demo no57: are you on your own tonight? (Patreon)

hey secret demo club! 

warning: sad song! if you are having a wholesome christmas eve doing christmassy things than you have my full permission to return to this demo another time. if you are having a bummer of a time this month.. well then.. here ya go.

this is a song about how I've been feeling lately. I prOMISED myself not a single song about covid/lockdown life/2020 would be on my album (and there isn’t). we all don't need to be reminded of all this in years to come. but as the year winds down it felt impossible not to reflect & put a pen to paper about this totally bizarre time. 

I live in an apartment building that faces onto a big courtyard that 3 other buildings face onto, so the balconies from all 4 face each other. when I was alone in lockdown I became obsessed with my neighbours - watching them come out for a coffee or smoke on their balcony, sunbathe or do some work out there.. I wondered what they were thinking. I felt oddly connected to these strangers, sort of comforted by the sense that even when I was alone I could look out onto these other buildings and see them all in their identical little flats, going about their day or winding down for the evening.

aaaanyway - let me know what you think. I recorded this one with minimal gear which was a fun challenge - recorded my vocals with a little zoom mic! fun. in an echo-y attic.. not so fun. 

lyrics:

this is a simple song

about a year that felt too long

i don’t think I could take anymore

you know I love my friends

but I got burnt out

and I wanted more time to myself

oh be careful what you wish for

at 5 in the morning

I woke without warning

I wanted it all to be normal again

and I walked outside

I wonder if he saw me

he was standing on his balcony

with a cup of coffee between his hands

something about his eyes

said life is hard but I’m on your side

and I needed that from somewhere

even from some guy who’s barely there

then at 6 in the morning

I went back to bed

feeling a bit more at home in my head

and I thought of you

are you on your own tonight?

‘cause I’m on my own and I

don’t really like it

you said the time was priceless

that’s a lie

are you on your own tonight?

cause I’m on my own and I

am sick of waiting for each day

to come alive and burn away

whether you'll celebrate Christmas tomorrow or not, HAVE A GREAT DAY lads. I cannot thank you enough for everything this year - roll on the album!love you! truly. OG

xxx