El abismo (Patreon)

I remember being reading about the painter Dora Carrington those weeks. Dora commited suicide on march the 11th 1932. Gerald Brenan who had a sentimental relation with Dora wrote about her death and those words really impacted me, they were utterly touching.
As a result, my series "El abismo" emerged from those words.

Dora Carrington was an English painter and decorative artist, remembered in part for her association with members of the Bloomsbury Group, especially the writer Lytton Strachey.

"The soul becomes a star, I mean, the memory of her death, her abandonment, will be preserve all of eternity, it will be branded for no one may ever forget it. Her hair became a river of blood and fire.
The second image was and intense and inexplicable abyss that kept us appart, wrote Brenan in 1925."

"On friday the 11th of march, I received a telegram that announced her death. I rented a car and drove all the way to Ham Spray that night.

She shot herself that same morning around 8 a.m.. She lost conciousness around noon and died some time later.
Firstly she removed her favorite carpet for she didn't want to ruin it with all the blood. Instead she placed a less precious carpet to make people think she had slippered and fall.
Dora did not die at once, alone in a empty house.
The gardener who had discovered her on her bedroom floor fatally wounded in the side.
She had pointed the gun to heart and pulled the trigger. But since she had forgotten to release the safety catch nothing happened. This must have put her out for when she pulled it again the gun was not pointed correctly and the shot, though taking away part of her side, missed her heart."

(Extracto del Diario sobre Dora Carrington,usado por Gerald Brenan en Memoria personal)