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Ben waits outside while Kris and Alan reunite. And new revelations threaten to unravel everything Ben thought he knew about his friend.

Excited to hear what you all think about the newest episode! 💖

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Jade Diaz

I am absolutely **feral** for the lighting, shading, wrinkles, moles, freckles and imperfections in the art here. I mean, also feral for Kris telling Ben to have a hot steaming mug of STFU because this is a woman who is fierce and has nothing to lose except her few score grams of “tissue” as Bella would say.

Erica Rost

Chris knows there's no turning back, but does she really know where she wants to go?

Jade Diaz

Seems pretty obvious from what she tells Alan, no?

Maggie Heels

That is... really a powerful cliffhanger... ❣️❣️❣️ and OMFG that hair at last page... 😍😍😍 cutting them off must have hurt like hell.

Gemma

Such amazing images. Kris looks so beautiful. Looking at her face during love making with Alan it is very clear there is no going back and to who her heart belongs. The images of her backside when lying on her stomach are exquisite. You can further see here why, if you looked like Kris, you would never want to go back.

Zoe Storm

Oh yeah this slaps. I honestly feel for Kris and I hope Ben will listen to her.

Kirsten Roberts

This story gets better every episode and it’s already my all time favorite. I cannot wait for the next one.

Kris Greg

I love this. It's so different than "Jack & Jill" & "Half Sisters." I like how you're diving into Chris's psyche, & her/his mental changes. Not that you were ever a bad storyteller, but your stories are getting better & better!

Ella Cherry

Great chapter! Now, I can't wait for more of this one and Jack and Jill! Are you doing this on purpose, Emory? 😉

Tim

I had always thought, perhaps like many of your other readers, that Kris's homecoming began in Episode 1. I now realize that her homecoming has yet to occur, and we're about to find out what "Homecoming" really means. While I can't wait to hear her story of those "missing" six weeks, I wouldn't be at all surprised (nor at all upset) if Season 3 was devoted entirely to those six weeks that changed her life so significantly. How could you possibly stretch six weeks out so long? Did I just ask that of the artist who has crafted 21 episodes/525+ panels of J&J Phase 9 and has yet to cover more than 40 hours in Jill's life?

Crewchick

Completely agree! You just keep getting better and better Emory.

Crewchick

Definitely a very powerful and informative episode. My favorite scene is by far the diner scene where we learn a lot about Kris' history before being kidnapped and force changed. While I don't see Kris changing back, I do think Ben has a point about counseling. Kris has been through a lot without the necessary behavioral healthcare to help her process and adapt in a healthy way. Not that I know how one healthily adapts to a brutally forced gender change. And the fact that Kris is still being forced to work for the kidnappers and select their next victim and deliver him to them makes it clear this trauma is far from over.

Crewchick

As for Alan, he may be a good guy,Dad and all. But he and Kris met under very sketchy conditions with him patronizing a slave brothel. Kris was deprived of human contact, physically changed and abused. Her connection with Alan may be a bit Stockholm Syndrome like. No he was not the abuser, but he was her only meaningful human contact the whole time she was in captivity. It is more than possible her connection to him is contrived out of desperation and necessity than out of love, even if she thinks what she is feeling is love. Again, I am not dissing or throwing shade on Alan, there is just not enough known about him yet. Though I am sure Emory has a whole backstory episode ready to go or in development. I just think Kris, or anyone who has been through what Kris has been through, would need at least a year of counselling before jumping into any relationship, even her marriage.

Tim

I agree, Diana. I'd like to think that Al might have insisted that Kris see a behavioral healthcare specialist during the "missing" six weeks she's about to tell Ben about. Perhaps psychotherapy helped her realize, at least in part and with such certainty, that Chris is gone and Kris is here to stay.

Robertlouis

As more of this absorbing and ever surprising series unwinds, I come to admire your remarkable storytelling skills, Emory. Having read the series from start to finish it’s really quite incredible to consider where we are now after the terrifying beginning. And yet in some ways Kris’s situation hasn’t changed all that much. Despite the happiness that she’s found with Alan and his son, it’s still fragile and fleeting, and could be snatched away at any moment. Bella’s threat hangs over every aspect of her life. In a conventional storyline Kris and Alan would live happily ever after, and Kayla and Benji would find love too, but this is Emory Ahlberg’s world, and while a happy ending is a distant prospect, there are probably at least seven circles of hell to get through before we get anywhere near there. But ye gods, if anyone deserves a happy ending, it’s Kris.

Elrod W

Ah, the complications multiply. Kris is very much in love with Alan and likes being called 'Mom'. From the dialog and previous chapters, it's clear that Chris still has feelings from Kayla, but one has to wonder if the 'return' was from those feelings or from a sense of guilt. From the preview, and from the 'dark secrets' that Kris hints at, the conspiracy goes much deeper than Kris will admit - perhaps in the time in confinement, Kris 'serviced' some high-ranking pervs in government, enough to realize that this is far, far bigger than imagined, and bigger than Ben would be able to comprehend? Kris is frightened of revealing something - what is yet to be revealed, but waiting for Emory to reveal all the pieces is blissful torture! I'm more convinced that Cindy with the gun is not about to betray Kris, but is assisting Kris. Why? Maybe a confrontation with Ben - or some other cop - about what Kris isn't saying? Maybe to satisfy the condition of release - trapping someone else? And the cell images - flashbacks, or perhaps a Ben POV, where HE'S the new victim? But - if so, is he a 'real' victim, or a voluntary 'plant' to try to unscramble Bella's little sadistic conspiracy? Or maybe, he gets enough from Kris, pieces together more from other sources, and Cunt starts seeing him as a real threat? Or he's too close to discovering her 'insider' position? Cindy gets the choice - go back, or get Ben? Or Cindy acts in the 'friendly' role - and gets Ben while Ben is talking to Kris - because again a threat from the Cunt? And we need to wonder - why was Kris arrested, and how did they find out that Kris was really Chris? That's a huge piece of background that might - might - play a role in how this will all get resolved! There are SO many devious plot twists that we have yet to see! And I'm impatient - I want the complete story yesterday! But I'll try to force myself to wait, even though waiting gives my actively-warped imagination time to think of new ways Emory could make the plot look like a plate of spaghetti!

Emory Ahlberg

LOL, thank you, Ella! I do EVERYTHING on purpose. 💖

SingularCurve

Aint that the truth Kris. People, even and especially if they are friends sometimes, just dont listen to us. They try to fix us when we dont need fixing because we figured out some truths of our own lives. These truths are often harsh, and profound. We remember our own lives up to that point, and just dont want to go back for any number of reasons. We are better for it. We dont need fixing. We need people to listen and understand and that is so fucking RARE in your world or mine. Stand your ground babe, you got this, and you got people in your corner.

SingularCurve

Emory is super devious, reminds me of other authors who had deep far ranging plots that made me think and love their stories. Ill refrain from naming author names but well Early Gen 1 Whateley Academy stories, Any Other Name, Blood of the Covenant, On My Best Behaviour, The Witches of Florma, and even Welcome to Dorley Hall are some of my favorite stories of recent memory. Not to mention all the Bikini Beach and other shorter stories that helped me cope when I still lived fucking close to Narnia. The closet was way too cold and dark, so Im glad I moved out, eventually. Thanks to every author in the generas that I have read over the years for the positive trans content on the web. You never know when your going to help keep a young trans person around long enough to become an old trans person. Just. Like. Me.

Emory Ahlberg

Two weeks late but thank you, Jade! As we're seeing, Kris is definitely her own woman.

Emory Ahlberg

Kris wants her own life - and she's willing to do anything to have it.

Emory Ahlberg

Thank you! Kris, at least, thinks she is here to stay... and is very willing to do whatever it takes to remain.

Emory Ahlberg

We'll just have to see HOW dense he is, Zoe... 💕

Emory Ahlberg

Thank you so much, Kristin! 💕 I really hope it continues to be... I love it, as well. Obviously the story and characters are very complex, but they're very rewarding to write.

Emory Ahlberg

Thank you, Tim! 💕 You totally nailed it. The idea of "homecoming" is central to Kris's journey. Going back to Kayla in that first episode wasn't a homecoming so much as it was Chris trying to cram himself back into an old life that just doesn't fit anymore. It’s all history and expectation. He was a ghost walking through a museum of who he used to be. But Alan... Alan never knew Christopher. He only knows Kris. He met her, not her memory. For Kris, his apartment is the one place on earth where she can just be, without having to explain or apologize for who she is now. That’s home. It's not a place, it's a person who sees you for YOU. And you totally called me out on the pacing, haha. Guilty. I just feel like the most intense, life-altering stuff doesn't happen over years. It happens in those super-condensed, high-pressure moments. A single day can feel like a lifetime, and I want to unpack all the messy, beautiful, and terrifying things that go on inside a person's head during that time. I’m so glad you’re along for the ride. 💖

Emory Ahlberg

Aw, thank you both so much!!! 💕 This is definitely a different kind of story than either J&J or H.S. I feel like J&J is more of an epic, H.S. is a college relationship drama, and Homecoming feels very personal and dramatic.

Emory Ahlberg

Thank you, Diana and Tim! You're right that Kris is dealing with an unbelievable amount of trauma. And your observation about Alan and the "sketchy" origins of their connection is absolutely right. And something Kris recognizes, too: Is their bond something more complex than just a reaction to desperation? In that basement, Chris was being erased, but Alan was one of the first people to see Kris. He didn't see a victim or a project to be fixed. He saw a woman he was drawn to. He gave her moments of normalcy and kindness that were not conditional on her past or her trauma. He treated her like a person when she was being treated as an object. That act of seeing her, purely as she was in that moment, was the lifeline. Now, whether a connection forged in such darkness can survive in the light of day is one of the central questions. But I do think love born from necessity can still be love... under the right circumstances. 😊

Emory Ahlberg

Thank you, Robert! Sorry I'm just getting to this wonderful comment now. I think you've put your finger on the story's central tension. The physical cell is gone, but the prison has just become bigger and, in many ways, more insidious because it’s invisible. Her happiness with Alan is the most authentic thing in her life, a genuine island of peace, but it's an island surrounded by a sea of threats. Every moment of joy she feels is shadowed by the deal she was forced to make, the lies she has to tell, and the danger hovering over the people she loves. The cage has become psychological. Everyone deserves a happy ending, and you are so right that Kris has earned one ten times over. I just think her version of happiness will look radically different from what anyone, including herself, might have imagined at the start. It has to be built, not found. It has to be fought for not just against external monsters like Bella and The Cunt, but against the ghosts inside herself and the expectations of the people who think they know what's best for her. That is the true, final circle of hell she has to walk through.

Emory Ahlberg

Thank you, Elrod! Honestly calling the plot a "plate of spaghetti" is one of the highest compliments I can receive, because that's what trauma and survival feel like. It's a messy, overlapping, and often contradictory knot of experiences. It's fascinating to see you pinpoint the central conflict between Chris's feelings for Kayla and Kris's love for Alan. I think the idea of guilt is a huge part of it. For Chris, Kayla represents the life that was stolen from him. Returning to her is an attempt to reclaim a piece of that stolen identity, to prove that Christopher Bowman isn't entirely gone. Kris’s feelings for Alan, however, are rooted entirely in the present. Alan is the first person who saw her without the ghost of Chris standing behind her. He fell for the woman she is now, not the man she used to be. For Kris, being "Mom" to Dustin is (or could be) the foundation of a new life, a new identity built on choice and affection, not on memory and obligation. The pasta is only going to get more tangled from here! LOL. Singular: I'm wondering if you realized when writing your comment that Elrod invented the Bikini Beach universe and has written many of the stories you may have loved! 😊

Emory Ahlberg

Thank you, Singular! Yes, that desperate, painful need to be heard instead of "fixed" is the entire engine driving Kris's story right now. I always saw Benji as the ultimate embodiment of that dynamic. He loves Chris, there is no doubt about that. But he loves the memory of Chris. His version of help is a restoration project. He wants to sandblast away the trauma and the identity that grew from it to get back to the original framework he understands. When he dismisses Kris's feelings for Alan as "the gay stuff" or "Stockholm syndrome," he's trying to invalidate her reality to make it fit back into his own. The tragedy of Benji isn't malice, I don't think. It's in his inability to see beyond the person he thought he knew. He's still the "dumbest smartest guy" Kris knew, intellectually capable but emotionally blind to truths that challenge his (pretty narrow) worldview. Kris is choosing the home she found, not the one she left behind.

Crewchick

Emory, I know you wrote him, but I think you are being a little hard on Benji. Kris had three or four years to create her new personality and reality and learn to live with it. Granted all during and trough the most extreme trauma no one would wish on anyone. This has all just been thrown into Benji and Kayla's lap. Their memories and reality of the relationship with Chris were frozen in amber. Kris has also been out from captivity several months. At least 3 or 4 adjusting to being Kris out in regular society. We don't yet know how or why Kris was apprehended by police and wound-up reconnecting with Benji and Kayla. In Episode 27 it is clear Kris had no intention of doing so. She did not want to disrupt their lives, potentially put them at risk from Bella, open up her own memories and pain, or derail her flourishing relationship with Allen. Yet somehow the reunion took place with no warning or preparation. Having your fiance and best friend come back from the dead after over three years or more would overwhelm anyone. Seeing that person return physically transformed down to their voice and appearing to be comfortable with it is mind blowing level mental overload for even the most easy going and open minded people. I think it is going to be painful for Benji to hear and accept that his best friend, back from the dead, was attempting to pursue a dramatically different life and was intentionally choosing to exclude him from it. While Kris is attempting to affirm her new identity and reality, she is also dropping one brutal and painful truth bomb on Benji at the diner, that she had already chosen a life that excluded him, Kayla and most likely all the rest of Chris's friends and family. That is an awful big pill to swallow all at one without any warning, notice or preparation. Kris's monologue may seem life choice affirming to some, but I also see it being a bit dishonest, selfish and callus. Kris may want to believe she could transition back but is making her choice not to, but the reality is that many of the things done to her were irreversible. Many of the few things that were not irreversible are not 100% reversible to exactly how Chris was before the original transition. So a new Chris would not look very much like the old Chris. And might not look all that convincing as a male, despite the fact Chris started out as a biological male. While such a reality might make Kris feel more like a victim forced to accept what someone else has made her, it would create a foundation for Chris' friends and family to better understand and accept why Chris was embracing her new identity and femininity. Even if forced upon Chris/Kris without any way to fully transition back to Chris, there is still a very hard and important choice for Kris to accept and thrive in her hew reality or reject and die. As Bella told Kris there were many men who chose to die rather than accept what was happening to them. That they could not see that life in any form has value, meaning and purpose is sad beyond words. It is also interesting that that picture we get of Chris from Kris is very different from what we get from Benji and Kayla. They see a stand up best friend. A compassionate and protective fiance. Kris seems to hold a passive aggressive contempt for Chris. She describes him as week, as basically a coward shutting down and going into hiding when the torture began. That he was too honest and soft for this world. She backhandedly thanks him for being so weak to allow her to be born. It seems like she has absorbed at least some of Bella's views on men, at least in part pertaining to Chris. Since Kris IS Chris, this seems like something screaming out for counseling and therapy. Not to force her back into being Chris, but to better channel the emotions behind those comments which are essentially a form of self hate or manifestation of multiple personalities caused by a break from reality due to overwhelming psychological trauma.

Crewchick

I know Bella commented that many men rather die than be women. But I think in Chris/Kris' case I think it would be far easier and better to live as a convincing woman than try and re-transition only to look and feel nothing like his former self and appear to be a far less genuine male, or worse a collection of botched procedures. We don't yet know Bella's background other than she is or as a medical doctor. But from the looks of Kris and Cindy Bella's pharmaceutical skills and surgical skills are superior. Undoing her work will be difficult if not impossible.

Crewchick

The key thing you said under the right circumstances. And if it dose not survive then it begs the question whether it was in fact love or simply a coping mechanism to trauma. Even when people meet at vacation resorts in the most splendid and exotic locations where everything seems perfect and they think they have fallen in love with their soul mate, they find when they return home to the mundane, the manic and the stress of real life that they often find Mr or Ms Right is actually pretty wrong. And these people were talking to each all that time! Al only learned Kris' real story the night she showed up at his apartment. Because Kris was prohibited from talking most of what they has was the physical. Whether love is found on an exotic vacation or some basement prison brothel the real test comes from family, friends, work, long distance relationships, even what toothpaste you both use. All these things play a factor. You should not pick a mate to please your family or your friends, but you also need a mate that gets along and fits in, or is at least willing to make the effort. While Al did not ask it, Kris seemed intent on burning all bridges with Chris' past. Kris could come to resent Al for letting her do that. It should also be a red flag for Al. It is almost like she is punishing the people in Chris' past for the trauma Bella inflicted. That seems like an unhealthy transference. Chris was a medical student, is Kris going to go back to medical school? That is demanding as hell and can put very strong relationships through the ringer. Who knows how it might impact Kris and AL? Or is Kris going to to do something else? Or is she going to be a stay at home mom supported by Al? Again those are very loaded subjects. Again could Kris come to resent Al if she chooses the domestic route and then later comes to feel under fulfill? I also think Kris has an unhealthy binary view of her and Chris. It seems to be so far from her comments and monologues either Chris or her. She describes Chris as the week one and her the strong one. She says he would have made a good doctor but was too good and naïve for this world. She says he is dead and basically buried him a second time on that 9th day. But Kris did not just spontaneously come into being fully independent of Chris but for his body. She evolved from him or maybe more accurately he has evolved into her. Her memories, skills, and abilities are all his. If she tries to erase him from her she is essentially diluting and erasing herself. It was Chris' medical knowledge that saved Al's son. She can't easily sever Chris from her life,. And she may not realize it yet, but she very much needs Chris to remain a part of her because they are one in the same. I know we talked about Nikki being an untrustworthy narrator, and I think that is true for Kris as well. I don't think we can trust her perceptions and judgements because she dose not seem to have time to have really processed the trauma and to some extent is still living it because she is under pressure to find a replacement or be taken back to Bella's prison. When someone comes back from war they are often changed. It may be physical with amputations or it may be mental from all the trauma and stress they endured. But they call the life they live with these disabilities their "new normal". Kris is Chris' new normal. There is no going back to who Chris was before either physically or emotionally. But that dose not mean Chris ceases to exist.

SingularCurve

Emory, that is specifically why I mentioned Bikini Beach. I caught the name, I knew immediately from the way Elrod's comments were written that they were the same person. I didnt want to bring up specific names but wanted to make sure that Elrod would know I was partially talking about him without causing any second hand embarrassment.