Selfportraits (Patreon)

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I finally made a separate package on Patreon that includes backstage videos and my little sketches from life and filming. All who are now VIP patrons + already have access to this channel (please write to me in private messages and I will send you a link to access the channel).

In the process of accepting my sexual energy.

For a long time I did not accept the sexualized side of my art. I fought so hard for the perception of the female body as a normal body that I completely closed myself off from sexuality. Comments like "sexy", "what nice butt or breasts", "I'm turned on".... dickpics in my private messages - all this made me very upset, made me sick and often stopped me from continuing to shoot. At first, I went through a long time to accept people as they are and so that no person could shake my position and my desire to film what I see. And finally, the time has come to explore exactly that taboo sexuality for me. I never felt it in myself, I was uncomfortable with it, in my opinion it was equated with vulgarity.

Now I felt the desire to find sexuality in myself. I know that most people see her in me anyway and may not understand what I am talking about now. I don't want to go into the details of my psychological prejudices on this topic right now...but maybe I will someday.

So now you see my attempt to feel comfortable, sexy and not vulgar in underwear, in this case in a corset. I won't say that I succeeded the first time, but I felt that everything turned out to be not as terrible as I imagined in my head when I was shooting.