyed among you may remember this from my 'idea a day for the month of may' challenge last year.. then at the beginning of this month I posted a voice memo from when I revisited the idea and started fleshing it out a little more. it's a song about an unrequited friend crush that I really wanted to voice but in the end decided to bury. sob

in some ways this ~lockdown limbo~ time has been a real gift - having an abundance of time and headspace gives me no excuse but to really work through old ideas that felt promising. allowing the writing to draa a a ag out over days & letting the songs breathe as I sit with them has totally changed the process - because the stakes feel lower now than ever. last year the feeling of wasting a few days was painful.. now it's absolutely fine. 

as always I would love to know your thoughts on this! I had real fun inhabiting a more ambient world and experimenting with foley and other textures. 

lyrics: 

I, pour out a white wine

thinking why the hell am I still talking to the wall

she, dresses just like me

why does that entice me? 

am I just self involved

oh don’t think about it it’s all just a phase

and this feeling will go in a couple of days

one long year and it won’t fade at all

oh let’s not make this harder than it has to be 

cause I like you but you never even think of me

oh I don’t wanna wreck it so I just won’t speak

I’ll swallow my pride and just go back to sleep

just go back to sleep

I, wasn’t looking for new friends

but we met on the weekend

it was funny, stayed and talked til the tube stopped running

I held your hand

in a dream that I had

but then  I flew out of the window by the bed

oh don’t think about it it’s all just a phase

this feeling will go in a couple of days

it’s been 2 years and it won’t fade at all

oh let’s not make this harder than it has to be 

cause I like you but you never even think of me

oh I don’t wanna wreck it so I just won’t speak

I’ll swallow my pride and just go back to sleep

just go back to sleep

don’t go any further

take your feelings 

put em on the back burner