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Honestly, I still haven't gotten my emotions under control. I take my meds daily, but the anxiety hasn't gone away. I also didn't keep my promise about coming back to Discord this month — I'm just not there yet. I've been working on a few things, but nothing I feel is worth showing. Toward the end of the month, I'm planning to post some thoughts about the AI video experiments here, and maybe a Yorha 2B video update too — though it might slip to early next month. Right now, I'm still stuck in rumination and self-criticism. I've been drinking a lot of strong black tea every day just to keep myself steady.
嗯…简单来说，我还是没处理好自己的情绪。每天都在吃药，但焦虑感没有减轻。我也没兑现回归Discord的承诺——至少这个月，我还是没准备好。我确实做了一些东西，但没有什么值得展示的。月底的话，我打算在这里发一些关于AI生成视频的心得，同时更新一个Yorha 2B的视频？也可能拖到下月初。目前还是处于反刍和自我攻击的状态，每天都要喝很多口味很重的红茶才能平静下来。