Life Goes On, Gerard (draft) (Patreon)

I wrote this new song for the first friend I ever lost, Gerard. My first experience of grief. Wrote this from the perspective of a 6-year-old kid who has little experience with loss. Back then, I didn't feel the full weight of grief and loss. There was only a weird mix of confusion and false hope. This song is meant to capture that feeling.

Verse 1:

Today I had the strangest day

I was told that you had gone away

That left me dazed

I saw you yesterday

Now yesterday feels like a million years ago

Verse 2:

Hours ago, I called you out to play

But your mom told me you had no hair

I said it's okay

I don't mind

But if you want I could come back another time

Chorus:

Now I'm here

Lying in a hospital bed

Watching cartoons

And waiting for news that you'd come back

Like grandma's begging you to

What do I do without you?

Verse 3:

You always had the whitest face

People tell me that you're handsome

And your smile radiates

But to me you are a rascal

For the naughty little jokes you make

Verse 4:

I'm thinking of what I should say

When I see you walk into the room

I'd ask if I could stay

Overnight

I have a feeling it'll all be all right

Chorus:

So now I'm here

Lying in a hospital bed

Watching cartoons

And waiting for news that you'd come back

Like grandma's begging you to

What do I do without you?

Refrain:

Life goes on and on and on and on and on

Life goes on and on and on and on and on

Life goes on and on and on and on and on

Life goes on and on and on and on and on

And on and on and on and on

And on and on and on and on

and on and on and on, Gerard