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hallo loves!!!! THING DAY!

TL;DR: when i put out my last album "there will be no intermission", i made a book of stories and photography, too. and now, for patrons only, the digital artbook in PDF form is HERE, with new content and a brand-new introduction (by me).

LO-RES DOWNLOAD IS HERE: https://we.tl/t-Wpr9g6LNp9

HI-RES DOWNLOAD IS HERE: https://we.tl/t-RmC5ofrO18

it's 109 pages with zillions of hyperlinks, incredible images, and it's just fucking lovely, the end.

please let me know what you think of the whole project in comments. i'm reading.

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this photo appears as the cover of the digital version of the book and on the cover of the patron-only hardcover edition of the book, photographed by kahn & selesnick

dear god. 

AT LONG LAST.  i was hoping to put this digital book version out as a patreon Thing right after the world tour ended...in march....and we know what happened. 

i have been promising this project for months and months, and as usual it's been a race to the finish to actually get the fucker out the door. 

hayley, bless her soul (she's been mostly locked in her apartment in queens, NYC, for months), our upstate NY designer andrew nelson, and the *whole* team have been working on this project all year and all month - it was a real herculean task - and it's DONE...what a relief. and i'm so excited to share....we all are.

even if you already bought the "there will be no intermission" artbook online or at a show, this is a whole new beast...it includes literally hundreds of hyperlinks, backstory and new content. 

i wrote the new introduction last week, and it's a piece of writing i am very proud of...who knew i'd be writing it in this context. here is how it starts.

here's some of the text....

When I was eighteen years old, I took a photograph of myself. It was 1994, and I was fulfilling an assignment for a college photography course. Introduction to Photography. I had a nice camera. The camera had a timer. The college had a big white room—“the light studio”—that you could book ahead of time. I was alone in there, drunk on discovering the power of the selfie. I wouldn’t be able to develop the negatives into prints in the darkroom for another week, but I could use my fast-forward imagination and see the prints in my head. I cannot remember if I had any sort of plan before showing up in that white room, or if I had taken any time to plot out the shots I would take. If I were to venture a guess: no. I probably looked around my concrete dorm room, grabbed the most visually arresting items I could see, and threw them in my bag before heading off.

Looking back at those shots is funny. 

I took lots of pictures of myself, doing things and holding things. I dressed up in bloodied ballerina clothes and danced around with a blow-up skeleton. I took off my clothes and poured milk all over my body, pretending to nurse an invisible baby. I lay down on the floor, naked, and poured a pint of assorted beads and junk jewelry on the floor to give the appearance of vomiting a treasury of jewels onto the clean white floor. I rolled my eyes back in my head as the shutter went off, pretending to be dead.

Why did I think any of this was a good idea at the time? What made me think that this was…art? There’s certainly a part of me that could roll my eyes again, this time out of a kind of deep embarrassment that I was a textbook “pretentious art college kid.” Or I could look deeper. What was eighteen-year-old me trying to say? I knew that my photo teacher and my fellow students would see these photographs: they’d all be critiqued in the weeks to come. There was an audience. 

So why show them…this?

why indeed.....download the book to read the rest. 

truth be told, i am so proud of this new introduction (i wrote it only a week ago) as a piece of stand-alone writing that i can't imagine this having gone any other way. 

some things, timing-wise, are just meant to be. maybe...everything is meant to be. lately, i'm having to believe that to my core.

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photo by allan amato

i loved making this book as much as i loved making the record.

in a way, it taught me more...about letting go, about process, about catharsis.

it is, really, one of my favorite things i've ever made.

i am very grateful to my whole team and especially to the three photographers: Kahn & Selesnik, Allan Amato and Stephanie Zakas. they took me (literally) to whole new places.

top left machete photo by kahn & selesnick, right machete photo with ash by allan amato

before i say more, gimme a real authentic second.

hello, human.

greetings from hastings, aotearoa new zealand, where i haven’t showered in quite a few days, am scrambling to get this damn project out before the end of the 31st in the states so we can hit budget targets….and i am making hayley, in queens, laugh (hopefully) as we speak via text as i send her pictures of how i am trying to keep ash occupied (porridge! chocolate! bribes! star wars toys!) while i juggle sending this post. 

this is what single-mothering on your own for a weekend at the end of a month with gazillions of overdue patreon projects looks like. please compare and contrast to the fancy dressed up lady in the following photographs. dear ones…i’ll never bullshit you. 

it’s just not that fucking glamorous most of the time.

i could choose to be angry and resentful about all this and i’m just…not. i’m grateful that this is MY particular shitshow. it’s my shitshow and i’ll cry with joy if i want to!!!

and….this is the theme of the book, people.

this is it.

this is the theme of all-life.

photos by kahn & selesnick

when i released "there will be no intermission", the album, i also released a BOOK. today, the digital/PDF version of the "there will be no intermission artbook" is READY, for patrons only. please go download it and please read it in the bath with a glass of wine or cup of tea and have a hanky handy so you can have a nice cry.

note that this is a large file, its about 150 MB in size and may take a few minutes to download depending on your internet speed. so we have the full high res version and a compressed version that's smaller which would be ideal for folks on slow internet or if you plan to read on a small screen like a mobile phone.  

DOWNLOAD THE HIGH-RES DIGITAL BOOK (file size: 149 MB):
https://www.dropbox.com/s/fe7l86xoutdozcl/TWBNI%208%205x11%20version%207-31-20%20HiRez.pdf?dl=0

and for those of you on slower internet
DOWNLOAD THE LOWER-RES VERSION OF THE BOOK (file size: 43 MB):
https://www.dropbox.com/s/ql1qyztw2n7wqpl/TWBNI%208%205x11%20version%207-31-20%20LoRez.pdf?dl=0

while you can certainly download this and read it offline, this is best viewed on a device with internet connection as this digital version of the book is annotated with hyperlinks which will require an internet connection to open. 

this is what makes the new version of the book awesome. don't miss out.

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CAN I SHARE THIS WITH THE WORLD?

well, yes!

this digital edition of the book, and therefore this essay, is patron-only.

you know me. i'm not a punisher when it comes to you sharing these links privately with people you think might love the art.... just don't paste the download link openly to facebook and stuff.

and, yes yes yes!!!! feel free to share bits of the photos, quotes, or whole chunks of text online and lead/link people back to this patron-only post....and encourage them to join the patreon (for $1) to get it. i am hoping that this is part of how we can encourage people to hop on the patreon-train. please make sure you credit and tag the photographers if you're sharing shots online!!! it means so much to them.

on instagram, tag:  

Kahn & Selesnick - @kahnselesnick
Allan Amato - @allanamato
Stephanie Zakas - @icelandadventureweddings

there is no publisher, there is no marketing team.

you're my promo-army. it's just us.

photos by kahn & selesnick

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here it is, again, for you to download in PDF form:

DOWNLOAD THE HIGH-RES VERSION OF THE BOOK (149 MB):
https://www.dropbox.com/s/fe7l86xoutdozcl/TWBNI%208%205x11%20version%207-31-20%20HiRez.pdf?dl=0

for those of you on slower internet,
DOWNLOAD the LOWER RES VERSION (43 MB): https://www.dropbox.com/s/ql1qyztw2n7wqpl/TWBNI%208%205x11%20version%207-31-20%20LoRez.pdf?dl=0

again, these links are patron-only, but if you want to share this download with a friend because you think the book will resonate, i will not punish or try to stop you. i'll even encourage you. i wrote it and made it to be READ and LOVED. but again, please...consider asking them, in exchange, to join the patreon. it helps me. you know.

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and here is where i say:

thank you.

thank you for funding me so that i can make art this GRAND without having to answer to censors or labels or corporate overlords. thank you for believing in me while i feel my way through the dark, using music, photography and writing to peel away the dark. 

thank you for helping me be the freest incarnation of me that i can possibly imagine.

it is important to keep reminding you all of this. i used to do book projects like this because i wanted to...and they would just lose money. i can now manifest the weird stuff i see in my head and actually get paid. it feels so crass on the one hand and is so deeply profound on the other. 

your support has emboldened me, lit me up, and set me off on a path of life i never could have or would have gone down if i had stayed within the system.

you have honestly no idea what it means to me, especially now that there is covid and so many artist's options are so limited.

so, as you read through this book and the new introduction - feel it.

know it. know it good. you funded these essays, these photoshoots, these costumes, these make-up artists, the very gas in the car to get to the places where these pictures were made. 

you helped me do all this, and i don't take it for granted for a fucking second.

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photo by kahn & selesnick, me with my friend coco karol

a few more pieces of housekeeping.

many people have been asking IF and WHERE they can buy an actual physical copy of the book. 

the hardcover version was available to patrons only, but my guess is that if you go to the shadowbox (here's a thread) someone might be willing to part with one...you may also be able to find it on ebay/etc.

the softcover version, which was the one i was selling at the merch desk through all of 2019 on the tour, is still available in ALL THREE merch stores: australian merch shop, UK/EU merch shop (all the artbooks are signed in this store) and american merch shop. 

all of these online stores ship internationally. 

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there's also the record itself, and if you're new to me and to the book, you may want to listen to it, since it's what the book is all about. you can find in all my merch stores (linked above).... 

and since many of you will be NEW to the patreon, please don't forget that you are entitled to a free download of the album itself as one of my patrons!

here's the post where you can still download it for free:

"THERE WILL BE NO INTERMISSION" HAS COME. your download codes. {official Thing} 

(fun fact: you can also view the "there will be no intermission" tag on patreon to view album related posts on patreon, that's always a fun little rabbit-hole.)

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and, for public sharing, in case you're new to the record and want to shout about it from the rooftops:...

the album on Bandcamp....
https://amandapalmer.bandcamp.com/album/there-will-be-no-intermission

the album on Spotify....
https://open.spotify.com/album/7xvctClkVYHmgKEEdAbSjc?si=vUGM-J-nTOu9mLNWX03QCA

the album on YouTube....
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U2iDF6y0yi4&list=PLdCjn28n1Ao_nrjtRdaEuQRyTZJKcc4Ol

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even deeper dive?

here's some more photos of the making of the artbook.

photo by hayley rosenblum

it started with me handwriting annotations with sharpie into a physical copy of the book, i left notes for hayley about what extra photos i wanted to include, what links i wanted to share, what topics for her to research to share in the annotations (old dresden dolls footage, news stories etc.).....


we tried making comments in a collaborative dropbox file.... it was clunky and difficult to collaborate the way we needed to...


then hayley moved the team collaboration to a shared spreadsheet, where she hand typed my 420 hand written annotations and marked where they occurred in the book. she worked with bill h to compile all the links in a spreadsheet for andrew nelson, the physical and digital book designer, to add and build into the document that would become the digital artbook:


i wrote the new introduction in warp speed last week and sent it to copy editor, carol krol, who proofed it with a quick turnaround (thank you, carol!)... 

(side note: i asked her to show me her work to TEACH ME so i could learn what's proper grammar and fix some bad habits. she sent back the text with her notes marked up). thought you might wanna see that....


when we were getting read to print the physical version of the book (last december) i opened up a form for you to opt-in to have your names included in the patron thank you section and, back then, over 8,000 of you opted in. earlier this month, i re-opened the opt-in for more patrons to have their name included if they missed it the first time around. we had OVER 10,000 patrons in total opt in to be thanked in the digital version of the book.

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we may end up editing this further and adding more to it to make additional versions of the digital pdf. 

hayley started a thread on the shadowbox to get your feedback, SO....if you notice anything strange or have ideas of things you'd like me to add to a future edition, please share!!!! the internet moves fast and sometimes videos or articles are taken down so it's possible some links may eventually break, so let us know...even five weeks from now if you see something out of place or broken...

https://forum.theshadowbox.net/t/twbni-artbook-digital-version-official-patron-only-thing/4389/2

here's a fun screenshot: since posting a few weeks ago, over 10,000 of you opted in to have your name included in the patron thank-you section, look how beautiful this is, 11 pages of names!!!!!


i love you.

i love making art this way.

i love what we've done.

i love what we're doing.

and i....thank you all. so deeply.

i hope you love this project and the new introduction.

again: please let me know what you think of the whole project in comments. i'm reading.

from my art-heart to you,

AFP


 

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GinaMarie Tasker

The links aren't working again! Please help! I want to buy the softcover book! Help!

Rachael Pixie Krucynski

Hi Amanda, the link is expired for new Patreons. I was a former Patreon who had to cut everything back due to unemployment, but became a solo entrepeneur and am closer to back on my feet and able to slowly get back to where I was... I'd love to download the book. <3

danyukhin

just assembled the puzzle after a long while of it sitting on a shelf

Erinna

Thank you so incredibly much💖💖💖 I couldn’t have received a better gift today if I asked💖 sending love ✨💖✨

MT Dailey

Thank you. Simply amazing. ❤️❤️❤️

Lucy

I am so excited to read this book. The art for TWBNI astonished me. Last year I walked into the HMV in Bristol and felt vaguely scandalous taking an album to the counter with - gasp! - an unapologetic, non-sexualised naked woman on the front! I took it home and examined every photo sitting next to moving boxes on the floor of my new house, in a new place where I knew no one and hadn't yet decided who I would be next. I joined the patreon that night (and wrote you a big, rambly and slightly drunken email about not knowing my place in the world.) I haven't quite found my place yet, but I can trace a lot of who I've spent the last year becoming to listening to this album and looking at this art and the path that set me on. I can't wait to find a quiet hour to spend with this book and a glass or two of wine ❤

Casey Henry

Congratulations!! What an amazing piece of work. Can’t wait to read it!

Anna McCotter

Love it. Thank you. It’s gorgeous. Job very well done.

Katja Schmid-Doyle

I have only read the first few pages, but the date you wrote the new dedication really struck me. the 25th of july was my mother's first baby's (my sister?) 23rd birthday/ yahrzeit. She was a stillborn. My parents still grieve her. I can't blame my mother, you cannot rush grief (and when i found out about her from a family friend at age 6, i went through my own), but its.. hard. Hard to see her suffer. Hard to see the way our family system chokes, how my parents cannot regulate their own emotions. how its affected her relationship to me, mine to my brother. Hard to help support her pain, when i have my own, and sometimes she's apart of it. Hard to have learned secrets, and that one must keep them from her. Hard to live in the shadow of a ghost. That said, i am grateful to receive this beautiful collection of art, to see the stories. I wish my mother could find something to derive comfort, to open herself up, to understand its okay to bare your secrets, so others may help you bear them.

Buchanan

Amazing, I can't wait to explore this. I cherish the one I got at your show in NYC. Much love from here

Pedro B. Gorman

Dear Amanda, Thank you so much for this beautiful, portable edition of a book I read and re-read time and again, especially when I g into imposter syndrome over my own creativity. Feeling a part of your creative process is a blessing, Oh Mater Creatrix (my nickname for you)... I am busy now finishing a writing assignment, but will read every word on the new intro, and on this post... but I just wanted to say thank you, because your works fills me with subliminal elation on every level. I have been making my mission to garner as many zealous fans for you here in Lisbon. When the world comes back to “normal” in terms of concerts... PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE, try and make it to Lisbon! I will have legions of fans waiting for you in droves. Even though it was worth it, to see you in Braga, I drove 900kms to go see you. I would love to see you eventually gig in Lisbon, it has a beautiful vibe, and site specific venues that would MELT the aesthete in you: Palaces, the Sintra hills... Long winded as always, but I JSU cannot seem to be economical in my feelings/expression of my love and admiration for you! Yours, ever, Pedro B. Gorman. Thank you, fellow Patrons, for making this possible. For making us possible to make Amanda possible! Love, joy unbound, myriad mirth, and intraplanetary love unbound!

Sue Grant

you have no idea how happy this post makes me. I'm at the end of a long day in a closed library, which sad in itself, but other things are making me sad too and crying seems to be a thing I do much more than I ever did. Creative outlets are hard to tap into right now and I might just lie on the floor with the headphones on and give this a listen again. Accompanied by a good local beer. Thank you for sharing yourself with us. It has changed me in many ways over the years and certainly made my life richer.

Cayce

💜💜💜

Eric Leslie

This is overwhelming. Thank you, Amanda. ❤

Caz

You did it! Wow. Thanks Amanda and Hayley for all the love and labor You are amazing

Lori Kitzing

I am SO HAPPY! When you released the patron-only version of the art book, it was right at the time I realized that I had to leave my job (it was toxic, toxic, toxic). Not knowing how long I'd be in-between jobs, I was scared to shell out the cash. But I always knew there would be a PDF version, so I didn't fret. Now I have a job that is life-giving, PLUS I have the art book. Yay!

Rebecca Reid

I am beyond excited for this! Thank you 💕

Jemma Rapley

Congrats and thank you and many more positive affirmations of love and gratitude! It’s 1:30am in London and was 35 degrees today (that’s like 100 for Fahrenheit people), and I can’t sleep cos we in the UK have little concept of aircon being a generally mild-weather country... so this is EXACTLY what I need right now, as I roast away in front in an ineffectual fan and pine for something new and inspiring in my life. I shall now spend the rest of the night reading every word! Thank you 😘 PS - when I proofread novels I always make notes using track changes, as I like my clients to know the reasoning behind any changes made, plus, y’know, every day’s a school day in life! Your urge to learn really made me smile, I wish everyone thought like that 😊

Addie

Forever grateful. <3

Stephen Boots

Superb! Thank you, Amanda. Much love to you. 💗

Laura Wellner

Seriously, this took some doing! Holy shit, this is amazing! I'll have to put it on my tablet for later browsing, weeee! Love n' hugs!

Logan Rodgers

I'm reading as I pass by a beautiful sunset riverside in a train Minneosta bound. Your intro about photography is apt, and the water beautiful.

Carmen J

Just wow. And Thank YOU! And We love you. x

Joe McMahon

This is fantastic! Thank you ❤

Joe McMahon

I've just woken up to find your email (5:45am in Scotland) What a brilliant start to the day! l 🙂❤

Cate Whitehead

Love, love, love, love, love! Beautiful, brilliant, eye-poppingly gorgeous!

Candace van der Berg

I'm so excited for this! Between the exchange rate and shipping to South Africa, the hard copy was just too pricey. Thank you for making this available to us <3

Isabel Vogt

Whoa, that looks like A LOT of work! And it turned out perfect. Thank you, Amanda. And massive kudos to Hayley 👍

Bod Cooke

This is absolutely incredible. I’ve had a quick scan through this morning and look forward to sitting down this afternoon for a proper read. Thank you so much for this ‘thing’! HUGE love from Manchester UK 🇬🇧

Eliza Spilnere

This is so beautiful. I feel like your art book will have an impact on some future decisions/projects... Who knows. This is powerful and honest. Thank you!

Peter Monbailleu

I have not even opened the book yet and I'm already incredibly grateful to you for sharing this. I'm sure it's going to be a wonderful weekend (and likely more) read! Thank you!

Katy Ewing

Thank you so much, this looks utterly amazing!

Wendy S. Katz

Of course this arrived just when I'm swamped with other things that must be done, but I look forward to rewarding myself with a leisurely immersion in this when I get my stuff under control. I did sneak a peek and it's amazing.

Wendy S. Katz

PS if you still want to see a photo of a bird with wings closed, google "falcon stooping"

Gaba Kulka

Amanda, this art book has been by favourite record-accompanying-art-thing ever (and I have both the Who Killed... and Theatre is Evil art-books, which are amazeballs). Not only is it visually glorious, but what you wrote is both captivating, and so beautifully structured. Maybe it was also something I needed to read and experience at the very time I was reading it (the story of how your difficult relationship to the new house/home shifted through the process of the photoshoots and creative work was my favourite bit). I'll be diving into the new "annotated" edition with glee (whenever I get the time). The description (and photos) of the process are really thrilling (I mean... they look maddeningly work-consuming, but this is kinda thrilling to me, as a person who loves a good deadline, and flounders without one). I also might make a t-shirt with this printed on it: << i’m grateful that this is MY particular shitshow.>> This is an attitude I seriously need to work on. LOVE! and, have I mentioned? THANK YOU. Thank YOU. Thank you ...thanks.

Christina

"some things, timing-wise, are just meant to be. maybe...everything is meant to be. lately, i'm having to believe that to my core." me too. <3 <3

Jozias

Thank you, Amanda. Congratulations with this high quality production. This is great as I saw just in a glimpse. I ow you. We all ow you. Such an amazing piece of Art. And I found my name. Thanks again, I was a day too late. You are so amazing. And so loved. ❤️ I will reflect more on this later. For now I just take it from you and enjoy. Thanks!

Andi Stern

Oh this is so exciting! The art I’m gonna make. Thank you so much!

Tiffany Schaefer

Thank you! A constant inspiration, you always seem to arrive right when I need a boost of light!

hThrr

i've been so looking forward to this!!!! thank you! i've been saving my blue vinyl until this arrived so i could read and listen together! at the time of the book sale i only had enough money to buy either the vinyl or the book - i opted for the vinyl ;P time to pop the blue vinyl cherry! thank you! xxx

Beth

I love it and I love you ♥️

Ragamonster

Oh no, my name is in there twice! I fucked up. I didn't realize the last ask for names was in ADDITION to who had already submitted for the physical book. Feel free to delete Erin Ragamonster as Erin Martin (Ragamonster) is already in there. I'm so sorry :(

Blake Chambers

This is such a beautiful representation of artistic force liberated by the trust and hope of inspired hearts.

Juliet Andrien

Just now starting to read- it's poetic that the image-search term you were missing is "rage bird"

Paul

This is amazing love it, all the little links, I’ve already learnt a couple of new swear words 😊😊🌈

Mari Avicolli

Thank you so much for releasing this digitally!!! Also - I love that I can see the letter I didn’t want to send to my father in the cover picture. Sending it to be burnt on a pure for art is exactly what I needed, thank you💓🔥☺️

Mari Avicolli

*pyre. Not pure. Autocorrect fail.

shadowbliss

My internet has been shit for about a month now. I just want to say thank you for this.

Catherine Greer

I'm finally getting around to this. Thank you, thank you, thank you. Whenever I'm lost and seeking... who knows what I'm seeking, honestly, I don't fucking know. But whenever I'm in that liminal space, like a mental rest stop on the long road trip of Fucking Existing, you're my whole ass soundtrack. Thanks for sharing this, Amanda. Your life, your art, your time, your love. I'm just happy as fuck to be here.

Emo Seal

Download links are all expired :(

Ellie Davis

I just discovered that too! How can a new patron gain access to this magnificent book?

a mariana

Still gonna read this whole post more attentively but just wanted to say i also noticed the expired links!!

Robyn Grove

Amanda, Any chance you can make the digital download active again for us latecomers? Thanks muchly :)

Abbey Fish

Chiming in on the updated link request as well. I want to read your words!

Dolly

i need a new download link. my emails to patronhelp are either not going thru or the rplies aren't. i have NO clue how to fix this issue. PLEASE help... :(

Ryan Stuck

Just in case any of the people that ran into the broken link read this, at the very top of the post is a tl;dr with links to hi-res and low-res versions on Dropbox. You can download from those links. Don't use the ones lower in the post anymore, they're expired, as many of you know. Take it easy

Alex

Hey folks - just a little note to confirm that the links are now updated and working - apologies, the links at the top of the post had been updated long, long ago, without realising that the links had been re-posted later down the post too. But ALL DOWNLOAD LINKS should now be functioning :) -Alex, Team AFP