demo no89: hill to die on (Patreon)

yikes. ok, in august she was sad.

hello gang! it's been a fairly intense august.. burnout, exhauuustion, big changes. it all got the better of me the day I wrote and recorded this one. I was really craving a simple song, something I could write on guitar and track all at once.. my favourite kind of challenge. 

I hope you like it! save this one for a quiet, cosy moment. 

if you're new to the secret demo club as of this month - WELCOME, welcome. every month I put up a brand new demo, something I've written and recorded myself. with these demos you cans stream them on the patreon website/on the patreon iOS app and/or you can download the mp3 below for keepsies

a question for the secret demo club: is there anything you do when you're feeling down? anything you to be soft/kind to yourself when you are feeling really low?

thanks guys. love you all so much. x

lyrics:

Every kitchen scene

Feels like something off the television

Don’t beat around the bush

Just tell me how you feel

Every single word

Is like a delicately chosen mission

Please don’t crowd around me

When all my looks could kill

It’s not my hill to die on

Someone keep an eye on

Everybody else

I can barely help myself

Ohhhhh

Hold a mirror up against me

Ohhhh

Do you not like what you see?

Ohhhh

Was it a recipe for disaster

All along?

My heart sank

When I saw you typing

I wish I knew

What the hell you’d say

Conversation l

Swim through honey

Like why is it so fucking hard

Communication

Is heavy laden

With something bigger

Than what we’re talking about

Ohhhhh

Hold a mirror up against me

Ohhhhh

Do you not like what you see?

Ohhhh

Was it a recipe for disaster

All along?

Every second day

I’m like a nightmare of my own admission

Something keeps coming up I don’t know what it is

Badly paid actors in some

Online only re-run sitcom

This is hard because we’re close

we’re close cause this is hard

But it’s not my hill to die on

Someone keep an eye on

Everybody else

I can barely help myself