and then…the delicious collapse of actual silence. (Patreon)

my loves

yesterday i spent 7 hours in the studio, 4 hours of it online webcasting to you, and today i spent 9 hours - with almost no breaks - in the studio, nearly 7 online webcasting.

i have not been this exhausted in this way in eons. it is a delicious feeling, being exhausted after using my brain and body for art all day.

and we squeezed one, magnificent, gorgeous, haunting, beautiful recording out of it. “enjoy the silence” is going to be a masterpiece. the mix is 96% finished.

but the song, the recording, that wasn’t the point, really.

i feel like a real artist, a good, wrung-out, exhausted artist.

and more: watching hundreds of you talking in the chat and caring for one another meant more to me than the immersion in the sounds and vocals and knob-twiddling.

people sharing their troubles and lives and lives and hopes and problems and dreams. singing cate happy birthday. watching people saying good night and good morning to each other. it was a long cast. being the sun and the moon to one another.

i truly love you all.

thank you for coming.

you make me what i am. you all make me feel so incredibly real and human. you are all a muse to me.

there’s so much more to say about the last three days but i’m too tired to say it now.

just … thank you. for being here. for coming. for loving. for chatting. for asking.

for supporting my art.

i just love you so fucking much.

you can watch the replay of all three casts here:

1. day 1, picking the song & arranging: https://www.crowdcast.io/e/sj9glppm

2. day 2, recording the song: crowdcast.io/e/eaywgp19

3. day 2, bonus cast/mixing the song and more: https://www.crowdcast.io/e/and----bonus-cast---the

phew

i’m already thinking about hiring hugh to cut all 10+ hours of webcasting into one watchable 1-3 hour youtube clip. there’s a lot that can go on the cutting room floor for those of you who missed it all. thoughts? it would cost a lot of time/money but it was pretty golden and it might be nice. who knows. projects never end. tell me in comments. i’ll be reading and responding for a little while because i’m too tired and buzzed to sleep.

xxx

a

ps me showing neil how patreon + crowd cast works; he stopped by to do a tiny part on the recording. it made me feel whole in many ways. our little weird family, working on our work.