tides (Patreon)

This photo has been such a journey for me in the last few days. On one hand, i think it’s a beautiful photo and I’m so thankful to Emily for catching it. On the other hand, it’s not a pose or light situation that I’m used to seeing my body in. It’s different and a little uncomfortable and it’s brought me feelings of anxiety and discomfort and shame about my body and how it’s changed. It’s a reminder that loving yourself is a variable thing, and learning to accept your appearance is not a linear path.

I go through phases of liking my body more, and not liking it so much. My body changes constantly too, confusing that process. It helps to look back at where I was a year ago, two years ago, five years ago, and see how far I've come.