Sorry for being so -- (Patreon)

Anxious and nervous lately.

I'm doing my best to overcome a lot of ingrained fears and panic over being more social online. Which I know sounds dumb, I feel so helpless with it all. I mean, I was really looking forward to streaming and chatting online with everyone but every time I tried I got so overwhelmed and afraid I couldn't.

Because he used to hurt me for it, I remember when the fandom was fresh and new, I was on skype every night that summer streaming, talking to everyone, making friends, and he hated that.

He would literally PHYSICALLY pull me away from my laptop, slam it shut in the middle of a stream, force me into the bedroom, and I know he isn't here, he can't do anything to me but my brain and fear is so.

I'm going to try though, when I do I might be super nervous and anxious, please be patient with me! I really do want to share drawing more and bounce around ideas, I want to create a community for us. 

In times like these I want to offer what I can the only way I know how and that's offering my friendship ya know.

Sorry I've been meaning to say something about why I haven't been on discord and I hope you all understand. It's so enraging that there are still parts of me that are barely beginning to heal and issues barely being brought to light.

I am so grateful for everyone of you here, thank you so much for your continued support and friendship!😭