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The smell of bread pulled him into the narrow side street. The front of the bakery sat on the main road with its open windows and bright talk. The back kept quieter company. The lane behind the building ran between blank walls, barely wide enough for a cart. Snow here had turned to a tired paste under boots and barrels. Along the bakery wall, pale streaks of ash marked where someone had been emptying fires for a long time.

At the bakery’s corner, he put his palm against the stone. The wall held a banked heat. It pressed through his skin, a heavy breath that never quite left. He slid his hand along the blocks, feeling for the warmest patch. Heat faded toward the far end of the wall where the oven’s reach ran out.

There, he thought.

Sitting could wait. Hermit’s voice walked up out of the past. "You don’t lean your whole spine on a wall until you know what’s on both sides. Find your exits first. Heat makes boys slow. Better to stay off their wall until the ovens cooled and the street emptied. Falling asleep under a working shop was a good way to wake under a boot."

At the mouth of the lane he stopped and glanced toward the main road. From here he could see the bakery’s front sign swinging over the crowd, but not much else. He turned back, counting quiet doors and shuttered windows along the rear wall. No low cellar openings. No easy grip points.

Across the lane, he traced the opposite wall the same way. This one belonged to some other shop. No heat in the stone, only a chill that crept into his fingers. Two doors faced the narrow way, both barred from inside. A third sat closer to the lane’s bend, its frame warped, wood scarred by old kicks.

He walked the full length once, moving slow, boots crunching through thin ridges of half-frozen muck. The lane turned near the end and joined another street that sloped down toward darkness. An alley for scraps and things people wanted to forget.

If someone chases you, he told himself, you can leave them at that bend. Stone, corner, shadow. Make them pick one and you take the others.

He went back to the spot he had marked, a little back from the line of the door. From there, pressed to the colder wall, he could see the rear door and the stretch of stone where the heat felt strongest. The door sat close to that patch, iron latch polished bright from use.

He slid down until his back touched the wall. Cold pushed through his coat at once. His ribs complained when he tried to ease into a better angle. He let the pain settle into a line and sat with it.

Light thinned slowly in the strip of sky above the lane. Voices from the main road turned into a dull murmur somewhere far off. Somewhere a bell rang the hour. The bakery kept working. He could hear muted thuds and a faint scrape now and then, but the door stayed shut.

He let his head rest against the stone and listened to his own breathing. The cold bit his ears and tried to creep under his collar. He watched the door and counted heartbeats by the ache in his side.

The latch clicked. He straightened before he thought about it. The door opened inward, then further in on its hinges. Warm air breathed into the lane, sweet with yeast and burnt crust.

A girl stepped through. She held a sack in both arms. The cloth sagged with weight, dark with grease in places. She looked near his age, maybe a year older. Flour dusted her sleeves. It sat pale on her hair too, softening the color into something that matched the snow.

She didn’t see him. She crossed the few steps to a bare patch by the wall, dropped the sack there, and turned away at once. The door shut behind her, cutting off the heat.

He watched the sack. The cloth gaped near the top. A corner of bread stuck out, black along one side, still bread on the other. His stomach cramped and kept on doing nothing, the way it had learned. He stayed where he sat.

More time leaked past. His legs tingled before they went numb. When the door opened again, the girl had a metal bucket in hand. This time the heat moved with her.

She carried the bucket carefully. Faint orange glowed along the rim. She set it down by the wall where old ash had gathered and nudged it once with her boot to settle the coals. The sound of bucket on stone sent a shiver down his spine. She turned and went back inside. The door settled shut.

He waited. Hermit had taught him that too. "Count after a door closes. If no one comes, the world has already looked away." He counted a slow twenty under his breath. No footsteps followed. No voice called into the lane.

Getting up cost him. The first steps hurt; his legs had gone stiff while he watched. He crossed the lane with his arm wrapped around his ribs and went straight to the sack.

The smell hit him first. Burnt edges, yes, but under that a warm crumb of real bread. He pried the cloth apart enough to reach in. Round loaves, flat rounds, twisted shapes; all a little too dark, a little misshapen. Pieces someone with coin would send back.

He pulled three loaves that seemed least ruined, tore off the blackened crusts with quick fingers, and stuffed two into his coat. The rest he shoved between his teeth and held there, letting them soften before he tried to chew. Warmth spread from his mouth down into the empty place under his ribs. For a breath he had to close his eyes.

Don’t stand here with your eyes shut like a fool.

He forced himself to move. The bucket sat a few steps away. Up close he could see the thin red line still clinging to the metal near the bottom. Heat pressed against his hand without even touching it. He looked around.

Ash lay along the wall in two shades. Close to the bucket it was darker, clumped with meltwater. Farther along it turned pale, dry dust where old piles had spread. That part looked drier, lighter in color.

He crouched, fingers sinking into powder that still held a little of the old heat. He carried two careful handfuls back and tilted them over the bucket’s top, letting the ash fall in a soft ring around the glow. He went back for more, working faster now, teeth still busy on the last mouthful of bread.

Cold gnawed his fingertips. Once he brushed the hot metal by mistake. Pain flared up his hand. He hissed through his teeth but didn’t pull back right away. He shifted his grip and kept going.

You’re putting a coat on it, he told himself. Stone, air, ash. Let the heat sit where you need it.

He was reaching for another spill of ash when a faint sound brushed his ear. Boots. Voices. He froze. The noise came from the end of the lane that joined the lower street. He backed away at once, keeping low, and crossed to his earlier spot by the cold wall. From there he could see the bucket, the sack, the bend.

Three figures slipped into the lane. Children. All younger than him by a year or two, wrapped in patched coats and scarves that had lost their color to winter. Their cheeks were raw from the wind. One went straight for the sack.

“Only this?” the boy muttered in Zhanar. “She threw out a whole sack yesterday. Someone got here first.”

“See if anything inside isn’t burned,” the second said. Her voice carried the scrape of someone used to shouting over others.

The third noticed the bucket. He nudged it with the toe of his boot. “Still hot,” he said, almost to himself. Then he kicked it harder. The bucket toppled. Ash slid out in a gray sheet. A faint ember in the spill winked and died.

From his shadowed place, Ouz’s tongue clicked against his teeth. The sound stayed in his own head.

“Nothing good,” the first child said after a moment, disgust in his tone. “Take it anyway. Maybe the old man at Lower Bridge will trade.”

They grabbed the sack between them and lugged it back the way they had come. In a few breaths they vanished from the lane.

Ouz moved as soon as they turned the corner. He crossed the frozen mud at a half run and caught the bucket after it rolled once along the ruts. He set it upright and dropped to his knees, coughing when ash puffed into his face. His eyes stung. His burned fingers protested every touch, but he ignored them and scooped what he could back inside, pushing the top layer over the dull metal.

“You waste heat, you freeze,” he muttered under his breath.

Pain made his hands clumsy. Ash smeared his knuckles. He leaned closer to see whether any glow still lived at the bottom.

He did not hear the door. No warning prickle from that sense that had saved him from arrows and chain clinks. No shift in the air that reached past his focus. Only the scrape of hinges, the softer sound of a footstep, and a voice behind him:

“What are you doing with my bucket, boy?”

He flinched and turned. An old man stood in the open doorway. His head shone in the lane’s weak light. No hair on his scalp, no eyebrows, no beard. The skin of his face looked tough as overbaked crust. His scalp carried the faint roughness of hair scraped off in a hurry. Heat rolled out around him, carrying the deep smell of baked bread and smoke.

For a heartbeat Ouz couldn’t find words.

“I—” He swallowed the last of the crumbs and lifted his ash-smeared hands a little. “I’m sorry. Some kids came. They took the sack you left and knocked this over. I was putting it back.”

The man’s eyes narrowed.

“Why?” he asked. “Did they ask you to clean up after them?”

“No.” Ouz shook his head. “They’re not my friends. I don’t know who they are.”

“Then why?” the man said again.

Ouz looked down at the bucket.

Telling the neat lie would be easy. Because it was the right thing to do. Hermit’s lessons about lies sat ready. Believe the words first. Make your face follow.

He let them pass.

“I could say it’s because what they did was wrong,” he said. “That would be a lie. I was going to use the heat. I thought if I kept it covered, it would last the night.”

For a moment the old man’s mouth did nothing at all. His eyes stayed on Ouz’s face, weighing the words. Then one corner lifted, just a little.

“I haven’t seen you in this lane before,” he said. “You’re new.”

“I got to the city today,” Ouz said.

“Where from?”

He hesitated. The story from the gate waited in the same place as the lies. He picked it up.

“I don’t remember,” he said. “I fell in the woods outside the walls and hit my head. When I woke up, I knew my name. I knew I’d been in Zhanar. I didn’t know the rest.”

The man watched him in silence.

“Your name?” he said at last.

“Chanyu.”

“Chanyu,” the baker repeated, tasting the sound. “Tell me, Chanyu. Why didn’t you go to the temple?”

“I couldn’t walk that far,” Ouz said. “Not today.”

The man’s gaze went down to his side for a moment, to the way Ouz kept his arm braced across his ribs. He grunted, a short sound from low in his throat. The sound had a tired edge that hadn’t been there a moment ago. Then he turned and stepped back into the light. He did not close the door.

After three paces he looked over his shoulder.

“Don’t forget the door,” he said. “If you leave it open, the heat runs away.”

Ouz stared.

The old man shrugged one shoulder.

“If you’d rather stay out here and freeze on an empty stomach, that’s your choice,” he added. “If you prefer to be warm while you figure out what to do next, come in and close the door behind you.”

He went inside. Warmth rolled out and wrapped around the bucket, around Ouz’s knees. His burned fingers still throbbed. His ribs ached. The thought of the warm stone wall lost some of its shine.

Hermit said never trust a roof for free. Hermit also said a dead boy learns nothing.

He pushed himself up. The weight of the bucket pulled that line of pain tight across his ribs and stole half his breath. He carried it inside. The heat hit him like a hand. He pulled the door shut behind him before it could escape.