[Stream] i have slept for 0 minutes (Patreon)

i am NOT suffering, i am ALIVE, and FULL of ENERGY
sort of
it's like that hollow energy
that you get when you're jiving at a party or something
but then you suddenly remember you're the only one there who isn't blasted out of their mind
so it's actually like you're alone in a dark room
rhythm pulsing four-four syncopated beats on a standard E minor progression
bodies moving all around you but no souls in them
only their tired forms of flesh slung to and fro by rituals that defy gravity and health in equal parts celebrating the loss of the mind, loss of the moment, loss of control
somehow in between the greet and meet grinder tinder kindling a tender cinder romance realizing the hidden bidden fantasizing a minute minute for a second chance at just feeling something besides a comfortable numbness

so YEEE HAW folks let's do this thang

jokes actually i'll probably become visibly dead to the world as soon as i have to figure out what to write on the first less-than-ideal review

also turns out i should've checked before planning this stream but there aren't actually that many reviews to do so depending on how long they take one of two things either one i will go the fuck to sleep or two we will do some random stupid impulsive not impulsive pointless seemingly impulsive graphic

bam