demo no.80: nothing to say (Patreon)

SDC.. it's that time again; here is your november demo, 'nothing to say'. this one marks my second time recording drums and my 80th track made for the SDC. sO. MANY. SONGS.

I think this one is fairly straightforward - it's about trying to shake off sadness. I love a ballad as much as anyone but I've become increasingly fascinated by juxtaposing lyrics + music within a song.. not just making a song sound sad because it's about something sad, not just making a song sound angry because it's about something angry, etc. I came up with this lil stoppy/starty groove a week or two ago and built the song around that.. something about all the pauses sort of reminded me of a car revving up to pull off but never quite getting there, being stuck in the mud almost. honestly that is exactly how I've felt all month.

if you're new here, WELCOME : ) I'm aware that the world is an expensive place for everyone right now so it means a lot that you'd spend your hard earned coins on supporting an artist like myself. I'm between albums right now so I'm super reliant on SDC funds to keep things ticking over & grateful as ever. if you're new or haven't been keeping up there are plenty of past demos for you to go back and enjoy (just click the 'demo' tab on my profile and they'll be there). you can listen to this demo on this patreon post on the website, within the iOS app (where u can save it to listen to offline) or download the attached mp3 for keepsies.

as always - feedback welcome below : )

lyrics:

You say you’re so sick of me

That makes two I’m sick of me

I’ve tried all the therapy

And I am still a sulky baby

No time for empathy

No not in this economy

The great depression enemy

Has arrived

it’s not often that i have nothing to say

but my god i’ve got nothing to say

cause it’s the same shit every day

and i hate this feeling (ugh)

it’s not often that i have nothing to say

but my god i’ve got nothing to say

call dad, come take me away

can’t shake this feeling (ugh!)

Everything feels pointless when I get like this

That’s not me, but it is my likeness

I don’t wanna be this sad

I’m the banana stuck at the bottom of your bag

It’s true, I’ve been patient

Looking for external validation

But don’t follow me, I’m too lost

STOP THIS RIDE I WANNA GET OFF

(chorus)

love you, sdc! gold tier patrons: details of the next live stream coming very soon. og xxxx