Potential Script (Patreon)

TW: I have not been officially diagnosed with ADHD but the likelihood of said diagnosis feels? inevitable? All this to say this script may not come to fruition whatsoever. But I haven't slept and I'm feeling super sincere and let's see what happens.

"Why I Hate Dysphoria."

So us Trans people - statistically speaking - are at high risk for chronic Depression and Anxiety, right? Look it up if you don't believe me.

But Depression and Anxiety can ebb and flow, or even decline almost totally.

Dysphoria feels relentless.

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Perfect example? I can never bear children.

Sounds funny right?

It's not. I would love to be pregnant.

Never going to happen.

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I remember I was about 11 when I first heard this joke:

"I'm not oppressing you, Stan. You haven't got a womb! Where's the fetus going to gestate?! You going to keep it in a box?!"

Do you believe it took me 11 years to figure out I couldn't get pregnant?

I've always known. But I've always wanted, regardless.

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So yeah. Not to be dramatic or anything but that's just one example.

There's the constant misgendering.

There's the fear.

The waiting.

The exhaustion.

And at every turn, that whisper [from my dysphoria] "you're doing it wrooooong."

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And honestly? that's what I hate the most about Dysphoria.

It's a construct. Just like gender itself.

Without gender? there would be no gender dysphoria.

I'm almost positive no other animal goes through this.

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And hey! It could be worse, right?

I'm being ridiculous, right?

After all - we're ALL transitioning from Life to Death, right?

I'm not the only one that deals with this, right?

But, somedays, I need a lot of help and...

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...Dysphoria never fucking helps.

It'd be awesome if everyone in the world could understand that.