Watching the Storm with Your Dork of a Vampire (Patreon)

tl;dr: posting to YT has become really difficult with the restrictions but i still want to make stuff with kisses and innuendo etc, so some audios are now going to exist here publicly in full and only in shorter 'cleaned up' form on YT.

the full thing:

so, real talk, I've been feeling extremely boxed in by what youtube will allow on the platform. like, anything more than one or two of the chastest kisses, or literally just using words or phrases like "going to bed together", or even breathing in a way that sounds too "gratifying", it all just makes it feel like an absolute minefield to make anything, and then once i do, it's stressful worrying about if I pushed the envelope too far and i'm gonna get a strike, or on the opposite side of the spectrum, it's stressful feeling like i'm making something so sterilized that, while it's 'acceptable' on youtube, it's not something people would want to listen to, or at least not to the same extent. it's really demotivating. and at a time in my life where my offline job has grown and is a more pressing concern than it's ever been, and I've got family to tend to and be present for, all of that just combines to make it really hard to find that joy that brought me here in the first place. and i want to be clear, i don't say any of this to worry anybody or anything like that, i don't plan on going anywhere, i don't plan on stopping, this channel and what it means for everybody and for myself is still so important to me. i just thought it was worth sharing that it's been a struggle to create while in this broader situation and especially under the restrictions that youtube has placed and continues to place.

so. what that means for this video: i wrote this script the way i would've written in back in the old days of the channel, when youtube wasn't so restrictive. it's not crazy explicit, we're not talking hot boi summer levels of pushing the envelope, nothing super steamy, it's just a realistic depiction of how a loving couple that values touch might express themselves in this situation. there's some innuendo, there's a decent amount of kissing, it's just what i would consider normal fare for a video like this. and i'm sure if i posted it to youtube in this state, i would get another strike. and to be honest, that feels fucking crazy. but i'm sick of sterilizing everything i do down to the point that they're demanding, so while the youtube version is cut down, it's gonna live in its true form here. and once it's past early access timeframe, it'll be available publicly here for free in its full form, like i did for hot boi summer last year. and just to reiterate, this particular audio isn't meant to be HBS levels of spicy, i want to set the expectation right, it's just a normal amount of intimacy as far as i'm concerned, and it's crazy that that amount can only live here, but that's the reality of the situation at this point.

so all that to say, expect to see more videos posted in this fashion in the future. not every single one, and most of them are probably not gonna be a huge difference in explicit-ness or anything between the youtube and patreon versions, i just want to feel the freedom to make stuff in the way that i would have made it before, and this is a way that i'd like to try doing that.

the shortened youtube version can be found here:

https://youtu.be/_GQ3qfSnVDQ