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Hello guys 😢 I’m so sorry for disappearing. This literally never happened to me before. But it was simply too much for me. I couldn’t even think properly.

Yesterday marked 2 weeks since my brother died. He was very sick with severe kidney failure and recently he also discovered a gastric cancer. He died during his first session of chemotherapy. Sudden cardiac arrest.

Well... One of the main reasons I wanted to come back to Brazil was him. Duda was one of the most important people to me, I can certainly say that I am who I am now only because of him. He was 5 years older than I. I will never understand why such an incredible person like him needs to leave this world so soon. But I understand that this world is and has always been too little for him.

I never thought I could handle so much pain. And if the pain I felt was that cruel, I can’t even start imagining the pain our parents were feeling.

It still hurts like hell. But now I can already think about him without crying. Life goes on after all. I’ll do my best to live a honorable life which he could be proud of.

I’ll be fine. Today I’ll finish June rewards so you can expect them within a few days. I couldn’t focus before with so much going on, I’m sorry.

It’s been a few days we also arrived in Brazil. This all happened in the week before of our travel, there was a lot to work on because of that.

Everyone arrived safely. I was so worried about Lia but I guess she had a better trip than we had 😅

Now we are already reunited with my family and little by little life will become bearable again.

You know I always want to bring you joy/happiness and currently I cannot offer you this. But I hope I’ll be able to as soon as I can.

Thank you for understanding that I needed some space. I was dealing with a LOT. I still am. I believe this pain changed me forever.

But before... I thought part of me died on 29th June. Now I see that part of my brother will always live with me, deep in my heart.