voice memo / half song - 'sideline' (Patreon)

hello SDC! greetings my beautiful angels

how are you doing? I've had an.. OK start to the year. many changes are happening around me & it feels like I'm trying my best to hold onto the sides ! 

I've made some really positive strides forward w OGII so far this month - a few songs have reached their FINAL MIX STAGE, which is so so exciting. The track production line is moving along and my brain is sparking away with ideas day & night :') I'm also shooting the ALBUM COVER THIS MONTH ! it's starting to get very real, y'all...

another fun thing I've been doing this month to NOURISH MY LITTLE MUSICAL SOUL - I've been taking part in Adrianne Lenker's songwriting course ! it's made up of a series of zoom 'lectures', writing prompts and song share sessions where others in the course listen to your homework songs and give feedback. I feel like I have some experience creating spaces within my own community (this here patreon, my socials, the livestreams & zoom calls I do for gold tier patrons, etc) and it's been so nice to be part of something community-based.. from this side, if that makes sense. and not feel like I'm creating/organising the space and thinking.. gosh I hope everyone's OK & having a good time !!! etc. the lessons are great (she is just next level wow) and I feel like I'm learning a lot about how others perceive/approach songwriting, something I've done so instinctively my whole life. 

there's a few songs I've written as part of the course that I may share with y'all at some point.. (one could even end up as our January demo, who knows!). here is a song that wasn't written with one of the course prompts but was written in the same sitting as one of one of the homework songs. sometimes songs come in pairs for me.. it's often as if writing the first song takes the pressure off the second one to be.. all-singing, all-dancing & firing on all cylinders! so the second song in a pair for me is often very simple & rarely reaching to be anything that it's not. 

I uploaded part of this idea last week.. this is simply a continuation of that same song, with a new title and a 'chorus' / refrain of sorts on the end. do you think it should return to the first bit / verse or go to a third,  new section again? I'm all ears with that + any other thoughts you may have : ) 

LYRICS:

call it proximity effect

i’m feeling all the things you felt

10 minutes later

i’m broken too

a neighbouring window

identical view

right now I could hug like your brother

make jokes like your mother

I'm plasticine, be whatever you need me to be

Call it an empathetic rush

Or call it caring way too much

The answer is clear

If you want my advice

It’s easy to say

When it isn’t my life

watch me try

push up the faders

scrunch up the paper

fumble my words

like a weary narrator

there isn’t anything good

to say to you

The only thing harder

Than watching a heart break

Is watching two break from the sideline

There is no winner

When both teams are bitter

No wonder it’s a tough watch, from the sideline

From the sideline