so here's what the it of it is (Patreon)

viz., that I'm not thrilled to be so publicly explicit, but I don't want to keep anybody in the dark: as I've alluded to before, I live with serious mental & physical health problems, and thanks to an erratic self-medication regimen, I woke up in the ER a few months ago being told that I was going to die if I didn't stop.  

It's taken this long to kick what I had to kick and get anything like some balance back, and unfortunately, doing the show was nervewracking enough that I needed a lot of, ahem, the things I had to kick just to get through it.  I hope I can do more episodes eventually, but I'm still just trying to stay sane (scare quotes as you see fit) and alive every day, so I can't be any more specific than that.  Sorry for the drought, and sincere thanks to everybody who still subscribes, not least because you helped me pay my hospital bills.

MSJ, somewhere among several foreclosed-upon American futures