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~ A certain comfort found in being uprooted 🍂🍁

I've been spending this weekend honouring the ideas I'd willfully suggested to myself in times of previous turbulence and transitional uproar. Curating a healthier me meant attempting to calm the chaos!

It's hard to hush the impulsive + debauched nature within me which is consistently rearing it's head and howling for engagement ~ my ADHD chaos gremlin mind forever nipping at my ankles with temptation. But this weekend I turned down TWO festivals to stay at home and work away on various admin and catching up on my to do list! And I'm HELLA proud of that lil spark of self control haha.

Slowly but surely cultivating an self employed lifestyle where I'll be able to revel in all the ferality and ridiculous adventures in a guilt free mindset, due to learning the concept of balance to help me actually continue doing what I do & also grow and blossom further into it!

For a long time it felt like I was in the desolate ashes of my previous fun-filled (albeit avoidant) lifestyle. Now I'm sat watching the seedlings of my efforts sprout from the decay ~ with assurance that the work pays off + excitement for where I'm headed 🥰


📷 ~ Tobylewis.me.uk