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Hi; it's Austen and this is a pretty embarrassing post to make, but it's probably pretty obvious by now that I've been struggling a bit this year. Insomnia sucks. OCD sucks. I'm feeling broken and panicked, and am not alone or special in that, but it's really taken me off the ball when it comes to editing. I'm really sorry about this, and have hated saying "sorry for the wait" every month lately.

I wanted to get August's LET'S ARGUE out this past weekend but my internet went out. It's up to you guys if you want me to post the episode this weekend or just post a double-length episode using new takes at the end of this month, which would help me get back on an end-of-the-month schedule (does that even matter now with the way Patreon changed the resub timing?). I'm happy to do either, and can't stress enough how grateful I am for your support and that I don't take it for granted. Thank you!

Either way I'll be making a new LET'S ARGUE thread tomorrow.

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Uncle Jam

If a double length episode makes your life easier, than I'm more than happy to wait. Thank you so much for everything you do Austen!

Ivan cesareo

Aw. It sucks to hear that you’re having problems with insomnia. That hits too close to home tbh. I hope you’re doing well and I think I can speak for everyone when I say we appreciate the effort you put into making awesome content and to keep up the good work! While prioritizing your health as well ofc.

theneedledrop

thanks for the sweet words & sorry you've had trouble w/ insomnia too. there was a span of over a month earlier this year where i was like alternating days w/o being able to sleep. and then when i did it still wasn't as much as it should be 😓

Mark Walton

As an OCD-haver I feel your pain. No rush for content, just take care of yourself.

Josh Brown

I was never diagnosed with insomnia per say but i do take regular sleep medication or else I would only sleep maybe 10 hours a week 😅, so i am sorry to hear you have been dealing with that and understand whole heartedly how it can disrupt the creative process. Of course I would love to hear Anthony respond to my bomb take but I have plenty more if you need more time to recoup. Your work is always top tier and an integral part of what makes this channel so great, so it’s worth the wait. Sorry for the long-winded post

patrick

I got OCD too and the fact that ur even able to work like this is a feat in of itself lol. It’s legit a mental hell at times. Whatever decision puts focusing on your mental health first is fine by us trust me.

Karen

take all the time you need! mental health comes first

Monkeydudem

Much Love your way Austen

theneedledrop

i've been improving on the ocd front but it's something you gotta stay on top of. as a video editor it's definitely not the best to develop ridiculous superstitions or negative connections w/ a bunch of different numbers lol. i probably spent as much time last year redoing cuts when i saw frame adjustments that bothered me as i did actually editing the vids Godspeed to you w/ yours 🫶🏻

theneedledrop

ah i hope you're able to phase out the sleep aid over time or get a proper diagnosis/prescription (unless you mean you do have a prescription). i have found melatonin helps me at least fall asleep most nights. i'm prone to night terrors, and it did ramp those up for a while, but it doesn't really cause them anymore

Herbieguy

I'm down either way. I doubt we're allowed double takes so I gotta be really careful what I sub for the XL episode if you go that route. I'm not sure whether to sub two spicy ones or to sub a 'weaker' one in case I prefer the better one get through.

theneedledrop

nah doubles would be cool. but honestly i'm prob just gonna post the eppy this weekend anyway 😎

Josh Brown

I am glad to hear it has lessened, I can’t imagine what it’s like to live with those. And my aid is a prescription, straight from a psychiatrist haha

BlueZones

Got diagnosed with OCD last year, shit sucks. Hope you’re feeling better soon.

theneedledrop

sorry you're going thru it too; wishing you well. it probably sounds trite but it does get better, but takes a lot of energy

Jac

Hey, you're a real person, with heart, top notch skills, wit and creativity, doing your best. I don't see anyone here taking issue. Thanks for letting us know what's up though, that helps.