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hey all

here's a little NYC-street voice-ramble, for all patrons. recorded on mott st in the village.

i tend to send these more to the $5+ folks, but this is....i dunno, feels like an everybody-moment if ever there was one.

god it's good to be home.

i'm exhausted, overwhelmed, but mostly insanely happy.

i can't get the grin off my face.

hello, manhattan island, beautiful messy island where i was born.

i’ve been seeing other islands, it’s true, but you’re still my first love.

it has been two years and tenth months since i stood on american soil.

(not that the soil of the lower east side particularly soil-y. but whatever.)

hello everyone in americaland.

we are back.

ash is totally fine with everything, wherever, as long as he has a book to read and lego to lego. but in all seriousness, he's thrilled to be back. i think we're both just sort of stunned and taking it all in. 

he's really into beano at the moment.

i can tell you this much as a first impression: i've seen more public arguments (like, people in the street, or in a shop, or at the airport, or wherever...) in america in the last few days than i witnessed the entire two years i was in new zealand. damn, it's aggro. but also, i don't think this is pandemic-only. i think it was always thus, just volume knobs twiddled a little more to the left and right.

dude, i went into a starbucks by the side of the highway on our drive home to get an iced coffee and two people - employees no less - were practically about to punch each other. it was ... weird and sad.

is it just me? or is this a Thing?

someone asked me about the smells. 

the smells are bigger than i imagined.

the smells are SO different. it was the first thing ash noticed about NYC. (i taught him about garbage strikes!). 

new zealand is remarkably clean compared to this joint.

but flipside, i walked into the house in woodstock and smelled the old wooden stairs and rugs and the perfumes of bursting summer oaks and maples and pines and the other various aromas that only come with a creaky old house in new england/upstate new york and practically died of happiness.

 new zealand had some old buildings, but not like this.

 god i’ve missed those smells.

........................

welcome home, me.

i love you, all you.

how is everyone doing?

i still don't have covid (yet).


upstate new york: get ready for picnics. we gotta do some. serious.

x

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Kell Ryland

People are in total covid fatigue and it seems like everyone is more touchy. Nerves frayed and electric.

Erin Mannion

Upstate/western new York activity, yes please! I live on a huge property south of Buffalo and would happily host a camp out/retreat for you & a motley crew! 💙

Angel Rosen

So glad you're back and things are feeling good. Things are weird. I'm spending a lot of time with my best friend's babies - all under 2. I love them so much. I randomly got a promotion at work, also weird. I need to read a book soon. I also need to see you this year ❤️ I look forward to all of the updates!

Nina Ciesielski

It's good to hear and see both of you have reached NY safely. And even better to see and hear you're so happy! 💜

Melissa Lockhart

Welcome home darlin’! I’m so happy for you and Ash to get moving on this next part of your journey. Smells are so amazing!! Whether lovely or stinky they are definitely a spice in this life!

DJAngieC

This made me very happy. Thanks mama ❤️

Lynn Parlett

Oh my so good to hear you are home and happy. The picture of you and Brian made me cry for your happiness. Settle in dear one, HUG ALL YOUR PEOPLE. Oh and I'm good. Winter has settled into Tassie. There is snow on kunanyi and Dark Mofo starts today with a street march. Hoping lots of people hit town and spend lots of money, it's been pretty slow in Hobart Town of late. But who cares - YOU are home - with the stinky garbage and yelly people - and the smell of the woods and huggy people. Love you.

Karen Girondel

Youpi! I'm so glad you are home !!!!!! Can’t wait to see you! ❤️

Joisey63

You left with a baby and came back with a young man😏 Welcome back, you two...you have been missed 💚

Frunobulax the Poodle

Welcome back. We kept the joint particularly rancid just for you. 😝❤️

Michael Sperry

I'm so happy for you! You're HOME! Woooooo!

Quinn Rose

Welcome back! I spent the day working in Tompkins with a friend and her uke, it was paradise. Hope you got to feel that rain

Tracy

Welcome back! Allergy season is upon me here in WI, but the garden is planted. The nesting morning doves have vacated my last planter. I got to joke that we are empty nesters now. Your story about the smells reminds me of when Trevor Noah interviewed Greta Thunberg on the daily show and she talked about sailing to the US and the first thing she noticed was the SMELL of New York. I think I've seen a lot of aggressive & defensive behaviors lately. It's sad, really. I mean, we're a pretty vocal culture to begin with, but this is just...extra. so many people seem so angry. I think it stems mainly from fear and a feeling of not being heard/seen. Everything seems dialed up. Welcome back to America, the land of extra.

EmVT

You sound so effing happy, welcome home :) ahhhh, city life!

walter ray brock

Nice shout out, thank you. Met friends for dinner in the city (Manhattan) tonighr. I came in from Queens, one oerson came in from Hoboken, another from Long Island. Nothing special except good to hang out after work and gossip in person.

Alexandre Sobreiro

I'm glad to hear your delight while you experience all these urban and loud details of New York living <3 I'm kind of new here and a little bit inexperienced with children but I was wondering... How have you kept the idea of being American in Ash's life? I mean... 2 years and a lot of months being a legit and loved kiwi must been sooooo awesome in so many senses. I don't know if I would remember and cherish my previous loudy and urban life... But I do know we have affections and memories with so many things we can't even describe for others in this age.

Sara Nelson

Welcome back! Do you feel like Dorothy from Oz? There's no place like home? I'm hanging in. My company is cutting services to our patients and it's horrible. I just don't understand how for profits can mask as nonprofits. But it is what it is and the pendulum swings and we in healthcare (man sometimes that word feels like an oxymoron) have to do more and more with less and less. Still the sun rises and sets and the world goes on. I hope you and Ash are doing well! 💜💚 From Arizona ☺️

Snow Wolf

There's nothing quite like HOME, even if it's louder, trashier, and has more arguments than where you last were. Welcome back state-side Amanda. Congrats on the Covid-free-ness, too.

Coila

Just finished seeing a bunch of friends I haven't seen since Feb 2020. And the home I left in March 2021. Funny that our timing was similar on the visits, though you were so much further and for so much longer.

Cate Whitehead

Ah, wonderful. So good to hear you sounding happy and Ash too. What a contrast. xx

Jake Marcus

So strange you should be here when I am, also for the first time since covid. I got off the train at Penn Station and was overwhelmed by the smell. Farts. Midtown smells like farts. Staying at a friends on the upper west side where the smell is not so bad but went out to smoke a clove and answer some email only to have a rat the size of a grown ass cat cross back and forth in front of me. And I have spent the last few years in the Philadelphia near- burbs and a trip to Guatemala (which smells *wonderful*). Not so far as New Zealand. I grew up in NY. I don’t remember this awful smell. Heading back tomorrow evening and can’t wait to bask in my garden away from the sensory overload. I hear ya Amanda.

Aimsel Ponti

Well it’s been a rough stretch. My mother’s funeral was today and I am working hard to keep myself sane and not entirely overwhelmed with it. But I’m very excited about the possibility of Dresden Dolls shows! Xx

Francine Hibiscus

Aggro? OH HELLS YEAH. EVERYONE is ready to bite down hard. Kindness and grace are more of a reach, but not gone, no way! Welcome home!

Laura Payne

Welcome home Amanda & Ash!!! Welcome home!!! 💖💖💖💖

Len Tower Jr.

a so So SO glad for both of you that you are home. that Ash is "easing" into NYC. he'll pick up on your enthusiasm for our city. -len ps: I read books constantly until MIT. did me well

Jamy Ian Swiss

Welcome home. Love your Mott St. audio report. Reminds me how I felt the first time I came back after moving west. It was mere months, but felt the same. Sights sounds smells. ❤️

Len Tower Jr.

Erin, Like Amanda I was born in NYC. We mostly view Upstate NY as the Catskills & Taconics; sometimes up to Lake George. Though Amanda might enjoy a Western NY adventure. -Len

Mel Legget

Welcome home to USA!! Glad you're safe and sound! Daily dose of NYC from @GeorgeHahn check it out!

Dave R

Welcome back to the shit show :p

lil

OH Man, it is so good to hear you and the sounds of NYC! You had me laughing and revelling in the moment. So lovely, all of it- and Ashy, darling boy, I just knew he’d be happy for his Mama, such is his love and adoration. Yay! Love you both- love the oooo at alley way haha love love love 💖 and keep safe!!!

Holly Adams

WELCOME HOME WE MISSED YOU SO MUCH.

Gali

Welcome home!!

Liz Zee

Such giddy joy & bewildered contentment! Love you too xxx

Doug Ryan

Welcome Home, Amanda. Its nice to have you back stateside. My first trip to Australia I ended up being "stranded" there for 2.5 years, and i remember getting back to the states the intensely familiar smell of the American air at LAX when i first got off the plane. And then again a completely different, but equally American smell of the air in and around Logan airport and Cambridge, when i got back to Boston. Hope your travels were smooth. I'm sure I'm not alone when I say that I am very much looking forward to whatever it is you do next. ..And welcome home.

TKQ

Thank you for sharing with us $1 peeps. This was happy making. ❤

Dorit

Enjoy the home vibes while they are fresh!

Samantha teal

People seem to be more reactionary post trump and the last few years of dealing with everything. Call center life has been miserable for that reason, the body less voice on the other side of the phone line tends to become a verbal punching bag/ emotional dumpster over irrational things …. I can’t speak for out in public however, I live in the middle of nowhere ND and people behave differently than other more populous areas. In NM fights have always been a regular occurrence though so I have 2 extremes to pull from lol. Anyways, welcome back to this side of the ocean!

Coila

Also, can't wait to hear your clip here. I'm so glad you're Home and happy. <3

Lynn Robinson

Isn’t it funny all the simple things you take for granted about where you live… So wonderful to hear you & Ash are great. I bet you can’t wait to do - everything. Much love to you both xxxxx

Bellana

Well, I leave Mexico, which has been home for the past two years, in another six weeks, give or take. So I'm going through a process which you're probably pretty familiar with, getting rid of what I'm not taking, and collapsing my life back down into a suitcase. It's amazing how much I've accumulated. I'll be glad to be back on the road again, as I've missed travel, but it was nice to have a "home" for a bit, and I will miss it here. But it's time.

Louise Backlund

It made me so happy to hear you all giddy in the voice mail. My family and I are taking our first trip to the US NEXT WEEK, to New York! Sooo this lil’ Swede wouldn’t mind a picnic between 16th to 20th/21st of June, if you were planning a meet up soon… otherwise I’m excited to be in NYC for the first time, it feels like meeting a celebrity and I’m nervous. And I’m also very, very happy for you and Ash. Welcome home, Amanda ❤️

Nic Bryson

So happy for you and Ash! Loads of love from Brighton England, where the weather is grey and cloudy, yes it's now coming into our summer season 😂 but listening to your message has brightened up my day this morning xxxx

Amanda Hunt

So glad that it’s so good to be home :-) we were selfish trying to keep you to ourselves in NZ, your life is a big one that needs a bigger canvas than our little islands could provide, we needed to share - soooo happy for you xxx

Monika Mertens

I am happy for you! Thank you for sharing. That really moved me! From time to time I am asking myself "What makes people feel like home?". The answers are that might be simple, but also very complex - because it is a existentiell topic which has a lot to do with who we are as a person and what kind of spirit we have. And also, the anwsers to that question can be very poetic. Like silhouettes of words that try to make a feeling tangible. I thoughtabout Amsterdam and how much I miss the city. I am from Hamburg but Amsterdam has this strange thing going on where I always felt a little more like myself as in my own hometown. And I wasn't there for 3 years now. When I listened to your audio, I remembered this kind of feeling I always had when I stood right in front of the main station of Amsterdam with tears coming up and telling my heart "Finally - we're back again"

Oorlab

thanks for sharing it with the non-5$ folk, appreciated a bunch! - interesting observations about smells. That is one part of our senses that cannot be digitized - enjoy the homecoming

Sally

So happy for you - I can hear the ecstasy in your voice.

Rebecca Ryan

Aww love this.. and yes thanks for sharing with all of us 💜 relieved and happy for you xx

Laura Wellner

Oh the trash, the swearing, the volume turned up to eleven, the soil buried under miles of concrete until its not...welcome home to America, Amanda! Thankfully, where I live it's the birds that are loud as fuck, and because it's only Wednesday, the lawn mower rodeo is silent! My wee donkey and tinier goat are eating their breakfast, the cats have finally stopped their morning "zoomies," and I'm having my coffee in the studio contemplating what to do next on my current project (it looks like a paper storm in here!) I've decided it's one of those projects that will continue to evolve, I'm good with that. I wanted to tell you, I received my copy of "Poems for the Ride" yesterday, and I'm so happy to see one of my poems in print! ("Truth.") Now that I'm retired from the day job grind, I'll have more time to do the creative stuff I love! I'm looking forward to seeing and hearing what you're going to do now that you're back home! Love & hugs!

Melissa Ann

It amazing how the sorrow of saying goodbye to people who have become family can morph into ecstatic joy when you get home from such a long journey. It's lovely to hear the happiness in your voice; I can hear you smiling. :) Thanks for taking us along on all your adventures. I'm so grateful to have experienced NZ vicariously through you. Sending you so much love from Pittsburgh. xx

JX

It's so great to hear the happiness in your voice. Returning to New York is like nothing else. Welcome home!

Bearded Valkyrie

Oh the joy in your voice ramble...beautiful. Home is home however wonderful where we visit our hearts know where they need to be. Thanks for sharing the joy, love right back to you.

erica munhoz

Oh wow Amanda your voice just sounds so different in this ramble... you sound like you're home, I just smiled so wide! I'm so happy for you!!! New York is an old dream of mine... I've been only like four or five times, and it was my dream to live there, but that never worked out, and now it's totally ok, but I do miss visiting. I would always try to go when I visited my mom in Florida, and I always LOVED the change from people trying to extra nice and costumer-servicey down in Florida to people being blunt and just real and a bit rude in new york. it's a weird thing to love, but I do love it. Enjoy enjoy enjoy enjoy being home. You have a whole of two years worth of this enjoyment to fill in. take it all in and please permit yourself this deep enjoyment for as long as you can. we love you.

Marina Soares e Silva

What joy to listen to you rediscovering home in its full beautiful imperfection. I can relate to that when last September got to be in my first home (Portugal) for 3 weeks and unexpectedly i felt like (for the first time ever) it could have been longer and I wasn’t yet ready to go back to my adopted home (the Netherlands). The sense of belonging hit my like a sledgehammer in an amazing and abundant way. Also having lived in NYC for a bit over 1 year, makes me enjoy additionally your shared sounds 💜 lovely ! Welcome home 😊

Caitlin Brown

Oh man you made it home to Woodstock... is there still a giant pile of stuff waiting to be burned in the backyard?

Tem Noon

Welcome back to NY! I orbit between Long Island (where I stay with my Mom during the week) and the Hudson Valley / Putnam County just off the Taconic where my partner and I live at the dead end of a lovely tiny road in the woods. We very nearly ran into each other at Omega in 2019 where I regularly played Tabla for the staff kirtan for a few years. If you ever need tabla on a recording, a gig, or a picnic, I'd be honored.

Coila

Ah, you sound so happy! That's wonderful to hear! <3 We travel, always taking for granted that we can come back home... And then you weren't able to for several years... I'm so glad you're back. <3

Samaire Wynne

Welcome home, Amanda. We really missed you. The US was poorer without you. Welcome home. ❤

Jen Upchurch

Welcome Home! So happy for you! Enjoy those smells. The sense of smell is such a wonderful gift!

Stephie

awww 😍 this is so nice and funny - just like receiving a spoken message on the cellphone. i laughed 😅- ash, we don't have trash like that - i sighed 🥰 because of all your emotions i felt. home is where the heart is - seems to be a stupid slogan, but for me, it feels exactly like that. smell is the heart, sound is the heart, view is the heart... heart is the home. huge hugs for you and the cool young man named ash. i'm happy for you - enjoy these days of being welcomed back home 😘 (here - switzerland - the mood seems similar. people act in a stupid after-pandemic (?!) modus. everybody wants to travel, wants to party, wants to live without thinking of any consequences - well well well, we'll see and feel the result in a few month 😑)

Catherine Hannah

Ah! Yes, the smell of NYC in the summer is a palpable thing! It invokes it very deeply...

Catherine Hannah

If you are going to picnic in upper state New York...please, please by Starlight let it be when we are going to be there!

Catherine Hannah

The aggression is being fed by disinformation, fear, because everyone is afraid and sometimes if you tap into someone's FEAR just right...you can turn it on other groups, dis-enfranchised groups, like a firehose. No one feels safe, for any number of reasons, and we're all tetchy. Some handle it better than others. Or just isolate.

Nick

So happy for you and Ash to finally be home. Being back sounds like such a visceral sensory experience! Thanks for sharing your happiness, I am smiling along with you :D

Maryan Newbury

New York is a lot more overtly angry than it was before the pandemic. People who spent months and months in their apartments, interacting with no one or maybe just a handful of people (whereas they used to see hundreds of people every day) and some trying to wrangle their kids 24/7, have pretty much lost it. We may get it together but the trauma is real. I mention this to let you know that it's not that you are having culture shock -- we really have changed.

Quinn

It's so lovely to hear the happiness in your voice! So glad you're back home and enjoying it. Lately I've been feeling homesick a lot even though I don't know where 'home' even is for me... I guess maybe I'm more time or situation sick. Longing for somewhere to belong and not wake every day feeling suffocated and trapped by circumstance. Anyway! Love you too.

Coila

You asked how we are... I made a new friend a few weeks ago. Someone I feel like I've known forever. And I just Know her so well. I've had one other friend this happened with, 20 years ago and it's one of my favorite things that's ever happened! She lives close to me and has children my child gets along with. I've needed this so badly for so long. It's helping me come out of this shell I created. I'm in a good place that way.

Kirrabelle Lovell

Great to hear you are so happy at being back home Amanda & Ash.

Pedro B. Gorman

Dear Amanda, Sweet-be-jaysus-H-blooming-Christ-on-an-NY-Sugar-Maple-wood-Cross, girl! I haven’t heard this much elation in your voice in SUCH a long time! I’m so fuckin’ happy for you! I really, really AM! And, in honor of the elation and the happiness, I give thee a sweet New Yorkean reminder that you may have not listened to in years (or maybe you have, but here t is…GREAT video) The great Deborah Harry! For you! (Song choice thematically unrelated, it’s just one of my top favorites of theirs!) Watch this video and dig the song, and think CBGB’s!!!!!!! https://youtu.be/kDCwRuqdd70 (incidentally: though not technically New York, I lived in Scarsdale, NJ, until I was 10 years old). Welcome home, sweetheart :)))))) (says the guy who lives across the pond in tiny Portugal with its sparse 10 million souls across the entire country,haha) Love & other Summer Sports, Pedro B. Gorman

Heidi Huckert

Great to hear you“re happy back home! When I came back from New Zealand to Germany (a longlong time ago) I was completely overwhelmed by how FAST everything was 😂 the cars, the people running down the streets - I always had the impulse to tell them: „Slow down, please!“

CJ Marsicano

Two coffee shop employees (or two of anybody) wanting to slug each other is not a Thing with a capital T. That shit should be demoted to lower case letters.

Laura Morland

Wow, what a wonderful story! Congrats on you two finding each other... she must be grateful to you as well.

Laura Morland

Thank you SO MUCH, Amanda, for this report on your culture shock: Loud people! TRASH in the alleys! Woo-hoo!

Laura Morland

P.S. NYC has that same effect on me, and I've never been able to spend more than a few weeks there. Manhattan is à magnificent, magical island.

Helene Kocher

Welcome back. I am looking forward to getting away this summer! As a complete side note. If Ash likes Legos, and wants them everywhere - these items might help: LEGO Gadgets (Klutz Science/STEM Activity Kit) https://smile.amazon.com/Klutz-Lego-Gadgets/dp/1338219634/ref=sr_1_2?keywords=lego+contraptions&qid=1654906806&sprefix=lego+contraptio%2Caps%2C438&sr=8-2 Lay-n-Go 2-in-1 Portable Drawstring Toys Storage Organizer and Play Mat https://smile.amazon.com/Lay-n-Go-LITE-Mini-Activity-18-Inch/dp/B007JT7GKW?ref_=ast_sto_dp&th=1&psc=1 I have traveled miles and miles with these two things with my son who loves Legos to this day (he is 13, almost 14 years old). Granted these days his iPad / cell phone provide some serious competition for the Legos.

Vera Huber

You asked how we were. I'm a bit exhausted. I cleaned the house today, and I'm exhausted. I do this once a week, and it never stops 😔

Vera Huber

I'm also happy. My daughter will fly to Egypt in two weeks, together with Dad. Her first flight, and her first holiday. The last years she was camping with dad at the Northern Sea, but never with plane and never very warm. I'm so excited for her ❤❤😍

Vera Huber

I'm happy that you are happy ❤

Vera Huber

I wish you a good time, back home ❤❤ with Ash and Neil ❤

Gabrielle Senza

Welcome back, love! It’s so good to have you home again. The Berkshire air has been magnificent these last couple of days - and the trees so verdant! Enjoy all the smells. And come visit my studio on Railroad Street if you ever get over to Great Barrington. 💋 I just gave a copy of your book to a friend - and am realizing right now as I’m writing this, that I must read it again, given I’m feeling so much anxiety about asking patrons to start supporting me at a higher level so I can actualize some really big new projects! 😻 As a Lakota Elder once said, “The timing is perfect because the timing belongs to the Universe.”

Cassia Flashtig

Thankyou for the ramble - the soundscape is so different!! It is great to hear the smile in your heart. So glad you made it back where you feel at home. You make so many people I know so happy, it is nice to think of you being embraced by your comfort place. ❤️❤️❤️

Suzanne

Hello you! Welcome home. We're buying a 102 year old house now. Life never ceases to be interesting.

Misty Prostko

Welcome back! So willing to drive to NY for some picnics, I'll make some bread (it's home made and its so good). Yeah, might be an hour and a half drive but FUCK ITTT

Rain Day

Not a current resident, but NYC is my love, and we missed you too, boo