February Billing Cycle Paused (Patreon)

Hello, generous Chads, Gosus and Haxors.

I'm pausing my Patreon income for this upcoming billing cycle.

None of my supporters will be charged on February 1st.

As I've written previously, I've really been struggling with my mood the past few months and it culminated early this month (January) with my having an emotional breakdown.

I was driving at the time, stopped at an intersection and I started sobbing at the wheel.

I pulled into a stall and sat there try to calm myself down for ten minutes.

That night at home I couldn't sleep, I was pacing around and I couldn't stop feeling devastated.

Nothing significantly bad happened, but I've been dealing with a number of stressors for a very long time, I just let too many things get on top of me at once and freaked out.

I went on what was basically a writing retreat back at my mom's house for a few weeks to recalibrate and focus on finalizing the screenplays for both episodes sixteen and seventeen of Arby 'n' the Chief season eight, the last ones.

I'm happy to say I've now finished them both, the whole season is now written.

The only work the scripts need now is writing the all the action in prose for the sides that will be given to any actors/actresses that aren't me (right now all the action and shots are written but in point-form and would be hard to interpret for others), and then adding dialogue delivery instructions in parentheticals.

I also wanted to get a short out by the end of this month about dealing with depression to help others deal with their moods throughout this lockdown, as well as myself, inspired obviously by my breakdown.

I was on track but unfortunately I lost a couple shooting days due to recently having to meet someone in the city and then losing my wallet, so I had to crash at a friend's place until I could track it down the next day, and it took all day, and I was too tired afterwards having been walking everywhere.

I got my wallet back, but now, although my short's well into production, I won't get it done before February.

Although I've been working hard on much writing, I hate to charge my supporters anything if I haven't made a video delivery of some kind within a month, so here we are.

I've also said I'd do commentaries on all my seasons as a backer reward and I still haven't done them, and I feel bad about it.

As I said, I wasn't at my place with any equipment for a few weeks, so even if I felt like being on camera, I couldn't be.

I will get to it soon as I'm currently feeling better, much more so than I was a few weeks ago.

I know this is a difficult time for everyone and I'm nobody special, I don't even have a bad life, I've just been in this permanent state of anxiety about my own life, career (if you can call it that), the future of it and the state of the world that I'm having trouble shaking.

I'm hoping to ease back into some streaming soon, including recording the commentaries, some gaming, and reacting to videos made from fans like Arby 'n' the Chief Retold 2, which I haven't watched yet because I'm saving my reaction for a recording, and I've never forgotten about it.

I'm still excited to see it.

Thank you all so much for your continued patience for and support of me.

I'm very grateful to you all for funding what I consider a dream job.

My content is very important to me and I will continue to deliver quality to the best of my ability.

Stay safe and healthy.