All Patrons and Others Please Read: Important Update + Milestone + Personal Thoughts (Patreon)

Yesterday I lost access to several of my devices including my computer, my laptop, and my phone. I am currently typing this on a Quest2 of all things. I am also unsure about when I can get back my property. Two Step Authentication has put a bit of damper on things. Even my private apps like Steam, Telegram, and Discord are pretty much locked and dead as of now. Including several important Google accounts like my email.

I'm not pausing or stopping anything. I imagine this change will affect my commissioners more than you all as the Patrons as I don't have a way to view my commission form.

My first step will be to acquire a cheap laptop for as little as possible as it is a bit tedious to type in VR but it should be easier with speech to text.

I'm not at liberty to provide any more information than what I've already said. I don't see a delay to the two Poll stories either.

I apologize for the situation even if things are more than a little out of my control.

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In terms of good news, we have the 100 Patron Milestone! I know I don't make as much as some do compared to other Patreons who have less Patrons but even know I need money to eat, I feel pride and value in knowing that one hundred living, breathing people are here to see and enjoy what I provide.

When I thought of my identity and the bear I'd like to be, I remember wanting to emphasize motherliness and femininity. I adored the concept of people telling me about their carnal satisfactions and/or their personal enjoyment. To me, it made me love being me. I would imagine being the head of some parlor where people of all sizes and shapes and types enter and experience what I could provide for them. If those who entered left satisfied and gave me a large, gleeful smile along with a wink on the way out then I would get unreasonably happy.

In a way, it means I like getting people what they want as long as I can provide the energy for each without getting burnt out. That hasn't changed. Even now when I get happy commenfs from commissioners or likes/favorites on stories it does make me feel euphoric in the big bear gal I want to be. It goes beyond validation in my eyes because for some validation means that their self-doubt isn't entirely correct. (Spoiler alert, it usually is.)

Some could say I'm putting myself below others or focusing on others when I should be myself. I could agree with that but I feel like to give others joy or satisfaction gives me the vigor to help myself. Anything to push those buttons of mine that want to be motherly and caring. Don't worry though, I do know when to hold back to keep myself going.

I imagine after admitting this some people might be more out-going in their words to make sure I keep in high spirits "so you can keep being a momma bear." Which in my mind while typing this makes me feel euphoria. To have people know what I want to be but for them to care and treat me in that way just for them to protect my motivations and energy so I can continue being who I want to be sounds... lovely.

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