demo no.63: 'autopilot' (Patreon)

HELLO HI HI LAST DAY OF THE MONTH ALERT! you know what means: a demo for you, my secret demo club.

I'm proud of this one! I've been feeling a LOT of things lately and also been thinking that it's inconvenient to feel at all, so that's kind of what this one's about. I had a lot of fun with the drums on this.. and shoutout to Wouter for helping me with mastering it! let me know what u thinkkkk

also - gold tier patrons plz make a note: tomorrow (Thursday) eve at 9pm BST I'll be going live for our monthly live stream followed by zoom hang. I'll put all the links up in a separate post tomorrow, but save that time if you're around :)

LYRICS

I’ve got ideas about

The kind of person I would like to be

But when I write it out

That girl is pretty fucking far from me

I’ve got ideas about

The kind of places I would like to go

But i’ve lost all control

I took a shower in the middle of the day

I heard your name and I washed u away

And everyone says it’s not ok

To be like this

Call my phone and I’ll throw it in the sea

Now no one’s bothering me (no no no)

When I say I want it all

Well I mean I want it all

I don’t want to care cause empathy is overrated

Don’t remembering signing up

Too feel this bad and feel this much

Put me into autopilot and just drive

Moved out when I was 19

Didn’t strike me then that I could be

Still chasing this at 26

just like the cliché of my dreams

I’m tired of being so tired

I’m tired of living out the same old story

When I say I want it all

Well I mean I want it all

I don’t want to care cause empathy is overrated

Don’t remembering signing up

Too feel this bad and feel this much

Put me into autopilot and just drive

I took a shower in the middle of the day

I heard your name and I washed u away

everybody says it’s not ok

To be like this

Call my phone and I’ll throw it in the sea

Don’t want anyone bothering me

It’s exhausting to care this much

I’m out