July Content Update 2 (Patreon)

Thank you all for your patience.

I assume many of you are accustomed to more frequent uploads from creators you're subscribed to.

With some creators I notice their being alive is questioned if they haven't uploaded within a month.

Not only does the cinematic nature of my content require more time than most -- even a secondary, relatively simple project like this E3 special involves numerous script re-writes, punch-ups, prop-shopping, almost a hundred unique shots, fine, to-the-frame video editing, sound design and quality checking -- but I've recently had to slow that process down for a number of reasons including my mental health as well as allowing more time for more auditions for characters in the mainline episodes to come in to resolve a recently arisen critical casting issue.

Production on the remainder of season eight continues to haunt me like some terrible monster, like the one in Prince of Persia: Warrior Within.

That's barely a joke.

It may sound silly given what the show is but it's a huge deal to me and there's a crushing pressure associated with it for a variety of reasons, including the sheer amount of work invovled, the edginess and explicit nature of the subject matter and language in what feels like a rapidly shifting culture, regularly praying nothing happens to my channel, and above all the embarrassment and guilt of how long the season has taken me to make already and the fear of disappointing fans relative to that time.

That's all aside from the current pressures of life we're all facing and a number personal to me, and the past couple of months have been a struggle.

Sometimes the ideas just don't come and the energy I need isn't there.

I've paused all my crowdfunding income for the past two months in a row so I wouldn't have to feel bad about it and could focus on my well-being.

I don't make the decision to take time for myself lightly as it's a lot of money to forfeit.

I'm happy to say this lack of energy comes and goes like the tide, and I'm currently on the upswing.

I always want to get back to work eventually.

I'm eating better, getting up and going to bed at more reasonable hours, going outside more, getting some tan, losing weight, keeping a clean house, running errands, leaving a bit of time each day for relaxing, and as a result have been recently finding the energy to work many hours each day on content production, and I'm getting some enjoyment from it as well.

I promise I care to quite an extreme degree about my story and doing the finest work I can to give the series as compelling an ending as I can manage.

To re-iterate, there are two feature-length episodes left that are being produced back-to-back, though they won't be released simultaneously or back-to-back, they'll be edited and then released with some time in between, though not nearly as long as the gaps have been so far.

Both episodes been written, much has been shot and so far I believe it's some of my best work.

I say that a lot but I mean it.

I always try to challenge and top myself, to a fault.

I really hope people don't look to this E3 special with disappointment that it's not a mainline episode, but I understand the frustration.

Just know I feel bad about it, almost to the point of nausea.

The special's about 36 minutes altogether, including an outtakes reel.

I really hope you get at least a few good laughs and stay tuned.

Thank you all so much for your continuous tuning in, supportive emails which I love to receive, and incredible generosity that has allowed me to get by doing what I love in these troubled times, which I will continue to respect and be forever grateful for.