Why haven't i freaking posted a video a week this month (Patreon)

Two reasons

1) palestine video has been stressing me tf out and I've been locked in an endless dance with the script trying to figure out the best way to say stuff

2) depressive episode + a nightmare trying to get my adderall prescription (unfortunately i can barely function if i don't have adderall) once i get that prescription y'all are gonna be swimming in videos but gimme a second I'm super depressed right now idk why