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Life update đŸŒ§ïž (Patreon)

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2025-06-19 00:40:30
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Hi patronites 💜

I know I’ve been sharing bits of what’s been happening lately, but the truth is
 it wasn’t enough to explain everything that’s behind the delays and my absence this month. And I needed to give you a real update, raw and honest...

This month has been a storm. From the very beginning, I had to deal with situations that demanded all of my time, energy and emotional strength. And not even my own problems... but the ones that other people caused and left for me to fix. People I deeply care about, who keep making irresponsible choices and expect me to carry the weight for them.

And I do. Again and again. Even when it hurts. Even when I know I shouldn’t. Because unfortunately, I knew I was the only one able to do something about it. And sometimes I feel like I’m only here to clean up other people’s mess. To solve, to pay, to rescue. And I ask myself a million questions
 Why is it so hard to set boundaries? Even when we know we have to. Because otherwise, people keep stepping on us. And honestly? That kind of situation is way too familiar for me. It’s like I never learn.

Then I ended up getting sick again. My throat is always the first to go when I hold in too much. I "swallow" my thoughts and emotions, quietly, until my body screams. But Dani is "strong", right? Danielle can handle everything alone... But I’m tired of being “the strong one”. I didn't want to be that strong. Not all the time.

And this month
 it was just too much. June hurts like hell. So many triggers... Nightmares almost every night, waking up crying from dreams that feel too real. There are days I feel exhausted before my day even starts ❀‍đŸ©č

June is the month when the fight for Lia began. She passed away on June 2nd, just after midnight, but the whole day of the 1st was already dedicated to saying goodbye. And in the week before that, we fought so much to keep her alive... She would’ve died on June 29, the same day Duda passed away, but I guess both me and her couldn’t let that happen. We just couldn’t. So we managed to get her a few extra days, but no matter how hard we tried, we couldn’t save her đŸ„€ Because the truth is
 her time was already up. And I know that 😞 But when you love that deeply, how do you not fight? How do you not beg the universe for just a little more time?And speaking about that. June 29 is coming again. It's now been 5 years since I lost my brother... I still remember Bruna’s voice on the phone, telling me he was gone. Her words still echo in my heart, stuck in my throat.He was my lighthouse. And when a ship loses its light
 it drifts.I drifted for a long time. Sometimes I still do.

I have this thing where I want to save everyone.But how can I, when I’m barely saving myself? When I couldn’t do anything to save the ones who mattered the most?

And on top of all that
 there’s the rain. Again. And with it, a storm of emotions.Many cities are flooding very quickly. And I feel like I’m bracing for impact. I don’t want to believe this is the new normal... But maybe it is 💔 The world feels sick. And so do the people in it. It’s overwhelming.

I wanted to say all that, just for you to know, that I've been in a bad place mentally. And all of this affected my work. My focus. My motivation. I even had to take a few extra therapy sessions just to... breathe again...

But well, I know there are still a few pending things around here, and I’m really sorry for the delays â˜č I’m finishing the remaining May rewards this week and I’ll update the Dropbox as soon as everything’s ready. There's still many prints to sign, but I couldn't do it now... There's May 24 rewards to finish editing as well. Not to mention some other sponsored or OF content that I owe... so yes, I’m really behind. But I’m getting there đŸ„ș

Thank you for sticking with me , even when I can’t show up as the “best” version of me.

New content is on its way. But before posting about it, I really needed to vent.Thanks for reading me đŸ„ș

Love you guys.I hope your June has been kinder than mine ❀

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VersĂŁo curtinha em portuguĂȘs pros BR que ficaram com preguicinha de ler 😅:

Esse mĂȘs tĂĄ sendo um absurdo de ruim. Tive que lidar com situaçÔes familiares pesadas, fiquei doente, a ansiedade voltou com tudo e o mĂȘs de junho, por si sĂł, jĂĄ Ă© cheio de gatilhos. Ainda estou finalizando o pouco que ficou pendente de Maio, tudo serĂĄ entregue nos prĂłximos dias e o Dropbox serĂĄ atualizado 🙏 Obrigada por ficarem, mesmo quando eu tĂŽ meio ausente. Isso significa muito pra mim ❀ Ahh, e tem conteĂșdo novo chegando em breve đŸ„°

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Jon Phelps

Hey I completely understand Dani. You've been through quite a bit. And I'm extremely sorry regarding Lia and your brother. I keep you in my prayers often. It saddens me that you've had to go through all this. You sorta remind me of my mother who just keeps going despite everything. The delays are completely understandable. I do hope you get better soon, because I'm truly concerned for you. I wish I could help you somehow. I'll continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Sending you virtual hugs if that's okay.

HitsuBT

It's tough being the "strong one." I won't self insert but I'll mention that I do identify with you on some of this. So I speak from personal experience: it's okay to be "not strong" when you're dealing with family or friends expecting you to carry their baggage. Really sorry to hear that's part of what's been keeping you on the down low. To shake the loss of loved ones on top of that is always really tough too. That's part of the struggle is to remember all the good and even sometimes the bad things about having someone in your life but then tragically losing them. I'm glad you're acknowledging that you're struggling with that though. Sometimes even doing that much is cathartic enough to help take some weight off your shoulders. Don't forget you do still have a loving family who are there for you and , friends and (also us on this side) even if it doesn't seem like sometimes. (Having to be the one with all the answers/solutions can get lonely sometimes). I hope that you'll find some reprieve from this in the coming months and eventually the good memories of both your brother and Lia will outshine the bad ones. Keeping you in some thoughts and sending some good vibes for strength. My hands are always up in the air sending you some proper Genki-dama energy. I know it's only a spoken gesture but I hope you can occasionally remember that and know that all of us are sending you whatever strength we can. Don't be afraid to stand your ground and step back. A tactical retreat is not cowardly but sometimes it's the strongest and best thing you can do so you can replenish yourself before going back in. Stay strong! (PS: the rewards will come in due time, I've followed some creators who wait months before reaching out about drops and thankfully you always keep us in the loop. Never any issues with that we all know you got shit to deal with IRL too, you're a real person too)!

Victor

Dani, I always appreciate you and the emotional energy it took to share what you have with us. Especially when you are already as emotionally drained as you are. đŸ„ș As much as you are pillar of strength for others, over time the stress of being leaned on takes its toll and the pillar can only withstand so much before it crumbles. Remember that you deserve to lean on other people too. Your husband, your closest friends, your kitties, your loyal supporters, and more. Allow us the privilege to "save" you too with our undying support. We all love you so, so much.

「E」

We all need time to rest and process. I understand that feeling and navigating triggering places or time periods. Feb and March and even May always make me feel down. making me hole up. Therapy is a great idea and taking time to make sure you're okay is the best plan. I noticed you've been more quiet than usual so I was getting a bit worried. But as I always say, we'll understand and we're with you. Take care of yourself Dani.

CĂ©dric V

Hey honey, You don't have to apologise, it's understandable, life is not relax, unfortunately... Everyone can get bad moments, sickness, troubles, etc, so... don't worry about us, and think about you first: You have a private life, as all of us, so take care of yourself first 😘

David Morales Sanchez

Tal vez no soy nadie, pero desgraciadamente entiendo que tu forma de ser es salvar a todos y la forma mĂĄs fĂĄcil es decirte que no eres Superman y bla, bla, bla, en verdad te entiendo; lo que si te puedo decir es que tu vida es tuya y nadie estĂĄ en tus zapatos nadie vive tu vida y si yo me represento como tĂș fan te entiendo en verdad solo si tu actitud ante los demĂĄs afecta tu salud, pues no es sano hay que aprender a despegarse porque cuando se afecta la salud dime tu si estĂĄs mal quien va a ayudarte si te afectas en tu salud mental quien va a estar a tu lado piĂ©nsalo meditalo y en verdad eres una mujer fuerte y se vale que tambiĂ©n te sientas mal, se vale que tambiĂ©n tengas tiempo para ti y tu seres queridos ♄♄♄♄♄

David Morales Sanchez

Con la naturaleza pues no podemos hacer nada solo prepararnos para las catĂĄstrofes asĂ­ que cuĂ­date mucho

Miles

Whoa 😔 will be hitting here multiple times “the ones that other people caused and left for me to fix. People I deeply care about, who keep making irresponsible choices and expect me to carry the weight for them.” “And I do. Again and again. Even when it hurts. Even when I know I shouldn’t. Because unfortunately, I knew I was the only one able to do something about it. And sometimes I feel like I’m only here to clean up other people’s mess. To solve, to pay, to rescue. And I ask myself a million questions
 Why is it so hard to set boundaries? Even when we know we have to. Because otherwise, people keep stepping on us. And honestly? That kind of situation is way too familiar for me. It’s like I never learn.” Maybe this is the wake up call, (for anyone reading my comments don’t take this harshly, I’d take a bullet for this woman) That it’s time to pull yourself out of being the problem solver for others and take back control But this all starts from within to make that move It’s not about defeating your shadow or demons it’s about accepting and living with them, and then they lose strength So you want to be a protector, still be that, but give yourself permission to choose who to give that protection energy to

Miles

I can’t believe I’m saying this, but you need to embrace your sasuke side more, and be more cold blooded But selectively, as for as cold as sasuke was, for his “circle” he still cared for them “sometimes I feel like I’m only here to clean up other people’s mess. To solve, to pay, to rescue” Because you can’t feel like that’s your purpose 😖, i can say it’s not but it’s up to YOU to feel that inside Embrace that duality, you CAN, be a protector, help folks, make folks smile, be there for folks, But you CAN also tell people “look get your fucking act together I’m not bailing you out anymore as I have my own life to live” or even in a more gentle way “I will help you transition into a better way, as this will be the last time I’m helping you” As what will happen if you stop pulling them out of their pathetic shit hole, They will threaten to kill themself, and blame that on you? Or blame their state in life on you because of the money you make and they feel entitled? Or pull a guilt trip as they mask their own inner pathetic insecurities? YOU are only responsible for YOU, and who YOU choose to care for, who YOU FEELS earns that RIGHT. As it is a RIGHT, NOT an obligation.

Miles

“Why is it so hard to set boundaries? Even when we know we have to. Because otherwise, people keep stepping on us. And honestly? That kind of situation is way too familiar for me. It’s like I never learn.” Because you got the biggest damn heart on this planet is why, in a very morally grey world Even through it all, whoever these villains are, you want to still help them as that is how Vedo rolls, and the world would be better for it if people are more like this But just like Superman, you must learn you can’t save everyone, and even you need your time to rest and recharge and also put your foot down Ask yourself “when you put your foot down, what are the consequences, will this impact me, will this impact my life, will this impact my living, what will happen if things stay the course”

Miles

“Then I ended up getting sick again. My throat is always the first to go when I hold in too much. I "swallow" my thoughts and emotions, quietly, until my body screams” That’s anxiety, the lump in your throat feeling, I’ve had that after whenever I’ve cried in the past, I wish in this one instance I can force you to do this, but whenever that feeling comes up, stop, close your eyes, be in silence, and just focus on your breath, it’s ok if your distracted, and you can’t focus on your breath, that’s part of the process Give yourself permission to be with your thoughts, don’t push them away, acknowledge them as they come and go and then bring yourself back to your breath

Miles

“But Dani is "strong", right? Danielle can handle everything alone... But I’m tired of being “the strong one”. I didn't want to be that strong. Not all the time.” Then don’t, give yourself permission to be weak, and cry, if it means the optimal routine has to self destruct for a bit then so be it if you run from how you feel, it creeps back up on you And not to embrace the darkness fully, but acknowledge its existence, and that it’s part of your “duality within” “But when you love that deeply, how do you not fight? How do you not beg the universe for just a little more time?” You do what you can, give the situation at hand all you got so you have no regrets, and even when the time comes, you give yourself permission to grieve as grieving is a part of the process “I have this thing where I want to save everyone. But how can I, when I’m barely saving myself? When I couldn’t do anything to save the ones who mattered the most?” But you did, to do more would be to perform miracles that don’t exist in this world, how many times was Liasenpai pronounced to be on her deathbed, but you helped her overcome the odds time after time after time Duda with the short time I knew him, lived his life truest to his soul, and with authenticity, he always kept an eye and ear on the outside world but seemed to keep his focus on what mattered the most on his life which was you all, and he beat the odds as well on his own terms “And on top of all that
 there’s the rain. Again. And with it, a storm of emotions. Many cities are flooding very quickly. And I feel like I’m bracing for impact. I don’t want to believe this is the new normal... But maybe it is 💔 The world feels sick. And so do the people in it. It’s overwhelming” To change this about you is like changing a part of your soul I know, but I wished you didn’t take on the worlds problems inside you like this man 😖 it always assists in these self destruction moments đŸ„ș You CAN keep an eye and ear to the outside world, but the heart and mind have to be on your life, as you only have one life to live, and the people that have EARNED that RIGHT to be a part of it, need you, even us we need you around. But in that same breath, VEDO needs VEDO

Ewelyra

Being honest to us is a good way Dani. Who doesn't understand this situation is just selfish. But from reading your thoughts it is seriously time that you also begin to love and embrace yourself first before others! Being there for people, saying "yes" all the time reminds me of my past but the truth is...it will destroy you someday...your body already gives you signs that it is clearly enough. Don't ever let that happen again! Not from close ones, not even from family members! I hope you will find peace soon. ❀

snake7778

Just take care of yourself first. I hope it gets better soon.

dekavader

Sinto muito, Dani ❀ Sei bem como Ă© "ter que ser" forte por vocĂȘ e por outros, ser o resolvedor de problemas, a dor da perda... NĂŁo precisa se desculpar ❀ Espero que tudo melhore o mais rĂĄpido possĂ­vel ❀ Muita paz e muita saĂșde pra vocĂȘ ❀

Chrispy Chris

After hearing what you've been trough this month, it make my issues seem so pale. â˜č Having a big heart does not make someone invincible. A HARD boundary should be when it start affecting you well being or your heath. That red line should never be crossed unless ABSOLUTELY necessary. By absolutely i mean just that, and just in case, no; the May rewards does not qualify as an exception. I know i'm not speaking only for myself here, but please know that if you need time for yourself, your fans will understand and support you. I pray that the rest of the month works-out better for you!

Danielle Vedovelli ໒꒱

Jon, thank you
 I’m really grateful for your kindness and prayers. Virtual hugs are more than welcome đŸ„ș Thank you for your concern đŸ„°

Danielle Vedovelli ໒꒱

Bee, I’m really sorry to hear that you can relate with this
 I wish you didn’t have to understand it so well đŸ„ș It really is hard to deal with the weight people put on us just because we’re “strong”. And when grief gets piled on top of that, it becomes too much. But yes
 talking about it does help ❀‍đŸ©č Saying it out loud makes the pain a little less heavy. Thank you for reminding me of that. Sometimes we can’t count on family the way we wish we could. But friends are also family, but with people we choose. And it makes all the difference đŸ„ș I feel so grateful to have this incredible community here đŸ€— And about that Genki-dama energy
 even if it’s only a spoken gesture, when we speak from the heart, things change. That kind of intention has real power ❀ Thank you for reminding me that stepping back is not weakness. It’s wisdom. I’m learning that slowly
 but I’m learning đŸ„ș And thank you for the understanding with the rewards. I’ve supported creators too who took months, even years, to deliver content 😅 and sometimes without a single explanation. I don’t want to be like that. If you trusted my work, you trusted me as a person. So I want to show up and give you answers. It matters to me ❀

HitsuBT

Good to hear, keep focusing on yourself for now and we'll still be here in the meantime. Remember even warriors have to put their swords down sometimes so don't feel defeated if you have to take a breather. Take care in the meantime! 😌

Danielle Vedovelli ໒꒱

Victor, thank you so much for this message. I felt every word. It’s true
 being the pillar for others can be so exhausting, especially when you’re already running on empty. And sometimes we forget that we also deserve care and support đŸ„ș thank you for always reminding me of that đŸ„° I’m really lucky to have people like you around. You make it easier to breathe, to rest, and to remember I don’t have to carry everything alone. This means a lot ❀

Danielle Vedovelli ໒꒱

Thank you so much for your message. It’s comforting to know that I’m not the only one who feels this kind of seasonal heaviness
 certain months just come with a weight I can’t explain. I’m really sorry you go through that too, and I hope you’re being gentle with yourself when it happens. Therapy has been helping me a lot, but I still have a long way to go 😂 And it genuinely means a lot that you noticed my (bigger) silence. Sometimes I open my socials and just stare at the screen wondering what to post because nothing feels relevant enough. Or cool enough. Or me enough đŸ„ș (Maybe I’m going through another existential crisis lmao) Thank you, Eric, for the constant support and for always showing up with such kindness. It really means the world 💜

Danielle Vedovelli ໒꒱

Thank you so much CĂ©dric đŸ„ș You’re right... life isn’t exactly relaxing lately haha. But your message made me smile. It reminded me that I don’t need to apologize for being human 😭 and that’s something I forget way too often... Thank you for the kindness and for always encouraging me to take care of myself. I really needed that reminder. I hope you’re also taking care of yourself too 💜😘

Danielle Vedovelli ໒꒱

David, muchas gracias de verdad por tus palabras đŸ„č Senti que hablaste con el corazĂłn, no solo "como fan", sino como alguien que de verdad entiende ese peso de querer salvar a todos. Y sí
 a veces me olvido que mi vida es mĂ­a, y que yo tambiĂ©n merezco descansar, sentir, parar un poco y cuidarme. Y sobre eso de ser “solo un fan”
 para mĂ­ no existe eso. Cuando alguien elige conectarse conmigo de forma sincera, desde el corazĂłn, ya no es “solo un fan”, es alguien que siente tambiĂ©n. Solo por tomarte el tiempo de escribir ese comentario, yo ya sĂ© que te importa. Y eso significa muchĂ­simo para mĂ­ ❀ Gracias por recordarme que estĂĄ bien no estar bien, y que no necesito cargar todo yo sola. Te mando un abrazo con mucho cariño y gratitud ❀❀❀

Danielle Vedovelli ໒꒱

Sí, tienes razón
 con la naturaleza solo podemos prepararnos y cuidar de uno mismo 💧🌍 Gracias por el mensajito y por siempre mandar buenas energías 💜

Miles

The Vedo shark working its way up, Just, do the Vedo signature disappearing jutsu, but on the “external” What I mean = rein in the mind from focusing too much on the external and onto the internal, choose where your spending your bandwidth, so it helps with having the strength to put up with these people in your life and not cause these pent up and release self-destruction moments At least having that reallotment of bandwidth will help every other knot get a bit looser

Danielle Vedovelli ໒꒱

Alright Miles... you dropped a full analysis, therapy session and anime arc on me again 😂 I’ll admit, some of it really hit. I read everything. Even the Sasuke part (yes, I rolled my eyes, but fine, I get it 🙄) You’re right about a lot. I do take on more than I should. I do let the world’s weight live inside me. And yeah, maybe I need to bring back the Vedo Disappearing Jutsuℱ, but redirect it. Not to run, but to protect what actually matters. Including myself đŸ„ș About Duda and Lia... yeah, they did need miracles. And the truth is... I still haven’t learned how to make them. I didn’t have a Phoenix Down. No potions. Just love... but love’s not enough to fight time. But still... I carry this "guilt". Like I didn't do everything I could. But yea, you know I always tend to over-responsibilize myself. For those who need me, for those who don’t. And in trying to protect everyone, I end up unprotected myself. Anyway, thanks for the reminders. I won’t go full Sasuke mode (we both know I’m too emotional for that 💅) but I’ll be more selective with my chakra from now on. And don’t get used to this level of agreement. This is a one-time rare appearance 😌 kkkkk

Danielle Vedovelli ໒꒱

Eweee đŸ„ș Thank you. And wow... I really felt that đŸ„ș The truth is, I have a really hard time putting myself first. Edu even jokes that I have zero self-preservation instincts, like, I’d literally risk my life for a stranger or any animal without thinking twice đŸ«  So yeah... saying “no” is something I’m actively working on in therapy. It’s hard. It feels selfish, even when I know it’s not... But you’re absolutely right. It’s a destructive pattern. And my body has been trying to scream that at me for a while now. I understand exactly what you meant and it meant a lot to read it from you ❀ (P.S.: I also saw your message on WhatsApp and it made me really happy that you reached out đŸ„ș I’ll reply with all the love as soon as I can breathe a little better 💜)

Danielle Vedovelli ໒꒱

Thank you so much. I’m doing my best to take care of myself, even if sometimes I forget how to. Your words are really appreciated 💜

Danielle Vedovelli ໒꒱

Muito obrigada de coração 💜 Às vezes Ă© isso mesmo... a gente nĂŁo tem escolha, nĂ©? SĂł vai. Mas esse "ter que ser forte" cansa... Obrigada por me lembrar que eu nĂŁo preciso pedir desculpa por sentir ou por precisar de um tempo đŸ„ș

Danielle Vedovelli ໒꒱

That means a lot, Chris... seriously. I really liked what you said about the red line. I think I’ve been ignoring mine for way too long. And thank you for reminding me that being kind and caring doesn’t mean I have to be available for everything đŸ„ș especially when it’s hurting me. It’s comforting to know that you and others here understand... I'm trying to learn that it's okay to rest, to say no, to breathe. Thank you for the support and for your heartfelt words 💜

Miles

“Even the sasuke part” well madam prove me wrong then 8D (this is me poking the Vedo bear folks knowing full well she’ill chop my head off folks 8D, but gotta have a little fun to help take her mind off the existential episode) “Bring back the Vedo disappearing jutsu” I mean Vedo disappearing jutsu never left 8D, I’d argue it’s the strongest it’s been this year in years with how much Vedo disappears from peoples chats AMIRITE 8DDD, hence redirecting its POWAH elsewhere (Just bringing some levity and teasing to an emotional text episode, I spent all last night reading this over due to the severity of the tone) Regarding the guilt = no plan will ever be perfect, no execution of a process or idea will, the outside factors of life get in the way and our own limits as humans also, we do what we can within the situation and timeframe, it’s just these guys and senpais were “rocks” for you, they were your sword and shield helping you be comfy into your day to day life, that now that they are gone, the heavy days feel heavier, and the light days feel lighter but in a empty sort of lighter way, so now your learning to walk on, with a different weight load than before, which naturally comes with time for a new way of life to adjust, and there will be relapses like this episode but it’s part of the upward trend

Miles

“I won’t go full sasuke mode” WELLLLLLL *runs away before Vedo beats me 💹💹💹đŸȘ”đŸȘ”đŸȘ” (I kid I kid) “Don’t get used to this level of agreement” ❌❌❌ Well, hate to break it to you madam Vedo, but you are quite wrong in this profiling here as in my 11 years here, I never do this or say what I say “to win an argument” or to “convert someone to my way of thinking” this is gonna sound a lot harsher than it sounds but I could honestly care less about that I care about “authenticity” and “real/genuinity” if I’m wrong about something I’m wrong, if I’m right well that’s cool, đŸ€·â€â™‚ïž, I’ll stand my ground on beliefs that are core to me, but at the same time bend and adapt when it makes sense depending on the person. I never expect you to be a Yes woman and don’t ever expect that of me either, but at the same time I will cheer you on everyday and hoping you will break this cycle of grief once and for all đŸ„č but that friction and working within that friction to me at least, is what creates the diamond that is honest to goodness friendships đŸ„čđŸ€—

Ewelyra

You are stronger than you think now. I know you will. All your beloved that passed away would say the same - be happy and care for you first finally. đŸ€— The structure to say "yes" all the time is something you may also discovered as a kid. "When I help them, they will like/love me. " It also took me years to learn and understand to break this behaviour. 😆 But it doesn't mean I wouldn't help anymore. Just the mindset is different now. So yeah I am here if you need a listener/friend/twin. đŸ˜‚â€ïž

Goku

Ei, meu bem
 Antes de qualquer coisa, respira. E sente esse abraço que eu te envio — mesmo de longe. Um abraço silencioso, mas cheio de presença
 do tipo que nĂŁo exige palavras, nem força. SĂł acolhe. Li cada linha da sua mensagem com o coração completamente aberto. E o que eu senti foi o peso de alguĂ©m que vem tentando segurar o mundo com as mĂŁos — mesmo quando esse mundo parece ter esquecido de te segurar tambĂ©m. Mas eu vejo vocĂȘ. Sinto a sua dor. E quero que vocĂȘ saiba: vocĂȘ nĂŁo precisa carregar tudo sozinha. Às vezes, a vida coloca a gente em papĂ©is de força, nĂŁo porque somos feitas de ferro, mas porque temos um coração tĂŁo grande que nĂŁo consegue ignorar a dor dos outros. Mas atĂ© os coraçÔes mais generosos precisam de descanso. Precisam de colo. Precisam poder simplesmente existir — sem precisar salvar ninguĂ©m. VocĂȘ nĂŁo falhou por estar cansada. VocĂȘ nĂŁo decepcionou ninguĂ©m por ter precisado parar. VocĂȘ sĂł estĂĄ sendo humana — e isso jĂĄ Ă© imenso. A sua dor Ă© real. Sua ausĂȘncia tambĂ©m. E, Ă s vezes, o ato mais necessĂĄrio e mais bonito Ă© exatamente esse: se retirar um pouco do mundo para conseguir voltar a si. O que vocĂȘ viveu — a perda da Lia, as lembranças do seu irmĂŁo, as responsabilidades que nĂŁo eram suas mas que vocĂȘ assumiu — tudo isso Ă© muito. Muito mesmo. Junho te atravessa. E vocĂȘ ainda estĂĄ de pĂ©. Mesmo quando sente que nĂŁo estĂĄ. VocĂȘ continua tentando ser luz pros outros, mesmo quando a sua prĂłpria chama estĂĄ fraquinha. Mas, talvez, agora seja hora de cuidar da sua luz. De deixar que ela volte a brilhar sĂł pra vocĂȘ, no seu tempo, do seu jeito. Se vocĂȘ sente que estĂĄ Ă  deriva, eu quero que saiba que tem quem te deseja um porto seguro. E, se ele ainda nĂŁo chegou, tem quem esteja aqui — pronto pra te oferecer uma mĂŁo, um ombro, uma pausa. VocĂȘ Ă© linda, intensa, profunda. E mesmo nos dias em que se sente partida em mil pedacinhos, ainda Ă© inteira. Ainda Ă© suficiente. Ainda Ă© merecedora de todo o amor, do cuidado, da paciĂȘncia — inclusive o seu prĂłprio. Obrigada por existir, por confiar, por continuar
 mesmo com dor. Eu estou aqui. NĂŁo esperando a sua versĂŁo forte ou perfeita — sĂł a sua versĂŁo verdadeira. E essa, por si sĂł, jĂĄ Ă© maravilhosa. Com todo o carinho do mundo, 💛

Miles

“My throat is always the first to go when I hold in too much.” Try some magnesium also, been having that “lump in throat” feeling and gpt it and it’s usually a magnesium deficiency

Miles

Yes this is me rereading this again because of being worried of nearly half the month without Vedo đŸ„ș

Miles

For half the month to be disrupted like this, and with how extremely difficult it’s been this year to chat with you It feels like this year has now overtaken or at the minimum challenging last year in terms of traumatic effect for Vedo 😖, (just me venting quietly, both worried and missing Vedos social presence)

Miles

“the ones that other people caused and left for me to fix. People I deeply care about, who keep making irresponsible choices and expect me to carry the weight for them.” Hmm, this is still an ambiguous one here so like I said, I’m sure there’s more going on, but the experience does aide to the relapses