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THE LAST TEENY SHOW I DID in NZ: "Live @ Morra Hall" is up for patrons only (for now). (Patreon)

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HALLO LOVES!!!

TL;DR: 

HERE'S THE (UNLISTED) YOUTUBE LINK:

https://youtu.be/0y7WOB07yrE

The full 2.5 hour show I played in late July, two weeks before our snap lockdown here is UP. It was was professionally filmed and recorded and it came out STUNNINGLY. It's up for patrons ONLY, for now.

THIS IS NOT ANY OLD "SHOW". It's for a super-enthused tiny local audience. It's very personal and emotional (okay, well, maybe that's not new for an AFP show)....but I *do* tell a handful of new stories, play some new songs, and there are some beautiful unexpected twists and turns. You'll see.

I hope you watch the whole thing. 

The show was held in a teeny, tiny community hall - Morra Hall - here on my adopted new Island Home.....Waiheke Island, Aotearoa New Zealand.

I'd love your feedback before we I blast it out to the Real World. If there's anything off about it, or you have any thoughts.....we can always re-upload it to youtube before we unveil it. Hit me.

**Alex and I are reading all comments here until this sentence is deleted. PLEASE SEND US FEEDBACK ABOUT THE SHOW, THE SOUND, THE FILMING...really, anything.**

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And now. I gotta get nerdy on you for a sec.

I know I sound broken record-y about this, but it's crucial: I want to once again underline how much patronage has changed my life and work.

Before patronage, there was just NO way to "monetize" a show like this. If I wanted to do four tiny shows on an island, I'd just have to eat it and lose money. If I wanted to FILM it? Good god. I'd lose A LOT OF MONEY. 

So: for a lotta reasons, I wanted to play these tiny "Small Hall" island shows, but in order to make them GOOD SHOWS, with good sound, and good lights, and a real crew, there was no way to turn a profit. 

Not with the teeeeeny capacity of these halls - 50-200 seats per show - unless I wanted to charge a $100+ ticket price. Which I didn't. For understandable reasons. I wanted to make these shows super accessible, and keep tickets cheap.

So.....I did. The tickets were $35...and the shows themselves - the "tour" itself - did not turn a profit. IT LOST MONEY.

But it didn't lose money, not really.

Know why? Because even though it cost us $5-10k to hire a film crew to shoot and edit this show, THIS PATREON POST is still turning a profit after all is said and done and means that the shows didn't really "lose" money. 

In effect: your patronage - and this filming - subsidized my local shows and kept them cheap. You are, more or less, a group of 12,000 donors who made it possible for me to play a show that the locals here could afford to attend. Please don't let that be lost on you.

I know I rattle on and on about how amazing patreon is, but I need to explain this shit so that you know the ins and outs. Your dollars paid for ALL of this. Every person you see in a photo in this post now has your money in their pocket. It paid the openers, it paid the film crew, it paid the film editors, it paid the guy who hung the lights. Your money paid for all this to happen in Faraway New Zealand. 

It really is fucking amazing. Just know that.

Thank you for being my patrons. 

It's huge.

.......

Now....here's the setlist. 

Then the whole longer story. Okay?

One of my main questions for you guys, if you choose to accept the mission...should I keep the openers as part of the main upload before unveiling this to The World? Weigh in. I'm of two minds about that.

I bolded the newer/rarer stuff. If you've seen me a million times, the new songs/covers might be of particular interest to your eyes and ears.

OPENERS!!!:

00:00:00 Karakia (performed by Constance Maraj)

00:03:06 Growing Older (performed by Princess Chelsea)

00:11:30 Part Of Your World (performed by Constance Maraj)

00:20:22 In My Mind

00:25:57 Astronaut

00:35:24 Coin-Operated Boy 

THE "NEW ZEALAND TRILOGY"

00:42:56 New Zealand

00:47:40 New Zealand (Part 2)

00:58:58 The Man Who Ate Too Much

01:09:54 On An Unknown Beach (Peter Jeffries Cover)


01:17:40 Fake Plastic Trees (Radiohead cover, performed with Constance Maraj) 01:26:05 Kubla Khan (performed by Kiwi acting legend Michael Hurst)

01:31:20 Protect Pūtiki speech (care of Susi Newborn)

01:37:40 Drowning In The Sound

01:44:12 Runs In The Family

01:52:57 Vegemite

01:57:01 The Ballad of the New York Times

02:05:30 The Ride

ENCORE: 

02:15:19 Ukulele Anthem

02:22:59 We'll Meet Again (Vera Lynn Cover)

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All the photos in this post were taken by Xander Charity, one of my new covid-refugee pals here on the island. He's a New Yorker, and he and his Kiwi wife, Danika, have a little kid who's pals with Ash here on the Island. They all came here about a year ago because of Covid - they'd been living in LA for fifteen years. 

His photography from the night is just stunning. (And I just had my mind blown when I went to google him for the first time - I just found out he filmed the video for Postal Service's SUCH GREAT HEIGHTS!?? SMALL WORLD IS SMALL!!!)

Here's just a few for starters:




......

Okay....let's settle into storytime.

First of all, y'all....The Controlled Burn....I loved your comments, answered many of you....and I'm glad you dig the metaphor. FUCK!!! If it wasn't so ON THE NOSE and I had more time, I'd write a goddamn song. Maybe I should make more time to write songs. Maybe it's time I locked myself in a studio for a day and just DID IT. 

It could be time?

Looks like New Zealand is out of lockdown JUST ENOUGH for me to get into a recording studio. Maybe I can wrote one more fucking song before the year is out.

God knows it would do my soul good.

...................

Here's a little more about the show.

The whole thing began as a "goodbye show" concept. 

HAHAHAHA.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Oh, how little I knew back when I booked these shows in....god, last March? April? I was ready to leave this country. We weren't in lockdown. The numbers in America, the UK and Europe were finally flattening. It was all before Delta.

My plan back then was to head home in August of 2021. I thought it would be nice to do some final SO LONG AND THANKS FOR ALL THE FISH, SUPPORT & TRAUMA shows  on my newhome Island. I'd made good friends with Mr. Jamie MacPhail, a local hero from my old hood - Hawke's Bay - who is currently doing GOD'S WORK by trying to get a "Small Hall" concept off the ground. 

New Zealand is FULL of these little, underused tiny old local halls...and he wants to create a sustainable way of touring little artists from hall to hall so that local, rural New Zealanders can access the kinbd of culture that's often only available in the Big Cities (ahem, let's not joke about the size of New Zealand's "big cities". I'm from New York, dude, where the population of the city is larger than this ENTIRE COUNTRY).

Here's Morra Hall, where the show was filmed....pulled from google images with it's more, er, traditional clientele:


Well....you can guess what happened next.

By July, Delta was on the rise, and I'd delayed our departure til September.

Then Delta kept going.

At the MOMENT I performed this show, I'd delayed the trip home to September, but to borrow lyrics from my own new song: it wasn't looking very promising. 

This show was performed in a limbo, a liminal freefall.

And nobody in this room had any idea that two weeks later, we'd all be going into hard lockdown.

I look at this show footage and it feels like a dream within a dream.

A note about the new material....

"The Man Who Ate Too Much" and "The Ballad of The New York  Times" are the only new songs I've written in these past two years.

I've put out both songs just to you patrons - one in finished form (The Man Who Ate Too Much - which you can get HERE as a patron), and just last month, I released THIS live recording - from this show - of The Ballad of The New York Times. I'm working right now with Jordan and the rest of Team AFP on making a limited edition 12" Vinyl (of about 1,000) with one of these songs on each side. And maybe by the time it's done...I'l be ready to go home?

I'm superstitious that way.

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There's a lotta people on that stage with me, and I wanna tell their stories.

The two openers are Island friends. Princess Chelsea is a Kiwi indie legend in her own right, and she actually opened up for The Dresden Dolls when we toured here (at the King's Arms, RIP) about ten years ago. Lo and behold, she now lives on the Island with her partner, Jonathan Bree (yep, more indie rock royalty), and we quickly found each other when I moved here. I have always loved her music. 

Constance Maraj, aka my pal Koro, is a local self-proclaimed "Celtic Māori Witch & Drag Artist". We met because I took Ash to a PUPPET SHOW that was centered around protecting Putiki Bay...and Koro was one of the puppeteers. Ash is hooking me up with EVERYONE lately.

Before you start watching the video and going HUH?, the evening started off with a Karakia - meaning a prayer; a Māori incantation - performed by Constance, as she moved around the space, burning sage. Yep.  

Here's a little bit of info from the University of Otago here in Aotearoa New Zealand about what a Karakia is, and what it means....it'll help put things in context.

"Karakia" are prayers or incantations. They are generally used to ensure a favourable outcome to important events and undertakings such as tangihanga (the ritual of farewell to our deceased), hui (meetings), unveilings etc., however they can cover every aspect of life. For example: welcoming the dawn and farewelling the day, to ensure a safe journey, for different types of illness, when undertaking tā moko (tribal ‘tatoo’), when carving wharenui (meeting houses) or waka (traditional canoe), and more. Karakia, in their true essence, are ritual chants invoking spiritual guidance and protection.


Here's Chelsea...



Then Constance came back to bless us with a mermaid-drag performance....a political rant about protecting our ocean life to the tune of "Part of Your World" from The Little Mermaid.

If you saw my "There Will Be No Intermission" tour - YES, THIS WAS A TOTAL COINCIDENCE. 

If you didn't....ignore. Inside joke.



In the middle of the show, Kiwi acting legend MICHAEL HURST (probably known to some of you nerds from "Hercules") performed a poem for us all: Samuel Coleridge's classic "Kubla Khan". 

I got goosebumps.

I hope the goosebumps are available to you watching on youtube. Tell me.


And you'll see there is a very noticeable backdrop behind the piano...ja?


This mural was painted by local artist Lil Allen - another new MOM friend I met through Ash's kingergarten - comissioned (yep, with patron money, like everything) especially for this show, to draw attention and raise awareness of the Protect Pūtiki campaign. 

The backdrop of the hall stage was SUPER grotty and gross....and I asked the locals in charge of it if we could just paint it BLACK. Then I was like: wait, can we paint it with a MURAL? They hall said yes. I called Lil. Boom. She drew on Māori and Japanese color and design concepts for the art. It all happened with five days' notice.


The mural is still there, and probably will be for ages.

It felt like a subtle coup.

A group of activists have been occupying Pūtiki Bay since March, to save the ancestral land from developers. A small group of people came on stage to talk about what they're doing, and the importance of their work. The woman you see below with the Blue mane is Susi Newborn, one of the driving activists behind the campaign. She spoke so passionately that we thought about cutting it from the film but I was like....fuck. We can't cut that. Her speech is more impassioned than MY SONGS.


Susi is a local legend here. She was one of the original co-founders of the Greenpeace Rainbow Warrior. (She even wrote a book about it).

If you haven't noticed, I'm making some awesome friends here.

Anyway: 

You can read more about the Putiki Protectors amazing work they're doing, and, IF you're in Aotearoa New Zealand, sign the petition to help them out, here.  

...........

And between it all... MUSIC.

Yes, I also did an actual Show.


Here's me and Koro, trying to make each other cry....





As my beloved dead friend Anthony would say:

"A face only a mother could love on payday...."


And closing the show....I covered Vera Lynn's "We'll Meet Again", while Princess Chelsea and Constance Maraj flew toy planes to get us all in the blitz spirit.

IT WAS THE SADDEST AND MOST BEAUTIFUL THING EVER.



I still have Koro's plane - which he BEDAZZLED FOR ME - here in the kitchen.


...........

As I said at the very top of this post....this show wasn't just a list of songs.

I don't think I'll ever be able to do a show like that again.

Not quite.

There needs to be stories.

It needs to piece together.

There needs to be an ARC.

I'll never go back.

.................

And, oh......maybe the most important guest of all was JAMIE. My beautiful friend. None of this would have happened (the show, the tour, the film) without Jamie MacPhail.

The only reason I was ABLE to do a show with professional sound and lighting, and A BAR!!!, was becuase of Jamie's Small Hall concept, and the whole crew that he trucked in all the way from my old hometown. 

The people make the magic, people

Here he is on stage, MCing us for the night.....


And here's me and Jamie after the show, in deep celebration...



And here we are with the WHOLE crew that put the show together...


If you're in Aotearoa New Zealand, I cannot recommend enough that you keep up to date with the Small Hall Sessions, and all the beautiful events that Jamie works to put on.

......

THE VERY OFFICIAL LOOKING CREDITS:

Guests:

Constance Maraj:



https://www.instagram.com/constancemaraj 

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Princess Chelsea:


(photo by Francis Martin)

Just FYI....she's just re-issued her debut album "Lil Golden Book" on vinyl - you can pick that up here.


https://www.instagram.com/wonderfulprincesschelsea

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Michael Hurst:


Michael Hurst worked as an actor in Auckland for many years, before shooting to stratospheric fame in his role as Iolaus of Thebes in Hercules: The Legendary Journeys, (which also ended up launching the career of my other Kiwi friend Lucy Lawless as Xena...)

Since then, he's carried on a PROLIFIC career of acting, directing, writing, dancing, and singing, and stage fight and fencing choreography. He was also a FENCING CHAMPION.

Give him a follow on the tweety:

https://twitter.com/michaelhurstnow

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A fun one: here was my "planned" (oops) setlist from the evening...copied by hand by Jamie for the crew....


Note the sad loss of "Tennis Court" by Lorde. I had the cover prepped but we had a hard curfew, so I sadly hadda cut it. 

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A few last notes!.....

$3+ patrons - since the download for the full show is SO fucking huge (12GB) we figured you probably don't want that. 

(Unless you do? Tell us in the comments, please.)

Instead, as a nice little bonus treat, we're going to send out the AUDIO for the full show instead. So you can download it to your iPlaces, plug in your headphones, and pretend it's 2005 and you're trading live bootlegs online again. (Or maybe it's just Alex that did that, ahem.)

Watch out for those links coming in the next couple of days.

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In case you missed it up top, here's the link again to watch the full show on youtube:

https://youtu.be/0y7WOB07yrE 

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THE FINAL CREDITS:

Many thanks to my guests:

Princess Chelsea

Constance Maraj

Michael Hurst

Elizabeth Allen, for painting the Protect Pūtiki mural

Small Hall Sessions crew:

Jamie MacPhail

Milly MacPhail

Olivia Robertson

Sinead Hegarty

Maria Walsh

Naomi Prowse

Sound:

Paul Jeffery of Gentle Audio Ltd.

Audio Post Mix Engineer:

Steve McGough

Lights:

Jordan McGregor

Filmed by:

Hugh Sundae

Kermath Davies

Lotech Media

Tireless Team AFP:

Alex Knight

Michael McComiskey

Jordan Verzar

Cat White

............


Kia kaha, koutou.....

It’s just a ride.

I LOVE YOU ALL.

More soon.

xxx

AFP


------THE NEVER-ENDING AS ALWAYS---------

1. if you are a patron and new to my work, don’t forget your patronage allows you access to ALL of my patreon releases to date. HERE is the link to download my latest big solo record, “There Will Be No Intermission”, and HERE is a link to download the PDF of the art/essay book that goes with it.

2. if you’re a patron reading this post via an email notification, please click through to comment on this post. at the very least, if you’ve read it, indicate that by using the heart symbol. that's always nice for me to see, so i know who's reading.

3. see All the Things (over 150 of them) i've made so far on patreon:

http://amandapalmer.net/things

4. JOIN THE SHADOWBOX COMMUNITY FORUM, find your people, and discuss everything: https://forum.theshadowbox.net/

5. new to my music and TOTALLY OVERWHELMED? TAKE A WALK THROUGH AMANDALANDA….we made a basic list of my greatest hits n stuff (at least up until a few years ago, this desperately needs updating) on this lovely page: http://amandalanda.amandapalmer.net/

6. general AFP/patreon-related questions? ask away, someone will answer: patronhelp@amandapalmer.net

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Comments

Zomino

Looking forward to watching later - thank you! Watch for your debut on Only Feet from picture #2..

Megan K Carey

I’m in the middle of a seasonal romance movie, but as soon as that is over, I’m watching!!!

Carla Norman

Very glad to be a patron. We have "small halls" in Québec - they're called "maisons de la culture" and performances/exhibitions are subsidised. They're especially for the benefit of people who can't necessarily get into the big towns to see such things

Erin Beggs Wilson

I can't wait to watch, but will likely have to wait tomorrow. In the meantime; I'm so proud of you. Two songs in two years is still more than nothing. ... I launched my own blog on the first of this month, three years post-op. I've got stage IV cancer. I started to write about my own traumas and share the experiences with... whomever needs it. And a lot of it is in thanks to you, for helping me realize that I don't need to bottle it in, and that sharing stories only brings in more compassion. three years of doing nothing, as if feels to me, hasn't been.. nothing. I know you too feel lost in the "what the fuck is the world rn" day to day. I think that's what I'm most grateful for, really. Knowing that although our experiences are all so nuanced and different, we can all come together and laugh and cry and scream and aaah. My daughter needs a bedtime story now. So much love to you, AFP. Edited for Parker 🖤 www.littletorchblog.com, thank you for asking 🥰

Rebecca Ryan

Oh I WILL watch the whole thing! Cannot wait. Kids in bed early tonight ;-) XX

knøz

well, if 'the man who ate too much' isnt a(nother) goddamn heartbreaker.. unrelated - i will never get tired of hearing 'on an unknown beach' -- i feel like i havent listened or watched anything of yours in far too long. fuck, ive missed this. and, fuck, ive missed you.

Parker
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Waves of compassion flowing your way. May your muse be with you as you release your stories. Please share a link to your blog. 💖

Amanda WouldGo

It’ll be a few days until I can watch but for immediate feedback…WOOOHOOO!!! I am so excited about this. I love that you shared the set list. I have to wait because I work full time and am taking several classes, but I am thrilled that you shared this and that our patronage allowed this recording to happen. Thrilled. Sending all the hugs.

Laura Morland

Dear Amanda and Alex, I've just read the whole post, and I am so jazzed to watch and listen! But I'm supposed to pack up and schlep my life back to Paris in six days, and I have a ton of cyber stuff to do, and so I'll need to listen in pieces. In the meantime, for Alex: 1. Problem with links here: I've put out both songs just to you patrons - one in finished form (The Man Who Ate Too Much - which you can get HERE: https://www.patreon.com/posts/song-i-wrote-in-40706236 as a patron), and just last month, I released THIS live recording - from this show - of The Ballad of The New York Times. The first link isn't 'hidden' under text, and there's nothing underneath "THIS live recording." 2. A couple of typos: -"There need to be stories." (Even though "stories" is plural, "There" is the subject of the sentence, and requires a singular verb. - "THIS PATREON POST is still turning a profit after all is said and done and emans that the shows didn't really "lose" money." (It will jump out at you.) - " Lo and behold, she know lives on the Island with her partner, Jonathan Bree". ("now" not "know") 2. The reference to Lucy Lawless makes it sound as if you have only two Kiwi friends total, which we (now!) know is not the case. I'm really looking forward to giving you the feedback you're waiting to hear. In the meantime, some other of the 12,000+ of us will surely respond. P.S. I don't understand the "note to $3 patrons". Is there something in their character that would make them not want to download the entire show, whereas the $5 and $10 (and up) patrons might not mind doing so? Why just them? Is this post only for $3 and up patrons? CONGRATULATIONS ON SURVIVING THE 90-DAY + LOCKDOWN!

Suzanne

Aaaahhh! I'll have to watch on Thursday while doing my expense reports in my hotel room in Indiana. But I will watch. Can't wait.

Penny Sullivan

I actually really love audio recordings of interesting live concerts, much more than watching video. I'm not sure why. So the proposal for an audio only download sounds perfect to me.

Stephanie Thomas

Watching now, fabby, thank you. And yes Havelock North is scary 😅

Amanda Catton-Johnson

I look forward to the audio, as it will be a week until I'm able to watch. But thank you, Amanda. And thank you for your response to me. After I cried for about 15 minutes because someone I love loves me back and sent me support and care (that's you, btw, and also amazingly my Mom), I performed to a level tonight that I was content with (not quite so many fuck ups). And you posting your show, instead of wishing I knew what that all felt like, tonight, I'm able to say, (while not music) I know what being a performer feels like again. Thank you, Amanda. Like Yukon Cornelius says, Maybe I'm not such a failure after all. ❤ Much love.

Francine Hibiscus

Keep the openers!! They deserve exposure!! Sorry I can't watch right now, the latest school shooting today was 12 miles from my house and after Rittenhouse I am just incandescent. HUZZAH FOR PATREON, HUZZAH FOR SHARING ART, I swear it's all the sanity we have left! Love to you and the team!

Jonah Poirot

This is special. And I thank everyone who made it possible. I've been lonely, maybe of my own accord. I jusy want to be held and warm and safe. I am not alone, here. Just, lonely, now, less so. Words have been difficult, lately. But thank you.

DebbieG

Can’t watch it all now (got my booster today yay! and I am snoozy) but I sampled a couple of tracks. Sound is terrific. Lighting is moody but it works. I love small venues/halls and the whole show looks amazing, am very glad it was filmed. Am interested in all of the guests, too. More after I’ve seen it all. Thank you for this!

EmVT

Everyone involved should be SO PROUD of this, really well done. So far have watched the beginning, the filming, sound, lighting, everything is GREAT :) can't wait to watch the whole thing. Love all the angles, close shots of hands on the piano. Yay patronage, if the internet is a story of good and evil, patronage is the heroine saving the planet with her good deeds, she is everything good and right and just, a robin hood for our troubled times, seriously. I just love everything about this whole story, all the people and artists who created this show. Sometimes I wonder what's in the water in Aotearoa NZ that there is so much talent and amazing people there! On a business note "should I keep the openers as part of the main upload before unveiling this to The World" FUCK YES :) You have provided timestamps so people can easily jump around if they want. When I crack open a 2.5 hour video, it's rare that I sit and watch the whole thing only once from start to finish. It's usually the weekend and I'm glancing over from housework and then skipping back to actually watch properly during a break. Maybe if there's an audio-only version, some sections like rolling in mermaid Constance could be edited out because with audio-only would be hard to tell what's actually going on there? That said, I'm a hard yes on keeping the openers on YouTube. If people aren't in the mood they can skip. What a treat, I SO need this, thank you, something to look forward to 🙏 love you AFP and team xxx thank you thank you thank you and well done ❤️ also YES to commemorating the controlled burn moment somehow, does seem ripe for an AFP song!! be still my heart

Marjolein

Keep the openers, they deserve to be seen ♥️ Also, what’s 12GB these days? I’d love to have the full show.

Deniz Bevan

This is so so awesome. So glad I get to listen to it! The flow of the setlist would make a brilliant album. The only song I miss is Machete!

Sue

We’ve watched it all. Loved it. We were there at the Sat afternoon concert. Great to see the Sat evening one.

Céline Malgen

Wonderful concert, and I'm so glad it could be filmed so that we can enjoy it from the other side of the world! Live events are amazing, and I've been lucky enough to get back to some these last few weeks, it's been fantastic and I've missed them so much. But since you're so far away from many of your fans, being able to watch the whole show online is the next best thing. As usual with your concerts (live or online), I've been crying quite a few times. Good cries, the kind that makes you feel stronger afterwards. Thank you! Since you asked for feedback, I loved the whole show, except for one tiny little moment that felt slightly awkward to me (but maybe it's just me, and it's really tiny). It's around 1:24:55, when Constance Maraj is leaving. Like it often happens, for a very short moment he doesn't seem to know whether to stay on stage or to leave, and then finally leaves. While it happens with live shows, in my opinion these few seconds of video could have been cut off from the video that's going to stay for posterity. For instance, there could have been a switch to the camera filming the public just a few seconds earlier. Or something else, depending on what images are available for this exact moment. Anyway, that's only five seconds out of a two hours and a half show! Other than that, it was perfect for me, with very high quality sound and video, nothing more to add. Oh, and to answer your question about the openers, I would keep everything. They're all part of the show. And if somebody wants to skip them, they can, especially since it's all very well labeled, allowing to easily go listen to any part (both in the description and directly imbedded in the video). BTW, thank you also for having this feature, especially handy in such a long video!

Cate Whitehead

We (Peter and I) have just finished watching and we had numerous goosebumps and memory tears and affection, absolutely riveted for the whole time, didn't move. Loved it all; the joy, the pain, the passion, the coming together of like-minded people. AND, Michael Hurst - OMG! I/we loved it all, Amanda. Peter says you are an oracle, and I agree. How poignant your lyrics are from the now and from times passed. Love you more and more each day.

Meg Higgins

My god this is exactly what I needed. I've been feeling so blocked and so exhausted and empty of life force and goddamn did this crack me open so the light could come in. Having actual feelings for the first time in days. My favorite non-music part of the recording is the lighting, it was so excellent. I'm incredibly grateful that my therapy practice is finally generating a consistent income so I can do things like support this patreon.

Pedro B. Gorman

Dear Amanda, To watch you perform is always a heady conflation of wisdom, grace, humility, humor, grief and jubilation. Your shows—whether small and intimate, or in larger, full-capacity venues—run the whole fucking gamut of What It Means to Be Human. And not just human, but an intrinsically GOOD human, in all all one’s graces and flaws. :)))) This warmed my heart so, so much, I cannot quantify Congratulations to the filming and editing crew, and thank you for giving me Princess Chelsea. The way you have always used your “platform” to raise awareness about noteworthy artists and causes is, in itself, testament to the benefits of a healthy life-philosophy. I really don’t know how you do it, but even now, in what you consider your “downtime,” or “hibernation,” even when you are not “giving,” you are GIVING. You ARE Flux, you are able to give because we, as a community, have helped you receive, and this beautiful, delicate-yet-strong, gossamer web of Patron-Souls just nourishes my soul and my creative spirit. Everything you do in your private and public life, the things you choose to share makes life, well…less lonely; you make even the most anxious or disparate feelings seem perfectly fine, because you do not shy away from The Difficult Conversation. On this note, I’d like to leave you with a few words of wisdom which I posted in response to Ash’s Tooth Fairy Post, but which might have got lost in the immense fray of comments. The words are from British philosopher Alain de Botton (hardly a british name, but hey!) and they are about anxiety and normality. “Anxiety is not a sign of sickness, a weakness of the mind or na error for which we should always seek a medical solution. It is mostly a hugely reasonable nad sensitive response to the genuine strangeness, terror, umcertainty nad riskiness of existence. Anxiety is our fundamental state for well-founded reasons: because we are intensely vulnerable physical beings, a complicated network of fragile organs all biding their time before eventually letting us down catastrophically at a moment of their own choosing; because we have insufficient information upon which to make most major life decisions; because we can imagine so much more than we have and live in ambitious mediatized societies where envy and restlessness are constant; because we are the descendants of the great worriers of the species, the others having been trampled nad torn apart by wild animals; because we still carry in our bones—into the calm of the suburbs—the terrors of the savannah; because the trajectories of our careers nad of our finances are plotted within the tough-minded, competitive, destructive, random workings of an uncontained economic engine; because we rely for our self-esteem and comfort on the love of people we cannot control and whose needs and hopes will never align seamlessly with our own. […] Anxiety is simply insight that we haven’t yet found a productive use for, that hasn’t yet made its way into art or philosophy.” You, my dear, are a walking, talking, singing, dancing Xanax for the Soul! Love, always, Pedro Gorman.

Frankie Mundens

Just a quick correction to your post. Michael Hurst played Iolaus of Thebes , Hercules' constant companion, in the TV show Hercules: the legendary Journeys. NOT the character of Hercules, who was played by Kevin Sorbo (who unfortunately is now a MAGA type ) Michael also directed several episodes later in the series.

Randy

What a fun show! Thanks for letting us watch/listen from San Diego, CA!

Laura Wellner

I can't wait to watch the whole thing! Probably on Saturday I'll get to do that, in my studio, working on the latest thing in progress...the photos are awesome so I'm sure the show is going to be a delight! You must write a song about the controlled burn...must, must, must! That totally resonates to the way things are...not far from the "controlled fall" of a bird in flight...that post inspired me...I just haven't had time to respond, time is getting away from me a lot lately, but thankfully, it's because I'm busy making art. Love & hugs!

Catherine Miley

I’ve just watched the first half. I sobbed when you played In My Mind. Then continued. I know! It’s beautiful, and just.. man that song kills me. At 52, this is NOT who I pictured I would be. But I like myself. Mostly. I wondered if I’d like openers but I did! Your stories and talk are part of what I enjoy so much too. It seems so personal, and because I’ve been a Patreon since the start and know most of them, it feels like a family gathering where you tell each other stories that you already know but enjoy again and again. The sound is great, by the way. I’ll finish tomorrow and cannot wait. I saw you in Boston for There Will Be No Intermission and I’ve missed seeing shows. This is special, and you and your crew did a tremendous job. Thank you so very very much. ❤️

Leyna Saultz

Great show! I hope you're able to come play in the states again soon! And I fucking love that coin operated boy was your introduction to the Dresden Dolls. Thank you for posting the whole show. I needed a good reason to drink wine and cry, and the kids are asleep. I'm glad you played some of my favorite songs.

Evelynn McAllister

Oh It was So Good! I loved hearing the Vera Lynn in there: what a nice touch! The video was great too. You all did so much and it came out so well: the painting, the speeches, the music, everything. I also enjoyed the fun sense of "ooh whats gonna play now??" bc I did not read the set list well and you had such nice abrupt transitions at points (All transitions were good: I just particularly enjoyed the abrupt ones). Great set. What a roller-coaster. I just joined here and I'm so so glad I can help support this magnificent art you are making! Hope you are all well and safe! You're Amazing! Thank you for the art!

Kathryn Drew

General Patreon comment - is there a way to make the 'View on Patreon' link/button appear at the TOP of the email that gets sent with the post in it rather than the bottom?

Kathryn Drew

And as for this show OH gosh Amanda and all who have worked to make this happen (oh yes and that includes me for being a patron yay) THANK YOU! I have only just watched the first ten minutes and am going to have to watch the show in 10-15 minute chunks over the coming weeks because that is all the video time / stimulation my poorly brain can handle but that is a lot more than it could handle two months ago and though I was not physically capable of attending the show despite being in NZ which makes me feel SO MUCH LONGING for how much I would have loved to be there and share the whole day with you (I love swimming tooo!!!), I am so grateful I get to see this show in manageable chunks. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU. And seriously well done for creating and co-creating such magic, a place for multiple people to do their thing and shine and create and be well paid. Absolutely marvellous dear one. Love you to pieces xxx PS yes I am Kathryn now, re-embraced the whole name ... PPS yes I would love to download the video file ... PPPS don't think I ever mentioned but I used to co manage a 300 capacity live music venue in England in my hometown (same hometown - Poole - as Bonnie from Good Habits) so I know deeply how many people and how much is involved in making a show a really wonderful event...basically creating a music event family... thank you for making heaps of effort to express this facet of the show to everyone. It's a very humble and sincere thing to do xxx

Rebecca Ryan

I’m 2 songs in and need a break! Haha my heart…astronaut..one of my favs..sigh..take 2 tomorrow. What is happening to me 💜

Rebecca Ryan

Amanda was in my dream last night. I know I know..silly but real. Can’t help dreams! Funny thing was..in the middle of it..got a ting from my phone, woke me up, rolled over, looked at my phone one eye open. Email., ..”your patreon receipt is here’.” Bahhahaaa.

Rebecca Ryan

Watched it all. Just beautiful. Amazing. My pillow just a little wet. Lump in my throat. Amanda ..explaining to the crowd where you’ve come from. And Your band. I’ve followed you from home, all through Australia ,Melbs to NZ. Just stunning. Lighting, hands on keys .I’m crap at giving any more feedback than that. Last song runs in the family I would be legit up there with you freaking hardcore doing something ..how are they all sitting?? ! Hahaa Thank you for sharing this. Love you long long time. X💜

Rexington Funk

Yes i most certainly do want that 12 g download!!!!

Alex
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Thank you for the typo eyes! I've fixed 'em up, and the links :) (and re: the note to $3 patrons - we meant $3+ patrons, that's the tier that receives downloads of each release, hence writing directly to them about the downloads!) -Alex, Team AFP xo

Jozias

Watched the show last night. Leave it like it is, I love everything in it. Some intense numbers wore me out though.❤️ I couldn't stop playing so I played also your TWBNI album. Now early tired 🥱😴 Good nights and stay safe.

Serious Monkey

Ms. Palmer, thank you for sharing your show. I don't know you, but you have been with me for ... fuck, sixteen years now?... Yeah, through relationships, marriage, raising children, divorce, bands forming and breaking up... walking in the woods... running through the city... through death and catharsis. I see you and see your current struggles. Again, I don't know you. Ive met you, that was cool, and many moons ago. I am grateful to be able to say Thank you. Thank you for sharing yourself, your music, your experiences, and thank you for your courage... and thank you for wanting and/or needing us. For valuing connection and your innovation towards making these connections possible. Please know that you will have support as long as you welcome it. You have a Tribe lady. Love you.

Laura Morland
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Alex - Glad my "typo eyes" were of help! Re: Lucy Lawless - I suggest you add one adjective to avoid the impression that Amanda has only two friends in Aotearoa, which would be pretty sad, and uncharacteristic of her: " (which also ended up launching the career of my other Kiwi ACTOR friend Lucy Lawless as Xena...)"

Lena

thank you! I had your email as a reminder to watch this in my inbox for days now … and finally, after I had a miscarriage today, it seems like it’s probably the best time to watch … it’s seriously weird, but I hope you will make me cry.

Stephanie Rowe

I love y’all immensely and hope you both are still reading. Alex- I think I’m gonna miss you cause I’ll be in Bristol when you are free. Assuming I don’t get quarantined. Amanda- did the tea arrive?

Jessica Fassett

I spent my Friday night with my kids (boys,14 & 8 years old) in the living room, hanging out on the couch. We had your show on in the background as we played video games. Eventually it turned into all of us putting the controllers down, shutting off the TV, and watching you with rapt attention while singing along to everything. We needed this. So much. Thank you, Amanda. We all laughed and sang and cried and smiled and sang and cried and now it's over and this was probably one of the best nights we've had as a family a while.

John Murtagh

That was fan-fucking-tastic! It’s all that I have missed in music … a commentary on life as it is right now, that reflects it and your experience of it back to me … to help try and make sense of this mad, crazy and joyful world The openers to each song are perfect – it makes it feel like I am there with the audience, a part of the show. The sound is beautiful, rich, with depth and range and well produced. It never got in the way. As a newcomer to you and your music, I asked myself ‘Where have you been all of my life’? but on reflection, maybe the question should be ‘Where have I been all of my life?’ Well I’m here now and I’m coming along for the ride. Thanks to you and the team for such a great show!!

Kaytiebug of Katty Creations

Just reading this made me cry. Patreon is so amazing and can really be a grand force for good. An experience like this is what so many of us need in the US right now. Things are so fucked up, but seeing your escapades in Australia gives me hope ❤

amandapalmer
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as a person who has always lived in big cities and hopped from giant cetner to gaint center....i am learning a new form of appreciation for traveling culture and "where it goes" now that i live on a remote island. it is amazing to see what these kids are (and are not) exposed to. i was lucky growing up in boston and new york. i saw SO MUCH.

amandapalmer
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thank you erin....and parker, for asking what i was about to ask. going to read, the blog looks so beautiful, i love the design of it, too. i just sacnned "thje good cancer;"....and i love your writing style.... erin....all my love is flowing your way as well. better out that in, all of this stuff, and i am adding you to my little prayers this morning. the ride goes on. erin: one more question....do you mind if we add this to the althing/community writing round-up?? i think it'd be a great add.

Erin Beggs Wilson
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oh god by all means please do, Amanda! I would love and appreciate it, thank you. I'm still dipping my toes into your Patreon world and will definitely have to check out the community round up as well <3 Idk if you are able to check your messages on here; I'm sure you get a ton but I did reach out a little while ago if you have the opportunity to read a little more. :) and ugh thank you so much, I KNOW I'm a good writer?? but also hearing that from you like I shrieked and grinned and read it to my spouse and ah. lol. Thank you.

amandapalmer
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it felt so powerful to play that song to this audience. THIS IS THAT BEACH. we are mere hours from where peter wrote that song. xx

amandapalmer
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pedro, this is beautiful. i am a huge fan of alain!!!! if you haven't read "how proust can change your life" it was my intro and its so so so good....i will steal this :)

amandapalmer
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omg. this is pretty much the highest achievement you can achieve as an artist nowadays. I PEELED YOU AWAY FROM THE OTHER SCREENS?! I WIN AT LIFE!!!!xxxx thank you jessica

amandapalmer
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i'm sorry lena. i hope it did make you cry in the best ways. the ride always gets to me ... especially the last few lines. we gain, we lose, we cycle. i love you and hug you. xxxx

Lena
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thank you all. I’m still in shock, especially when I look back to only a little week ago, when I was happy-crying to the lyrics of “the one that you’re growing inside” … well, back in the cycling, I guess … thanks for sitting & singing beside me <3

Parker
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Thanks Erin. I’ve bookmarked it for when my eyes are acting up less (I have fibro amongst other things and my eyes are…unhappy about something and therefore complaining when if i try to use them. Why it’s taken me a bit to get back here and check for replies) Lordy I’m rambling. As usual. Even though I should know better (and the font was too small coz I wasn’t looking at it via Safari’s reader view) I went a short distance down the rabbit hole and I adore the title “a shit sandwich on a silver platter is still a shit sandwich”. Aint that the truth…

Amanda Hunt

Kia ora Amanda. Thank you for this absolute gift of a show. I was at the show - which was a treasure- and it’s soooo wonderful to be able to relive it again (and again) with this online whenever I want! A fabulous reminder of one of my best days in years wandering around Oneroa with you and the Aotearoa Patreon whānau. I’m glad we didn’t have to steal your passport in order for you to stay here longer! So happy that Neil is coming back too. Arohanui, e wahine toa! xx

EmVT

Watched the whole show last night, feels like a giant hug. The intimacy of the small hall, local goes global, is just so heartening for some reason. Would be great to have as an mp4 or series of mp4s! Even the 'old' songs seemed kind of new in this venue.

Amanda Eckert

Finally got around to watching this—closest thing to a live show that I’ve seen in two years! Gotta admit that I initially skipped past the openers, but realized my mistake after watching your incredibly moving Fake Plastic Trees cover with Constance Maraj (probably my favorite version that you’ve ever done—listening to you both sing the same words with such different meanings behind them brought tears to my eyes) and had to go back and correct that error immediately. Also, it was really weird not hearing the audience launch into the first lines of Coin Operated Boy during the pause in the opening notes or sing along with the songs…definitely a different crowd than I’m used to, but kinda nice! Oh, and as one of the aforementioned nerds who loves Michael Hurst, that Kubla Khan reading was *chef’s kiss* Anyway, thanks for sharing this—really enjoyed the entire video 🙌🏼

Dorit

Loved it! Thank you for the wonderful recording!

Andrea Hamann

Watched it all. Thankyou. Glad I'm a patron.

Christina Vivona

I loved this show so much! Every bit of it. Thank you thank you. Quality was top notch. The concert was beautifully intimate the way small venues can be, which I loved. I enjoyed all the guest performances and the stories and getting to know something about the people of this land and the struggle to save Pūtiki. I truly loved each song you performed. I was swept away into the event and when it ended, I had that same tired and happy and sad it was over feeling as though I had really been there in person. ❤️

Kathryn Drew

Oddly this didn't appear in the Thing list on Patreon. Anyway, I hope you see this.... I have almost made it to the end of your concert, watching in small chunks as and when I have the brain capacity to actually watch and listen, as most of the time I do not have enough energy and need to just lie in still silence. .... SO I wanted to say thank you again and that it was the first time I heard The Ballad of the New York Times. I'd read the lyrics when you sent out the post about it but only heard it in the middle of the concert (so, watching it too) AND the moment is thus: I had not drunk wine or any alcohol for almost three months, but today was a day of extreme emotion and panic and I decided to get a bottle, and this was the first song I watched (where I had got to in the video) with my first glass of red wine in three months. Having read the words, it was awesome after so long to actually then hear the way they are delivered and I love it. Also.... I have experienced and continue to experience such a visceral feeling of fear and panic and overwhelm of late that I am really now comprehending the level of that that YOU have been going through. I have been the illest I have been ever in the history of my six year chronic illness this year and I am now in the position of needing to find a new home, in a region of NZ where there is a housing crisis, and I am only ever a teenie step away from full blown emotional overwhelm, screaming crying panic, and so ill that I have lost nearly all my friends and am alone almost all the time, and even the local mental health service say they cannot ongoingly support me because they have to focus on those most in crisis. I am so so scared and so so exhausted, I can barely take care of myself, and my dysregulation keeps escalating. And those lines in your song about not knowing which part of me or the world is fine/kind/unfine/unkind, feels soooo relevant, and the way you deliver them musically really fits the emotion too. Hey also, I improvised randomly on a piano the other day for the first time in years, inspired by your latest Thing. Hey, Amanda, you are doing so friggin amazingly. I am really scared for my life and survival right now, thank you for being a light xxx