demo no93: bad apple (Patreon)

SDC, the last demo of 2023 is among us! this is 'bad apple'. 

I've been thinking this month about any writing holes that might need filling in album 2. this is a little hard to fully explain without telling you my provisional album tracklist, which I'm not going to do at this point (we must keep some excitement in life, after all). anyway - I feel Kiss Ur Face Forever needs a punky sister song, something I don't quite have on there yet.. so 'bad apple' was born, from that urge (and I got a new bass, which you'll hear all over this demo too).

one of my traits I'm leeast proud of is I sometimes tell white lies - things I perceive to be harmless in the moment, often told to avoid conflict or disappointing someone. these have got me into some (well deserved) trouble, so inevitably a song brews . I have many relationship-based songs on album2 (in fact - almost all of them) and it feels only right to include all sides of that coins in the record, even the sides that don't show me in a good light. perhaps they're the most important, in a way?

I've had this image in my head for a long time.. the idea of guilt as a rotten apple. not immediately bad.. but the bad is there, right at the core and if ignored it will SPREAD ! 

I hope you like this one, I'm proud of it :) anyone in the gold tier, I will see you in 1 hour from now on our live stream/ zoom hang combo, where I'll try an acoustic rendition of this. maybe I'll even give some Christmas songs a crack, for the week that's in it.

thank you for everything this year, SDC. so much of the funds you've collectively given this year has gone towards album 2 - the recording, the mixing, the visuals & more.. and I'm excited to finally show you all of these things in 2024! :') love! OGxxxxxxx

LYRICS

Think I’m out of a job

I can’t make u feel better

When I am the cause

Anxiety provider

I wouldn’t trust me either

It happened fast, I regret it

Almost felt like someone else said it

see I could be anyone and

You’d be none the wiser

I wouldn’t trust me either

chorus: 

Guilt is like a bad apple

Rotten to the core

I couldn’t even tell you

What the hell I did that for

And I’m glad I have a conscience, but

I didn’t in the moment

When I lied

Looked you right in the eyes and did it

Hello from the doghouse

Watching life play out

 it takes time

To earn your trust back

Buckle up the backseat driver

I wouldn’t trust me either

(chorus)

While this room is spinning let me tell you that I

Never want to let you down again

Nothing makes this worth it now I understand I

Never want to let you down again

(chorus)