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We are returning to Kyiv.

On the way, we visited my cousin and nieces in Vienna. It was not my personal wish, it was the wish of my cousin (16-year-old Alyona, with whom I went on this trip). She wanted to see her brother and nieces, whom she had not seen since the beginning of the war in Ukraine. And I did not see them even longer.

I have never had a close relationship with my cousin and his daughters. I will say more, in childhood we were in constant fights and quarrels. So I did not expect any tenderness and pleasant memories from this meeting. And the fact that the nieces remembered me at all seemed like a fantasy to me. I saw them when they were very small.

In reality, everything was not as I thought. This one day that we all spent together became special for me). Sonya and Eva (my nieces) remembered me and were very happy to see me. We talked a lot, played, they gave us a tour of the city)) I looked at these girls, who are so open to the world, cheerful, full of love, freely expressing their emotions, and I couldn't be happier. For the first time in a long time, I thought about children... about my future children... about my future pregnancy... about my future motherhood. And I thought not with disgust 🤣 and not with fear. I know it will happen someday and I imagine this period to be very bright and filled with warmth and love.

Doesn't this mean that I have grown up?