Keeping to Myself (full demo) (Patreon)

Headphones on again
Drowning out the violent sounds of voices in my head
Every word I've read
Weaponized like sharpened knives
Deep cuts from pages

Take me back to a time when everything was okay
'Cause I fear right now, I fear right now, I fear right now
There's a beast inside that's settling in to stay
Feeding on everything I'm keeping to myself

Silas said, "You take yourself wherever you go,"
Even down to the grave, to the greater unknown
And that's the only thing that's keeping me here
That's keeping me here, if I'm being honest

I'm afraid that I'd eternally exist in the dark
With nothing but my own thoughts
How long can I pretend that everything's a walk in the park
Even though I know it's not?

Take me back to a time when everything was okay 'Cause I fear right now, I fear right now, I fear right now There's a beast inside that's settling in to stay Feeding on everything I'm keeping to myself

Take me back to a time when everything was okay 'Cause I fear right now, I fear right now, I fear right now There's a beast inside that's settling in to stay Feeding on everything I'm keeping to myself

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Not something I'd post in public, but a writing exercise for me. I need to get back to writing again.