I am so sorry again (Patreon)

I'm so sorry to have basically disappeared and made no art at all in months, but life has been so hard in the last few months.

I don't like to share bad news because I don't want my friends to be sad for me, and I want to be seen as a happy person, but I also think you must know since you're supporting me even if I'm not making any content...

My pets suddenly started to get seriously ill. For basically no reason at all. Every one with a different, completely unrelated illness.

First Peach, my favorite cuddly chicken got sudden pneumonia. She was fine in the morning, and dying at 6 pm. I rushed to the vet and he was able to save her life, but it took her 3 weeks to be able to stay with the flock again, and she will probably never be the same since she has now chronic breathing issues because of scar tissue in her air sacs.

A couple of weeks later, Little Hen, another of my cuddly chickens, started falling asleep suddenly. Then she stopped eating. We brought her to the vet and he found a huge ovarian cyst that was displacing all of her organs. Long story short, she had to be tube fed for 20+ days and spend 15 days hospitalized at the vet clinic. Now she recovered and thankfully she's back to her old self.

Not even 3 weeks later Kiwi, my next favorite chicken, got severely sick and yesterday she died from liver failure. I'm devastated. And I'm terrified that I will lose more pets. I'm absolutely unable to do any art at the moment, I can't think of anything but Kiwi. If I think about drawing her, I just start crying and I can't even hold my pen.

I'm really sorry, I hope I'll be out of this depressive state soon so I can resume doing at least a few sketches. In the meantime, thank you so much for supporting me even if I'm a terrible content creator. I feel so guilty for this.